Baby, can you see me?
Can you hear me?
I'm screaming under water,
Drowning under you.

Baby, can you feel me?
Can you please me?
I'm fighting myself
Over and under stars that shine my name

Baby, can you find me?
Can you save me?
I'm walking on a line
That I've crossed so many times.

Oh and I can't feel
The ground beneath my feet
When will this seem real?

I've been trying for awhile
Please tell me why it's so hard
To fake a smile

Give me a name
To remember
I've got no one to blame

But myself.

I know all the little things
Like how
You take your drinks without ice
And how
You'd rather freeze in a leather jacket
Then out on a real coat.

I know what it means
When your face starts to twist
And I know what you're thinking
When you insist
On opening the door for a lady.

I know the way your hair dries
When it's fresh out of the shower
And straight into bed:
Almost like it's going to fly away.

I know how your eyes plead
When you're holding back
And I know how your hands curl
When something hurts

But the thing I wish I never knew,
Was your face of disgust
And the way you can quit a person
Like me.
I wish I never knew the little things.

He said that monsters and hunters
Occupied his room.
Searching for him.
Lurking in the shadows
Of train tracks
And construction sites.
Is anybody really safe?

All I could do was
Hold him.
Each shiver
Bubbling up on the surface
Of his body
Left me paralyzed.

Each clattering tooth
Was a reminder
Of the empty basements
And windowless, doorless rooms
I shivered in once
Or twice.

I reminded him
To let light linger
In the shadows.
Shivering ceased.
The dark feels colder
When you travel it alone.

Tiny sunbeams try to leak
through the cracks
Of this damaged, weathered
Emmaculately fashioned mask
The storm has passed, yet
Theres a draught in my soul
Theres nothing inside
No light will reach to shine
Where nothing can grow
where blackness resides

I cut my psyche open
And the ink bleeds black
Days surpassed
Suppressed inside
Spill onto pages
been Waging war on myself for ages
Depressed by the weight
Of the world
On my shoulders
Just gotta keep on keepin on
dancing to my own beat
Stay on my toes, won't pull The rug from under my own two feet again
Seeking forever in pursuit searching
For a place to rest my weary head
At the end of the day
I fumble, trip, stumble
Fall on my face, humbled
Rendered incapacitated, jaded, numb
But my perspective is refreshed
So I reluctantly succumb
I've accepted the fact
I'm leaving my past where it belongs
Time to wake up, open my eyes
It took so long, but now I realize
I was living in a haze
hypnotized
Manipulated and propped up by lies
empty promises now fall on deaf ears
No mistakes here
Only lessons learned
Another page to turn
The other cheek
Countless passages and chapters
To burn
Won't be dictated, won't be defined
Can't be distracted, the day is mine
For the taking
There will be no more faking my way
Through another smile
I''ve wandered countless miles to make it where I am today
And I'll be ****** if anyone tries to stand in my way