it's so easy to talk about loneliness and pain
to romanticize all of these things that i've been feeling
and throw in rhymes here and there

but how do i get myself out of this mess?
how do you fall in love when you're so uncomfortable
with yourself?

it's 5 am again and all i can think of is
how quickly my fingers hover over the keys
and there are people rising but
i still cannot sleep

i am engulfed in sad songs and books and the quotes
in those books that tell me more about myself
than i ever can

(sometimes i wish some dead poets were my friends
and then sometimes i wish i could put on a mask
and masquerade around as another person,
as a stranger even to myself
i feel like i'd be more comfortable then)

tell me, what does it feel like to fall in love?
does it feel like electricity crawling up and down your spine,
like warm fuzzy feelings swirling in your stomach like wine?
and does it last? or do people just pretend?
will i ever find love? or will i be all alone in the end?

Who should I believe in this world full of liars?
My need for someone to trust completely now is dire.
You may say one thing, yet he means another.
Which one is true? Or are you two plotting together?

Do you two together have a master plan laid?
All I need now is for one or the other to come to my aid.
Neither of you know that inside I'm nearly dead,
or that the two of you are the source of all my dread.

Seven billion strong
and each one of us
alone in our thoughts.

r ~ 3Mar14

You help me and I'll help you
That's what best friends do
We help eachother on homework, love, and problems
You need some advice to talk to that guy
I'll give you some cute pick-up lines
Problems with your mom
Don't worry I'll be your shoulder to lay your head on (I kinda am since you make fun of my height -.-)

If I'm stuck in one of my situations
I know I can count on you to save me from them
If I'm having a bad day and is bogus to everyone including you
Some how you always meet me at my locker after school to say goodbye
I question sometimes on how you're able to put up with me
I guess this is a friendship worth cherishing for a life time

take in a deep breath, pull my knees to my chest
i sit down, my world unfolding
close my eyes, just pretend
let’s start over again
in my mind, it keeps replaying

something’s come over me and it’s you
pulling me back again

you believed even when nothing came from trying
you believed even when you found me lost and crying
and now is another one, another mistake i’ve done
it’s okay
you show me it’s beautiful, there’s so much worth living for
you say

you decided to stay, instead of walking away
there i stand, afraid and broken
it’s not to late after all, you’re there catching my fall
you read the words i left unspoken

something’s come over me and it’s you
pulling me back again

you believed even when nothing came from trying
you believed even when you found me lost and crying
and now is another one, another mistake i’ve done
it’s okay
you show me it’s beautiful, there’s so much worth living for
you say

and why did you care?
i was so out of your way
it didn’t stop you from saving me
always searching for words
but they don’t go that deep
and words will just leave me

you believed even when nothing came from trying
you believed even when you found me lost and crying

I guess I'm just obsessed with listening to
sad music late at night.
Helps the tears come down.
Helps the thoughts to take over.
Helps me feel worse about myself.
-te