My head hurts like hell
each time I bit
the needles shoot up into my brain
and they are hot
the pain is making me flinch
each time
but not as much
as the pain, I will feel
when the dentist
pulls the wallet from around my heart
and counts it out for himself
so right now
filled with painkillers
and feeling a little high
try to block the nerve endings in my head
too many to count
ouch there the ******* thing goes again
might be cheaper to have them all out
and plastic things put in
and cut off all nerve endings.

Saw my own reflection today
in the back garden in the pool
had my headphones on
the sun was behind me
so I saw a silhouette of me
I was shocked to see
a cyberman staring back at me
better go and see the doctor!

For you told me you feel blue
am sure it's not the color
it's you!

For you told last summer
as your skin burnt red
and I told its radiation again.

You never listen to me
that is what I said.

But this is not clear to me
do colors have feelings?

I have never seen it
written down
never in Black and White

so does my head have colors?

On a cold and windy morning
my body does not know which way
against the cold air to stand
so I make myself thin
and hope I will not be seen
as I have to be here where I am
here to stand
alone but warm in my heart
But it's so cold
will I stay warm long?

Into a thing
to be what they will be
some good
others bad
some others slip
in between the sheets
and before you know it
they have been
like catching a taxi
some stay
have things to say
and impart
to help you
with your day
to touch your heart
and play for a while.

Still in the radiation glow
of your love and needs
turn me over
do the other side
feeling a bit red on this side
still white on the other side
will as always
in the middle
stay in the pink
keeping my own sanity
in which
I hide from most things
including you.

Just trying to catch me a ride
for all the ****** buses on a Sunday hiding
what's with the bus companies
are all they , atheists
can't get to church at all
not without a long ****** walk
makes me on gods holy day
makes me feel small
as explained to the almighty
make me think they do not care at all
one day they will get it
on a Sunday
it not all about profit
but the profits
God told me to get this off my chest

P.S. sorry God I was late.