Every night I lay in bed wondering how you are
I’ve never felt so close to anyone yet so far
I’ve stopped smoking and I think a lot now
I’d tell you it’s hard if you ever asked how
But we don’t speak
And we don’t text
Plus we don’t met
Because of ur ex
Every time we see each other it feels hard
But more accurately I do
You bend over and I see everything
I can’t help but begin reminiscing
How could I let you go so easily
Because making broad statements isn’t me
I can’t even keep to a strict rhythmic structure
I’m so lame and my brain is about to rupture
It’s like every step takes me further from you
But closer to my dreams so it’s what I’ll do
I’ve decided to write away and never overthink
Because then you’ll remain stuck on the brink
Unable to fall off completely
Because you complete me
And I’m so uncontrollably obsessed with you.

But let’s be honest.. You don’t exist.

It’s annoying because I can hear you breathing. But I’m glad because my *** had you screaming.
You’ve left your hand lingering in mine.
It’s been there since about quarter past nine.
I put on Frank Ocean to help me sleep.
But I could never linger that deep.
Because you keep shuffling and moving.
You may be naked but it’s awfully confusing.
Why can’t you just lay there quietly.
But if you did there’d be nothing to inspire me.
Yet another number or should I say lover?
I guess so after what we did under the cover.
I’ll make sure to include what we did in a song.
That way you can look back and hold on.
Because that’s all we’ll have together.
Just a memory to make you wetter.
But as much as you want me to stay.
I think it’s time leave and get on with my day.
My week, my month, my year, my life. Goodnight.

Yours unlovingly

A Boy

I guess it’s time to write something new
Since i’ve only just been introduced to you
You’ve helped me question my way of living
Reinvigorated my world and made me driven
Without you it seems I would’ve been stuck
In a paradox where there wouldn’t be us
But as I watch my **** and I write these poems
I think about your words and recite my omens
Of how I’m destined to be greater than man
Cause if anybody can do it then this black boy can
But for now i’ll stay within theses four walls
And keep calm when the beckoning calls
Believe me you’ll be right there by my side
You and I making sure that the world is mine
For you, for them, for us, forever.

Everything that comes out of your mouth hurts me.
So do the things that go in occasionally.
But who am I to keep you constantly by my side.
My words don’t have the power to change your mind.
The sounds you make are forever enchanting.
The sounds I make keep you prancing.
Away and away I watch you go.
As I search for words that you might know.
Every book I read seems to contain your presence.
Every song I hear seems to resonate your essence.
There’s no sweeter sound than what you say.
Every word has the potential to make my day.
To think that you’re not mine.
Makes me wonder if I’m a mime.
My silent words forever making no sound.
On your door my fists pound.
In this case actions speak quieter than words.
So I guess another man is who you deserve.

A Boy.