Nurse link me up
to all those pipes hit me with them tubes
pump that radiation into my arm
start up you washing machine
set to spin dry
where have you gone
say something, say anything
Mr Hardwick lay still
well not very reassuring but you are still there
that is good enough for me for now
then that robot voice
breath in when you are asked and hold
hold on to what my thought
machine whirls
and i pass through that black hole
then the radiation kick in
now feeling a warm rush from my head to my toe
and what is that taste in my mouth
have just wee my self
then it was all over
nurse took the needles from my arm
told to get dress
nurse in soft tones
said do not go to any disco's tonight
why i ask
man you will glow in the dark.

Or is that just a strange quirk of my own.

I remember
how I am feeling this night
their goes my strings again
now i need two new ones
so I can feel complete.

D O C TOR
bring morphine
pump pump
in my vein
for
D O C TOR
i wish to feel no pain
of this worlds ills
D O C TOR
do it again and again
and don't forget to ask
P@ul how do you feel?

D O C TOR bring my morphine.

There I was
tip toeing around
and my balance
just felt on edge.

At that my ego
did fall off
and I nearly toppled off
ending just another blood spot.

The first thing she has notice
is that no blue blood has been in first class
and shoes pinch
but she smiles as she gives out the drinks
and avoids the hands of those
that try to slip between hose
as they think
it is there right to.

Sitting on his white horse
did feel his mind slip
and at that did fall off
hit the sand
with pain and puff
his leg broke right off
bouncing up into the surf
and swim away
from his now disconnected brain
he lay and did pray
Jesus
now I need you
to fix my leg
and make it swim back
so i can have two feet
dear knight
jesus did say
how can I do that
your leg
has already swam a mile
another 400 yards
and your leg will be in Guinness Book OF Records.

all woman I find
should come with a shot of morphine
for they are just going to give you pain
AND morphine numbs your body and brain
as a woman will try to ***** with both
and these words
will cut into you
but man be warned
that women
will try to f**k you up.

Let me repeat that again
watermelon and black coffee
cool on the tongue
and hot on the face
and both make me go again
and as I *** I burp
and taste
Watermelon and black coffee.

Kid comes home from school
parents ask did you learn well today
the kid says yes but not enough
I have go back again tomorrow.

Have you ever woke up
to find your head
has just been rented out
and where is that smell of lemons coming from?

makes me feel like i'm not at home
well non
I have
known.

ow my lemon scented rented head
this one just does not add up
just like quantum physics
there's nothing to see here.

Woke in one of them dreams
you know the one's
those
so bazaar
leaving you feeling although awake
but still
like in a dream
you know the one's
where your left is on the right
and walking
is now not so easy to feel
so you stumble around
then
sudden hit the ground
well this morning had one of them.

I go round
but things
do not feel the same
some how felling dizzy
spinning world please stop
and the floor stop moving up
this confuses my brain
world which is the right way up?

Tonight I feel like
the person I did not feel like before
things have change in my mind
but some how sound the same

Are thoughts
of this
mary jane
a
girl that was
who I remember with fond eyes
tell her story to the winds
as she goes into the veins
and into my brains
nothing goes right with me
have bin smoking to long
Mary Jane
I think you told me.

W H O
am I !
if I do not who
was that man that was
who is the man that was
who is this man that was
tell me doctor
as I take your drugs
who that man was?

How was it for you?

I did not believe
that a woman could taste
as good as she looks
till I met you
so how was it for you?
if god is love
then meeting you
god is being good to me
so how was it for you?
for at dinner tonight
you where a total delight
cooked in a white wine source
so how was it for you?

Hear the sound
of a million children
all singing as one
all standing on the edge of civilisation
all singing of love and peace
can you dance
can you remember that dance
come sail with me.

While cooking this week end
I tried to cut the end of my finger off
For some reason my unconscious mind
seamed to think that was maybe
what i want
how wrong it could be
now my unconscious mind
leave all the cooking to me.

You said to me
come on follow
we spent all day
hugging trees.

You said to me
lets have a day of reading
we spent all day holding trees.

You said to me
you wanted a night in
to wash your hair
I spent all night sitting on a wooded chair.

I said.
woman now you must listen
to this mans needs
for I have now
splinters in my heart.

The narrative
hesitated
on
his lips
then came out
"I have just about reached breaking point"
"HE  SNAPPED".

If you get old
you end up like me
after all those parties
and concerts
and heavy music with
whistling in your head
but if listen carefully
it seams some nights
it plays me back
all those old
and fantastic tunes
and now is so much part of me
as when it was
and you wake up
put your drops into your eyes
for they sting
as much as your ears hurt
your eyes
getting old to
and some days
do not see
the pictures
as you feel them go in
as you used to
having blurred edges
which makes you not see things
even when
it's right there in front of you
my brain as now days
as I take my doctors drugs in
just seams to get
more and more smarter
although my mouth
in which the doctors drugs go in
mixes my words
but these images of words
still come from my brain
sharper now

THAN   IT   EVER   W  a      S   !

P@ul

Met this girl
and man she had great ****
in this beautiful bird cage.

The place where
I come from
is a small town
and the people around me
use small words
but not me
I think more about myself
than them
and now thinking all them words
seams to make my head feel bigger
and at times
hurt.

Don't give up
when you wake up
and your head hurts
from the night before.

Don't give up
when she brakes up
with you
and your heart hurts more.

Don't give up
when you think
your God has let
you down.

Don't give up
when old friend
leave you on your own
again.

Don't give up
Please Don't give up!

Woke up this morning
and wished I had not
for my eyes
seam kind of blind
and my world shook
and my good life
just seamed now like old news
the sky began to fall
all around my head
and the sea sank
shake up P@ul
you've got to live.

Elastic       O ooh     yes
it expands
beyond my head
maybe not infinite
but into things nobody knows
and after that nobody may know
you see
it is elastic
and on tuesdays
quite fantastic
dipping here dipping there
and man
dipping every where
so welcome
to me
and my head it seams
and all of my heads dreams
which this tuesday
we will call
Now.

The brain is just what it does
it says just what
it is on it's can
and that is only
just because
that is was the brain
and that is what it does.

And really I am asking the men
at what point do you get fed up
with e-mails
about
enlarging your *****
I get them all the time
eight are from
my girl friend
but it is the two
from my Mom
that really hurt.

You should see
what my God did to me
made me bright pink
think I might just tonight
glow in the dark
so ask God why me?
and he replied
just don 't
ask
what i think of you
for I might not give you
the answer
you want me to
and he was right
See me Glow Tonight.

My mother said to me
Paul I am finding it hard to climb the stairs
So my brother and I
hand a chair lift installed
so at night now
out my head
I have a chair lift to the top
To the top of the Alps and back.

When you bite one
you know
it ends in tears.

I know
it is raining again
i see you standing
right there
in front of me
but you have hurt me
i no longer see you
as I should
come on
you little viper
bite me again
and I will bite
you deeper
than you have ever known.

i see you standing
right there
in front of me.

But my mind is still 18
it is only
when
I
do
something daft
like go down
on my knees
and fined
I
Can't get back up
God
please do not hold this against
me please
on the day we meet
at st peters gate
for you
know
I
will ask
for you to get down to.

And maybe
the bright among you
will have seen
that the last eight tittles
in reverse order
make
yet
another poem

If I ever
You have to Admit
WHEN
My claw hand runs deep
If you look for an answer
Do not give me that
I OFTEN FEEL
Ladies do as they please.

In my mine
why I am work on this corner
taking tickets
for this show
my mind is so out of hand
it makes me think
all poets study there verse
to make the ladies
roll there eyes
we know
that I mean
men like you and me
always know that
with the ladies
they do it for me and you
yes ladies do as they please.

I often feel

Like a clove of garlic

Squeeze me and I smell
Crush me I smell like hell

But put me in food

and i am that gentile reminder

of a taste that was good.



@@@@PAUL@@@@ :-)'S

A  L  L  O  T  M  E  N T

Are you out off your mind
the apple
that has fallen off your tree
this man knows not to that
I know how not to do that
I love
AND WHY
i fell in in love maybe
don't call the priest
and get out
of my bar!

My claw hand runs deep
into my brains
and does only some things
that my right hand understands
all the other things are still Left
in plain sight.

play guitar with me
and have some soul
thanks for listening
the claw hand.

When I tuck myself in at night
and shake the day's dust of my head
breath it in all night
it to my very soul threw my veins
that soul that I call me
well that feels right
and baby me and you
are going to one of these days
have a dust off
together.


:-)

You have to admit
I give something
you just can not give back
I make you happy
then make you sad
I make you feel
like you should do
now you You have to admit THAT!

Let the sky fall
let the sea sink
let the sun blink
let the air freeze
let the light blow out
if my darling stops
loving me.

Now in life
I am a security officer
mostly know
as the almighty jobs worth
but people
just remember
I am hear to protect you
from yourself

and I do not expect you
to know that
just do as I say and all will be ok
Thanks
your local jobs worth
at a venue close to you

If you have read my last three poems
and blame it on my surreal head
you just might realise
that if you add the titles together
they read>---.

* Just thinking of doing Exercise.**

At the Gym
thinking of doing some weights
maybe some squats
the spotters and me
put on some weights
I send them off for beers
lift the bar off
tears and pain
I push back up
my **** hits the ground
and will not come back off
the ground.

I might be right
I might be wrong
got to something
now the day is gone
O baby do not cry
you should not do that
leave me alone
now do not give me those tears
if I have told you once
I have told you twice
Baby You Should Not Do THAT!

Doing the thing I like best
relaxing with coke and white ***
seeing if
I can get my head off
but tonight
somehow seams I can't get the screws out
and my head will not come off.

Thinking of
having a garden party
yes you can come
all welcome
the more the Merrier
O' and by the way
bring your own *****
lots of digging to be done
way far out MAN!

Just DIGGIN that!