You'd think I'd be use it to it by now. All the heartache should be nothing to me anymore. I don't understand why it's hitting me so hard. Technically, you're free to do whatever you want. I can't allow that. I'm clearly lying that I dont want you anymore. Though deeply everybody can see right through me. They know Im just lying to myself that I'm over it. It shouldn't hurt. How I wish i didn't. You were amazing. Beyond compare. Things are just messing up too much. Everything is just happening so fast.  I'm sure you probably started thinking that I stopped caring because I stopped talking to you but you  hearing that I stopped loving you is one of the biggest lie that you can ever hear out there. I may have "stopped" caring because I wanted you to do all the things that you might think cheer you up and once again make you smile but the thing is I never stopped loving you. I never will because that’s what I said from the start. that promise is a promise I won't break it.So tell me whats good with you ?!