I can hear everything.
I can hear a baby crying, the clock ticking, my mother yelling, my dad tapping me on the shoulder, my sister asking me for help, my brother's controller clicking, and yet I hear my heart beating faster and faster. All the noises fade away while I stand there breathing trying to take in everything that's happening.
I feel like the world is going in circles, I feel like I’m spinning. Then I’m gone.

I can just imagine..
laying down on a field full of red poppies.
Feeling free
Feeling at peace with the world.
So quiet.
Feeling the warm light sink into my skin.
I close my eyes.
And I let go..
Of everything

I finally got over you, and you came back.. why? Why all of a sudden you come back when I’m finally over you?! I was happy you came back, but I realized things are different now. I don’t need you anymore, you hurt me. I can’t go back to feeling that pain again.

I feel weak.
I feel sleepy.
I feel sad.
I feel this tightness in my chest.
Im shaking.. why did I do this to myself.
I can hear my heart beating faster and faster.
I don’t deserve this.
I feel dumb.
I feel sore.
Im tired
Im tired of everything..
we’re right back to where we started..

I feel bad for her..
Why did she let him?
Why did she say yes so easily?
Why, why, why, WHY?!
She was so innocent..
She was so kind..
She was happy.
And he just used her like nothing.
He manipulated her.
But..
Is it her fault?
She doesn’t know what to feel anymore.
All of her emotions are twisted together.
“I told you, to protect yourself” Everyone said to her.
I dropped down to my knees, I cried and cried and asked myself..
Is this how cruel life really is? Why did I let him in my life so easily..