I’m running out of time
a sudden rush of uneasiness
Eyesight fading
My thoughts invading
Hands trembling
Throat closing up
Feels like i’m mumbling
My voice is fading
Gasping for air
I want to yell.
Eyes swollen up
From all the tears.
Now I'm drowning in all my fears.
Someone come help
But no one hears.
Sinking into my sorrows
No hand to borrow
That sharpness in my chest
After seeing the darkness
this feeling of weakness
Making me breathless
Until i finally take my very last breath
Wishing it was painless.

I noticed the small beautiful scar on his hand.
Admiring and wondering what had happened.
I want to know more.
Was it from your childhood?
Was it an accident?
I want to ask you.
I want to know what you’re feeling.
What’s on your mind?
You’re so hard to figure out.
A mystery
I can’t solve.
You look around a lot
Can never tell what your thinking.
You’re so different.
And complicated
It drives me crazy
I’m so impatient
But I wouldn’t mind wating.
You make me think so much.
Yet when I’m around you my thoughts vanish into dust.
Maybe it’s toxic.
maybe unhealthy.
But there’s just something about you.
a spark that you don’t even see.
My mind is always talking about you.
I wish you could hear.
Had a feeling about you from the beginning
There’s so much I want to say to you
But yet I can’t
It’s so beautiful being with you yet I have this feeling something is missing.

She's still blooming  
She’s trying to understand
She needs to find out who she really is
and figure out what she truly wants.
She’s confused
And a mess.
She thinks too much
And People get tired of her because she can't make up her mind.
She makes dumb decisions
Making things more complicated
She doesn’t think things through
And she ends up feeling blue
She makes too many excuses
She doesn’t know what's the truth.
She stays quiet
Never says a thing
So Many people think she’s boring
But i promise you she’s amazing
Just wait till you see her bloom.

Everytime I drown into that bittersweet taste
I get this fuzzy feeling.
Like my minds been erased.
My tears roll down as i stare into the ceiling
Just thinking.
There are other ways to let it out instead of draining
But if I don't I’ll feel like I’m sinking.
I’ve tried to stop but I just end up missing that feeling.
I don’t want to end up like my father.
So I decided it’s time to stop for a while.
Don’t want to be intoxicated and instead walk around with a smile.

I’m still a kid
I still act like one
I miss getting in trouble at school
I don't like being serious
I like to mess around and laugh.
But i feel like people see me as a boring person
And i know i'm not but here I feel like it.  
I just feel like I don't belong here.
Maybe just maybe it's the mask that we wear.
Covering up who we really are.
They hide our faces and make us seem unapproachable

I can hear everything.
I can hear a baby crying, the clock ticking, my mother yelling, my dad tapping me on the shoulder, my sister asking me for help, my brother's controller clicking, and yet I hear my heart beating faster and faster. All the noises fade away while I stand there breathing trying to take in everything that's happening.
I feel like the world is going in circles, I feel like I’m spinning. Then I’m gone.

I can just imagine..
laying down on a field full of red poppies.
Feeling free
Feeling at peace with the world.
So quiet.
Feeling the warm light sink into my skin.
I close my eyes.
And I let go..
Of everything