it was like yesterday
letting my mother see me weak
for the first time
in so long
it was like yesterday
when i sat on her bed
trying to swallow emotion
that was crawling its way up my throat
gripping harder than reality
it was like yesterday
i begged her
i cried
and i begged her
it was like yesterday
"please"
"please i dont want to go"
"i cant face them"
"i cant face any of it"
it was like yesterday
i let my guard down
"i dont want to go to school dont make me go please"
it was like yesterday*
sobbing
a mess
she didnt touch me
no comfort
no ounce of sympathy on her face
"you go"

"please, no"

"you go"

she always made me face it
she always made me face it
i always had to face it


its been 4 years.
"please dont make me go"
maybe if i beg one more time it'll work today