Do we do that
if not that is not right
thinking about this gave my mind blister.

Get a rocket ship away from here
I hear them everyday.

For I have games in my head
Play, play ball
for none of you know how surreal I am
nor not where I go to
in this head of mine
you can never guess
for my head is mind
it is a world of my own.

Mr Ball
entered into my head two times
one when I broke his greenhouse windows
the other at school, his wife, had to teach me, they both died
no NO I did not **** them, far, from it
they both lived 80 years or more.

Now Mrs May was quite mad
she was so mixed up in her head
she would walk out in her back garden
and shout out at the flowers
I was young, never knew where she went
maybe a mental home, that now, would be my guess.

My life will blow you mind right off
these are people, during my life knew
so lets play ball
Catch.

Do not not drop the ball anything else that may come with
Just ******* catch
Hold the Ball.

All can find
is heven is in your mind
and how does that now make you feel
dose for me
Lille is swingging out from what
we now feel
but what of the flowers that grow at your heals
growing you feel to heaven
and now heaven is in your mind
but I am just a poor boy
how dose this matter to me at all?
glad you asked me
the first time I met you
you had nothing but a pale face
then you let me take you in my arms
I was looking for a girl with no name
seams you found me
and told me so
you had no name or number
nor I me
if I remember right
I was the 69 club.

Dream on
dear mr fantasity play me another song
make my dreams real

Dear mr fantasy play your guitar
make a tune
try to make my head feel right
on the other hand don't.

Truth as long as my arms are wide
my left hand was not right,

I have noticed it
as I go on in life
and I will never be free
for you are a part of me
should have not left that out
but felt it right to tell you
some days my left arm
has a life of its own
it picks my nose.

picks the cream cheese from my toes
now
I am right
no! right handed
so why does my left hand do this to me
it's just not right.

Ever felt your heart beat in your head
in your fingers
and your toes?
and what does this mean?
am I abnormal?
life keeps on asking me questions
and the answers
I do not know
nor find my way
no more
in the questions I ask of myself
I think I should have been born in space
for most days
I do not know which is up or down
just drifting within my own head
what was I asking?

Crystals in my eyes
Trish a woman I only met once
you moved me twice
one in life
two in death
how has it come to this
from a woman
I hardly knew
you moved me so
for now I have crytals in my eyes
thank you for all your love
and thank you for touching me so
with love
P@ul.

You think
you have problems
come and try my
limp wristed head
the words go in
but do not come out right
some days
I think
is does not know left from right
on the other hand
maybe that's just me
think much to much
into it
maybe
not knowing when to stop
and just rest

My limp, wristed head.

Jump into the back row
with me now
there's holding hands to do
maybe kissing, or is that not what we do now?
give me some pointers, what these day's
dose a poor boy do, to flert with you?
look into my blue eye's and see
there's only me
Woman listen here give me a clue.

Got up
for my day to start
stumbbled to the shower to wash myself
even stayed there longer, try to wash my brain
but do you think I could make my brain wake up
it was stuck in zero time
locked within my head
got dressed with a dizzy head.

Do you stop and wonder
what you would be like without her
I ownly ask
for it happened to me
her sound, her sounds in life
you no longer hear
DO you stop, and miss her
I DO.

Bright clear days
now thats what I am about
past the dreams of night
the dreams of my own words
thinking of all the things that just past
one and only with the universe
Living my life out
dancing some days
putting thing down in words
not always clear
moor like drivel
well that is me
that's what I do.

I look into your eyes
I sware, I can see your soul
it feels bright like all colours
well all the colour that my mind now knows
but brighter than that
some how irridicent
almost see through
but somehow I know thats you
written right there
and my heart sings.

Fractured it
thinking just words
so need help plastering it up
so tell me now
communicate with me
just how shall i wrap it
do I need a nurse
who take a strange apple off a tree
already think her mind has gone
how she concentrates
on the job to be done
but it dose not help
hurt like hell
nurse sally
please let me wrap it myself
for you are falling
out off the apple tree
tomorrow will find the ground
then find yourself
and will be gone.

Yes it sings
at night in my darkest hour
my mind sings to me
some nights
it will not let me alone
i wake and usauly ****
there is no trees in my bedroom
lay back
and what dose my mind do
it sings
my mind does not know when to leave me alone
so I count sheep
does not help much but at least i tryied
so tonight
mind please *******
let me dream something for myself.

If you write like I do
you might loose your mind
but rest in your computer chair
and just type away
and feel the relif
as you go typing words
you think you did not know
for you are keeping that dam apple off
such a ****
trying to replace
all the things I say
with others

See realy I am quit mad.

P@ul.

What do you do?
I don't know but I do it anyway
I aways do as asked
I do what I do everyday
indeed I do
I do what I need to do
Why do you do it?**
I don't know but you find me
doing it anyway
come winter or spring
you will find me there
doing it all by myself.

Well there you have got
"Six of One another"
still this day now she has gone
I do not what she meant
Six of I
and One who is an other
maybe one of those
you seen them all
they always wear great cloths
some people call them bent
hands so limp
as they gesture about
and call out Rodney you must see this
hear what he just said
and just look how he says it
it so quote ant it!

Listen to my story
it is sad but it's true
please do not laugh
it could happen to you
so hear me out.

Some people say it with flowers
but you don't get many saying it with humanoids
bleep  bleep, well the humanoid boogie
hipnoids got like, the energy cell
listening to humanoid boogie every hafl an hour
grandfather you really know
how to humaniod.

She reads at night of the story of it all
before it happens
but written down
in the ethos of all
a feeling of heat a
hand burned here
sat back watching a film
they said things over there
she  did  not   hear
fly me on my way
home
@

@

$$$$$      That s   it       $$$$$
$$$          hold           $$$
my hand
I will be your lover
I can't feel nor see what I am
Or what I might be, so take me home
Make me your lover hold me tight
I will think more tomorrow.
$$$$$$$$$
$$$$$$
$$$
$

Owwwwwhh!
just did that again
don't ask me why
she did just
So tell me why
just because
In my own mind
I just have to know
just because
who is just
answer me that !

If you find me in the street
take me home
not that you will know, where home is
but take me home
deliver me to no evail
plug me in turn me on
wake from my interal dream
turn me on
switch me baby on
so I can tell you
I won't be home tomorrow
for I ant no love to give yah any more
do not turn me back off
for battery's not included.

W H E N
you
reach to end
of  Y E S T U R D A Y
you know it is now tomorrow
which is  sart of   T O D A Y
which will all end Tomorrow
W H E N   Y O U  KN O W

Y O U  KNOW
you've been here before
and the other end of yesturday
has ment so much to me

P  U  L  L     M  E     D  O  W  N
put my feet
back on solid ground
make me feel in yesturday.

Ben was
a toothless Termit
and one night
walked in a bar
and asked all there
where is
the bar tender.

If I was a Robot
you would not have to remind me of a thing
for I would know
what a that thing was
I would always be right
even if, never tell you, your wong
I would be always
in your service for sure
because your such
a ******* *****.

Just sitting
listening to Alan Parsons
Rubbing Germolene
into my arm
after a battal with the roses
in my garden
rubbing in Germolene
as my arms now stinging
trying to relax
picking up my pen
and writting words down
try to make sense of them all
as the fumes
of the Germolene ant nice
but stopped the stinging in my arm
Germolene
the gardeners
best friend
and makes you smell like
you've just come
from the gym
P@ul.

YOu ask me dose that hurt
I tell no
I have no pain
if I lift both
you give me that look
I might be just  ******* i n g  Cold
but not as cold
as the stare you last gave me!

Looking out the window
nothing to see
only my reflection looking back at me
must get my windows cleaned.

Think  there is a
militeryman in my wordrobe
I did,
I gave him a poke
he just fell in to dust
mother dear
why is my hair falling out
mother dear
why when
I try to hug you
you fall to dust in my arms
mother dear
was that noise
an atomic bomb?

I dreamed of     Y     O    U
last night
all was not good
you seamed to blame me
about Robin Hood
who!

think you came down out of the trees
after swingging on branches
you proceeded
to,    I think pick flees
off my back!

Un finished poem  P@ul.

And as that curtain closes
maybe play some of my tunes
it will say
full stop.

P@ul you are nothing now
all you have been
all you have done
you are nothing now.

All I had is, gone
I just wantted you  to love me
not leave me
in this limbo of my mind.

Wantted you
to see me as kind
not just ingnor me
I have imput too.

You find yourself
rushing to the airport
where there you have to wait
for how long
no body knows.

You find yourself
in another girls arms
you relise your mistake
for how long
no body knows.

You find yourself
in the bank
just standing there
for how long
no body knows.

You find yourself
in Tessco at the automated tills
unexpectted item in the baggin area
you are glad of the conversation
only the security guard thats eject you
give you some human touch.

Never sit on a train
with two slices of lemon
on your head
for one
those lemons
don't go with your two blue eyes
and two
they burn like hell
three
you have to explain
to those whom have been watching you
your not man
just excentric
flutter your saw eyes
which you regert now
ether that
or stand up and take a bow.

I want a hat
to top myself off
so to the hatters did call
he measured me up
and gave me a price.

Hats come very pricy
so listen to my advice
if you want to get a hat
then get ahead.

Whats so good about love
if I carn't be with you
all I feel is the loss
now you have gone
I feel down like I am about to drown in my own tears
I about to break down and cry
dear Mom
who will look after me now
who will tell me when I am wrong
who will set me on the right path
you ever lovin son P@ul rest in peace.

Remember
if you fall
watch out
for tears
if you fall
into water
hold your breath
never breath in
so do not cry for me or yourself
just incase you fall
right into your
own tears.

The city
is falling
what can I do
for my world has already
fallen down
it has shook me
I know I do not know my own life
sunken into dust all I have knowen
I am so beside myseft
I know nothing else
blow off the dust
and must go on.

When I die
let me free
do not hold me down
for I will
always be with you
in my heart
and my soul.

with love

P@ul.

If I lift
my right leg up
will I fall down
can I balance my soul
on my left
if I did fall off
that would not be right at all.

Up side Down
my my mind is up side down
within my head
nothing more is clear to me
I know,
I love feel and hate
but nothing else
why mother
have you gone
and left me all alone
in this a world
I really do not understand
Mother dear where have you gone
left me alone like this
mother you know
you filled me with love
and happyness
mother
where have you gone
for you mean so much to me
and others to?

After all
I have become the man
I always hatted.

It's here
when I see pictures
in my head
there is no logic
sometimes
when I have written
It;s alright.

For no longer will it be here
upload load it
record it
for it's
here right now
listen to what it said
read on
for when I have gone
I will no longer be here
and my soul will be done
with this universe
please do tell me when I am wrong
for how else would know
what is, but, you know.

Dear Joan,

My Mom,

Our Mom,

Our grandmother,

Our Great Grand Mom,


Dear Mom.

My mother dear when ever you hold me
all the things that hurt me are gone.


My mother.

when I needed you
you are always there
somehow when you held me
all thing bad are no longer there
like when I fell and hurt my head
on the garden gate
remember waking up
and you are there kissing all
the bad things alway from my head.


Dear Joan our mother dear,

Where have you gone
I am at a loss to know
where are you
when I need you now

Mother you must always know
we will always love you
as you did so much us.

R.I.P. With Love Joan our mother so dear to us.

Now I am a man
well you might call me layed back
easy going, soft spoken
but man if I clench my teeth
I am a man you wish you did not know
P@ul means a small brown worror
so your better off trying to make me smile
Don't make me mad
don't bring out my devil
that dewls inside
of what you think
is your heaven
and donn't
make them
put me back
into room 77.

Is an art
Sometimes my mind is free
living Life free is an art
But far
is in the stars
I know my limattations
I walk in the shadows
but I know my own mind
not esay living at the far point
but here i am
hold my hand
if you can
you will not hold my brain
which is of at the far point
for that's what am
here I am
in that which I call myself

OFF at the FAR point
go left at mars into stars
Hug me before
it turn into afternoon
hold my hand
your welcome
now baby that is far out.

I have two eyes
twin toes
two legs
only one hip
and my heart is covered
by a six pack
by all the twos
got ribs
have ******* 14 of them
two sevens
two arms
two major veins in my neck
but only one head
how did that happen
but my one brain thinks
of all things
two by two at night.

Now up was down
upside down
there was no way
of getting up
upside down
or turning him back up
so side slid in
on pulling up, up
up went on
after thanking the upside.

Got out of bed
lifting my limp wristed head
out of it's cradle
standing up at full height
fell over just missing the cupboard.

Today I brought a new computer
it's small like me, it like me has a powerful CPU
on top of all, the electircal things
mybe it will make me bright
but unlike me
it cannot walk about
the internet is it's only access
to this world of ours
it has no eyes, unlike me
seeing thing's in black and white
will all it wil be
it wil not see pain, or feel it
enclosed in it's shiny silver case
so for me my new computer
is just a tool
in which I work through.