There were Chinese lanterns at New Year when it was so cold the fireworks froze in the air, bursts of red and silver beside the dazzling lights of London. From our perch on Parliament Hill we stood, anonymous in the crowd, looking down at the giddy world and at the final minute of the year it was just you and I and then it started to snow. Families let off the slow moving lanterns, children held them tight in their hands- but they were pulling, pulling caught by the night wind, their ghostly silhouettes drifted up and up, til they became stars themselves to us. They were moments of peace against the busy noise of the city, softly golden, trustingly floating further and further. I didn't know that you too would soon be gone and nothing I could say would change your mind.
If I had thought to then I would have made a wish on each lantern I saw rising like a thousand spirit kings above the earth. I would have wished and wished, and sent my heart out there too:
I will always remember the soft chills of snow beginning to fall and the quiet beauty of those Chinese lanterns. I will remember your hand slipping into mine, and the silent slide of that year into the past, yes, I will remember.