i can't help but feel like i am partially to blame
for everything that happened to you
i left when you needed me
and now when i see you and you smile at me
i know it is out of shame and pity
and you try to say hello
but i hear the shaking in your voice
and i saw the signs
and i saw the markings that lead you to where you are now
and i think about what i could have done to change this
but remember you didn't want to be changed
but i tried to hard

and i heard you crying for help
but why didn't you accept it?
was it attention that you wanted
did you get what you needed?

and i heard you screaming and swearing at me
dont look at me like that
how could you
and i know you were mad because i intervened
but i couldn't let you waste away

although look now
where have you gone?
where will you go from here?

i passed you yesterday
and we looked at one another
and then we looked away
not saying a word
not even a smile
or a wave