I see in front of me a road and path,
It winds and turns and throws me back,
I walk and run but no difference is made,
My legs are weak and I see my grave.

I go backwards and forwards,
The Cheshire cat I see,
“Which way do I go?”
And comes his reply,
“That all depends on where you want to be.”

Before my eyes all spun around,
The melded colors flew all around,
And my eyes were fixed on one road,
And suddenly I knew where I wanted to be,
But there I was, just my path, and me.

Sometimes I can’t get out of bed,
It’s the thought that you’re with her,
That girl who is always going to be prettier,
It doesn’t matter what her name is.
Every time someone says your name,
I flash back to that peach dress,
The warm summer night,
You took me in your arms,
Kissed me, breathless,
And asked me,
“Now why don’t you like this dress?”
How happy I was.  Just then.
And reality comes crashing down,
Like the loudest sound you’ve never heard,
And I’m in bed, and alone, and it’s dark.
Even this takes me back though,
To the night I couldn’t sleep,
And you found me in the kitchen,
You brought me back to bed,
And tried to make sense of my mind.
There is no one left to try,
And I’m too tired.
Sleep comes easily,
But dreams of you do not.
Memories are easier,
Sometimes.

Wild Turkey towers over us,
The motor hums and roars,
Gurgling along, cutting through.
We bounce then settle,
And feel the soft spray,
Of that ***** water.
Finding a deep shady spot,
There is splashing and crashing,
Against the sparkling muddy water,
The sun makes the surface warm,
But our feet feel the cool.
We swim and listen to the sound:
The whiskey river.

They say love is light...
Well, I know it was harder
than anticipated when we fell
And I know I scared you when I said
I wanted to die that night in the stairwell
And I know we put each other
through some of the same Hell
And I know we wouldn't speak
as much as we'd yell
But I still spend sleepless nights
just wishing you well
I still wish you well

Isang bagay,isang mithi na gusto ko
Mga bagay na ika'y magpapaligaya sa aking tuwina
Ngiti **** aking sinusulyapan
Pintig ng aking puso ikaw ang siyang hinahanap

Dalangin na kay tagal kang hinintay
Ngunit sa paglisan mo ako'y nalulumbay
Hayaan mo maiparating ang aking munting hiling
Pinapanalangin na ako'y mahalin

Kahit sa sandali'y  ikaw ay mahalin
Lubos na dinadasal sa Maykapal
Na ika'y patnubayan
Mahalin mo ang sarili mo at maging masaya

(Wash, rinse, repeat)

The white dome of bone beckons
For another wash, again
Again,
BACK into the shower basin, again
4th time tonight I'm BACK

Scrubbing my scalp
Fingernails on shriveled fingertips
digging trails & rivers
Through the skinny bone.
Crop circles all over my balloon head
showing & telling White Skull Diaries

Squeezing the shampoo bottle empty
Shaky, macabre cleansing;
I get lost watching the spiral of water & bubbles
As it vanishes down a drain

I step out of the steaming shower
And face a foggy mirror, again
Again,
I dispise the blurry reflection
All I see is a stark white skull anyway

It goes back far
This is going to be hard to hide
Exposing more and more white skull
"Just stop already
The drain's f*king clogged with hai   r"