11:29 AM | April 13 2021

Wake up and open your eyes
I crave your message, it's as if you're holding me tight

Your voice is the sweetest voice I hear
No matter what language you speak
Your words are like candies

Your patience is just commendable
Aside from your looks, it's what makes you irresistible

I understand the expression you said last night
I learned my lesson, I better speak better, Spanish grammar

Te quiero
Mahal kita
I love you

Nothing rhymes with "Te quiero" but "(Given name)"

Nothing rhymes with "Mahal kita" but "(Full name)"

Nothing rhymes with "You" but "I love you"

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Enjoy your day, mi amor. It will be hard to forget that I love you. You're just simply the best.

15:50 | December 5 2021

Background song: Jet Lag (Simple Plan ft. Natasha Bedingfield)

You are the sunrise to my sunset
You say, "sweet dreams" in your afternoon
I feel your presence on the screen when we meet

Your eyes are my sea while in my room
All of my days these days are on repeat
But in my loop, you are the best part
Next kiss, next hug, next time we hold hands
We do not know when, but I am certain it will come

When I feel like I will die being in the same place
You make me feel that my existence is not out of time and place... My solace
I remember our moments together like they just happened yesterday
Such fun when I remember all the little things about you in the little things of my every day

How many times did I imagine conversing with you
How many times did I imagine our mundane yet extraordinary moments
I am someone who has a hard time remembering dreams
But I know no matter how bleak the memory is, I remember.. I remember that YOU in my dreams

My summer feels like winter (without you)
So, I guess, we feel the same temperature
Each waking day, a day closer to you
Just one request... keep the LOVE ablaze

August 23 2019 |  16:45

Tell me to walk, I will jog
Tell me to run, I will sprint
Tell me to be with you, I will fly
If the first phrases are the things you want me to do
I'll do it wholeheartedly...
...more than 100%
...It is the reality, it is TRUE

If there is a thousand miles between us, I'll close it
If you are at the top, I will build stairs
If you are on the ground, I'll go down the rope
If this is what is left to do...
Like a soldier, I'll follow the order
... more than 100%
... It's the TRUTH

If I run out of words to say
and all that is left to do is to hold you
then I'll hold you forever...
...more than 100%
... It is TRUE

I want to be the only rose from all your Lilies
I want to be the only sunflower from all your Cattleyas
To all the girls you've loved before, I want to be the one that happened after
If all these aren't enough...
Let me find another way to show you my love.

"I don't hold on to the tail of your kite"
Says the Tori Amos song I sing every night
Telling myself I won't hold on to anyone, and then, there is YOU
Tell me, again, why did I just check my phone at 8:22?

March 23 2019
14:44

Andy the man
He is now a vegetarian
Thank you for the corrections
When my grammar needs attention

As you start your new venture
I hope for an even brighter future
Andy, we will miss you
Tomorrow, in Zambales, we will see you

Ever helpful, and patient
Your humility is beyond compare
You are more than a coworker
You are an uncle, and a friend

Andy the man
He is now a businessman
Andy, we will miss you
So, in Zambales, we will see you

May 23 2019
08:05

Maybe, you're one of my past coworkers
Maybe, you're one of the guys I dumped/turned down before
Maybe, you just want to find someone to mess up or something
Maybe, you're V
Just hard to believe that you stumbled on that page...
Came across my profile, and out of the many, you chose me...
Wow!
I need to stop. I need to stop. I need to stop.
I won't care anymore. You're just like E, G, A, M, C, M
You don't take me seriously, and you don't see the possibility
...having something special with me.
Goodbye!

July 5 2019
16:49

And my heart bleeds in silence
And my mind breathes in discontent
Who can blame me to be a lover of beauty
When who I need to support is my family
Who can blame me for wanting more
When all I want to do is do more
Who can blame me for wanting something faster
Is it not enough to be who I have been for others?

July 5 2019
16:38

And I ran out of time
Doing nothing, being nothing
Across the road is where my life prospers
But here I am on the other side, and, oh, how I wander
My mind craves freedom
The reason behind my sadness are the shackles
Shackles created by my own mind
The vulnerability of the situation
The mediocrity of anticipation
Knowing what lies ahead
Making me feel dizzy, afraid, fearful, frightened
The things I experience these days...
...are, but the by-product of my poor decision-making
The mediocrity of fighting
The complexity of dying
For when I retire to bed each night
All I wonder is where I am tonight
For when the next day comes
I'll still be here, stuck, and dying in the pale moonlight

August 6 2019
18:37

Traffic is heavy
My stomach is empty
Making poems while on the van
Maybe, make use of my time for something fun
Maybe, I will ping someone this weekend
Let us see, if we both, are not busy
Maybe, we can get together
Maybe, we can play the guitar forever

November 11 2018
17:50

The name rhymes with Jo
I think, she needs to turn on the radio
Find something interesting in his bio
Maybe, even get inspirations from his photo

The name rhymes with Zack Dela Rocha
His last name rhymes with my cafe mocha
Can't say much but he likes music
Oh, did I not mention...
He likes listening to Asking Alexandria

I'm a planner, he's an improviser
I say, "Hey, Monday!", he says, "Bye, Monday!"
I sleep, he watches...
I watched, "The Outlaw King",
He read its previews and synopses
Opposites, ironies
Oh, please! **** these inspirations!

Some days, poems come easy
A lot of times, they get unfinished, left out in the open

July 7 2019
18:12

I have been watching, "Lucifer"
All I can think of, is your accent
Now, watch the series
See what I'm after
You are not like Tom Ellis
But all I can think of, is you, at least
I want to hear your speak
So, your YouTube channel, will be my sneak peek

March 2019

Your eyes gravitate me towards you
I hope I don't aggravate you
The color of your eyes makes me want to see more of you
You don't have to feel the same, but let me have one last look at you
Sandy, I'll be Mandy
At Bo's Coffee, we can drink coffee
Cappucinos, and lattes
At Bo's Coffee, we should stay.

“I don’t hold on to the tail of your kite”
says the other Tori Amos song she sang to you last night
Reminding you to not worry because she won’t hold on to you
...but why did she just check her clock at 12:52?

Did you ever remember the look that you gave me?
Oh, yes, I do! I remember you, oh, so, clearly!
When you looked at me, face to face.
I couldn't help but smile just a little...
I hope to see you everyday
I hope to know your name
I hope to be right beside you
walking hand in hand
Introduce me to everyone around you

May 28 2018
10:25 PM

It feels like home where you are
It was a bit hurtful when it was said
I didn't feel anything when it already happened
To "Goodbye" I surrender
Go ahead, poke my heart
Yes/No, when it starts
Click continue, it's a trap
I'm lost, I need a map
Here's to the Edge
I'm falling
Honey and I
I will Go Slow
I'll be running if you call my name
I know you won't tell me you need me, right now
Night so long, Guess, it's too short to stay strong

May 25 2018
08:45 AM

All the love songs collide
All my playlists unite
My heart explodes
My wall erodes

May 16 2018
10:53 PM

Tonight, I listened to a song for the first time
Funny how I can guess what the next lyrics are
Maybe, in the so-called dictionary
The word, "Needs" is the only one that rhymes with the first line

Tonight, I listened to a music album
Have not listened to the artist for quite some time
Oh! How their new songs carry the melody/tune of their old songs
Guess, because they came from the same artist

Cannot publish the same poem thrice
The site is under maintenance
Is this what I get for writing poems so much
Should the site expect my repentance?

Listening now to Frusciante
I can hear the subtle phone ring in the recording
Or was it just the guitar strings ringing
Guess, it teaches me how to pay more attention

The chorus is now on repeat
The voice becomes deep, it fades and the guitar parts rise
The lead parts is where I find my peace
Don't know where to listen

Do I listen to the voice, instruments, or the whole song
If I do the latter, then I will miss the others

May 16, 2018
10:30AM

Listening to "November Rain"
What a long intro it brings
Sweet Child O' Mine was on loop for a while
Then Axl said, "and when I look into your eyes... nothing lasts forever"
Yes, Lipovitan and Red Bull will keep me awake but not for long
24 grams of sugar, 74 milligrams of caffeine
Things written at the back of these so-called energy drinks
Wait! Woah! It sinks in fast, wears off fast
Welcome to the Jungle, the next song plays
Welcome to the Jungle, a description of what I do
I hope the end of the tunnel brings me to Paradise City
"It's So Easy" some might say of what I do
Sweet Child O' Mine started playing again
Guess, out of all the songs I played,
It's the one that clears my mind all the way!!!
Just to share with you, this is not the first version of this poem
Gone are the roses
Guns are the new roses
Guns N' Roses

May 14 2018
22:20

The fleeting silence
I treasure her presence
When I look at her
I just want nothing but her health to be stable
Please, wait for me until I am able
Let your memory last until I can give you more than apples
I hope she will have the strength of 10,000 horses
The memory of 1,000 prodigies
I hope you find peace even in your most painful sickness
I hope your heart endures the everyday rain
May you find happiness in what I can provide
Sorry, if I sometimes make you feel insufficient
Your smile makes me go on one more day
You are my strength, just one more time, I'll say
From now on, I will make tons of memories with you
Take your picture, everyday, and forever
I will never get tired of the food you will serve
I will never get tired of your kindness and presence
Thank you for everything, my dear, wonder woman
Please, keep your heart beating
I hope that you will never lose the memory that you have
I love you. I love you. I love you.
Thank you for giving me life, love, kindness, and tolerance.
I know I still can give you more
Please, wait for me until I am able
All I want is for us to be stable
I want nothing for you but the best apples
Next time, I will give you more than apples
Oranges, lemons, grapes, and vines.
Wait, for me, please, I want you to experience comfort
Please, be strong. Please, be strong.
I want nothing but for you to live long.
I love you, my strength.

11:45PM
May 10 2018

Same old
Everybody goes old
Experiences are gold
So, I'm told
Everyone goes old
Everyone becomes cold
How can I make my experiences gold
When it's difficult to be bold
Dying trying
Live living
Cold but barely dead
Barely breathing
So, they die instead

Wasting away
Letting my life pass me by
seeing myself letting go
I can just remember, how I looked like, a few years ago
Everything crammed up in my brain
The hours of the day cannot even put away the strain
Seeing myself getting ugly
Gone is my beauty
In my mind, I think, of "maybe, tomorrow, it will get better"
For me, it gets worse, and worse, and worse...
My weight is dropping
My wrinkles are becoming visible
Laugh lines are deeper
Eyes alternately swell and deepen
Eye bags get darker, deeper, uglier
Letting my life pass me by
Feeling empty, fighting the urge to be a robot
Nothing but a machine, that is all I am
Just take a look at what I have become
I drown, I feel empty, I feel sad and teary
Nothing breaks me more than this burnt out
I break down, I cry, I drop, I suddenly die
Nothing cripples me than this urge to stop and just do nothing
Be a robot, feel nothing
I wish I am a robot capable of feeling nothing
Just so this robot-like lifestyle can be sustained
The human side of me is dying
The human trapped in a world
World, where robots are the norm
The jobs are what the robots are capable of doing
I die... I die... I die...

We've grown closer and farther
We've grown nothing closer than how we started
I like it that you are becoming farther and farther
Don't get me wrong, I still think of why you are moving on
I don't care about you, so go away, be away like you always do
The songs we sing together
The playlist you put together
The concert we watched together
It will be remembered, except, you...
Oh, no! I'm sorry, mister.

Short poems run in my head
Couldn't let myself occupy my bed
My love for you spreads like wild fire
You are someone I truly admire
I will forget a pen, just so I can borrow from you
I will forget my power, just so I can depend on you
I wonder how I can be liked by you
There is something about you that makes me feel blue
You are the epitome of my impalpable dream
I want you to be interested in me
Think of me, as someone who is not what she seems
Dim the lights, face my light
Do you ever feel surreal with me
ah, you are just too focused on your nymph.

December 18 2017
16:53

I watch all my could have been's get married with someone else
I watch all their smiles, laughter and cries
A part of me dies, gets lonely and cries
I watch all my could have been's thinking what could have been

You left before I walk towards you
You turned your back before I run after you
I do not know what to do
Why is everything not on cue
Flowers are sweet
They get your inspired
They wipe all your tears
Yet, they open your fears
They all wither and die
Just hoping, and wishing the love will not die
Forever is the a dream
A dream is unreachable like the stars
Stars you can only love from afar

Sea, submerge
I emerged
want to run towards the finish line
Can't even walk pass the starting line

Can't take you off my mind
Hope that the professional moment with you is something I can rewind
I guess, I need to just move on
Maybe, the age gap is so strong
You wouldn't even remember me just like how I remember you
We are made acquainted with each other, but immediately lost the meaningless meeting
Don't let life pass me by
How can try my luck in the blink of an eye
Every move I make means taking risks
Do I even have the chance to be taken at bliss?

Feeling that my life is passing me by
Couldn't do a single thing  I like doing
Trapped in this infinite solace
Let it not be my demise

The sky is darkening
I am rushing
My heart is palpitating
Maybe, it will be raining
I'm getting near the main entrance
I suddenly pictured the notebook with all my dances
I remember everything I wrote on it entirely
Step 1, 2, 3, 4
There goes 5, 6, 7, and 8
I just ate words from the lesson plans I created
Shooting videos out of pleasant messiness
My feet want to move backwards
But my brain says, go, and move forward
Afraid to be late
I want to annihilate everything in the notebook
Put checks and tick marks
to the never ending bookshelves
Wait a second, I should reward myself a booklet
The mirror does not tell me I'm beautiful
The weighing scale tells me to gain more
The clothes I wear scream of looseness
Even eating becomes a chore, for as long as I can remember
Intensely focused on any of the tasks
Go on! Test my patience!
I do not remember its existence!
does not make me surrender
finishing the game makes me stronger
Give me some more, go on! Make me surrender.
As I am writing this, I picture me with you
You who has yet to come
Or You who I haven't noticed
These thoughts of me without You
These thoughts of undying load
They Burden my soul with the nearing truth of lonesomeness
Songs run in my head, ... something that goes, "... I'm wasting away"
"Rise up" makes me wake up
I'm numb of my "BUSY" buzzing like the bees
I cannot even remember my lonesomeness
Each step I make
I move forward, yet backward to the dreams of not having you
Every wave of my hands settle my mediocre acquaintances
How could I let myself be weary, and hurt, and suffering, and accused of many instances.

I acquired more rings today
Guess I'll never have my farewell day
Was it  merely coincidence,
The Higher Being, why, oh, why?
You just saved me from something embarrassing.

April 17 2018

There is nothing happy about death
Why is it that I never feel any sympathy for someone's death?
Everyone will go there
Everyone will falter
One after another
To death, we will all surrender
He could be nothing but good to his family
Well, I do not feel sorry, I'm even kinda happy
Don't let people see you sad
Don't let people see you mad
Reserve your anger to those you care about
Never let those insignificant people see your whereabouts
Now, I will pretend that I did not see or hear any news from this supposed sad event
I won't even say a single prayer, I will not be sad without my consent
No, I'll never be bothered by my conscience
I can sleep soundly, I'm happy
Now, you know, how much losing a father hurt...
I hope you realize and remember how hurt we were when it was our father who was lying in the coffin, and how my mother was hurt
I'll shut up now. I'll post something happy for everyone to see
especially your ill-mannered, abusive, opportunistic family
Yes. I know. People are like this.
They only see what they want or hear.
They only see themselves, especially, in despair
Well, life is unfair
I'm happy that you are all sad and unhappy
I hope that it'll last a lifetime
Go take advantage of some more people
Go be like a leech ******* the gold out of everyone
I hope nothing is left for you
I'm just plain happy that you are all blue.
I won't even say, "BLESS YOU."

Here me out!
**** peer pressure and social life!
Let me out!
No worries! I will shut up!
Missing our connection
I guess, you have nothing but a dying admiration
I sing in silence
You hear me out, say words with eloquence
Guess, I'm never good at saying "I miss you"
... I just said, "Don't talk to me, I hate you"
What a childish reply from me
I guess, your childish nature already died
Never will I hold on to the tail of your kite
Says the other Tori Amos song I used to sing every night
I told myself, I won't care about you
Wait, I just checked my phone at 11:52...
Listening to "Loneliest" tonight
Though, I've never really felt that way
I just feel that tonight, it suits my way
Was it just coincidence?
Why do I always make good music when I think of you?
My feet cramps from crossing my legs
One on top of the other
On top of my crossed legs is my laptop
I keep on writing poetry, I just cannot stop
Help me, please... do not really want to cultivate this plethora of thoughts
My intuition tells me that I should trust it
I will forget you
Though the CD you gave me makes me cry of joy
I know that deep inside, forever you will deny
Right timing?
**** social media, peer pressure and social life!
Goodbye! Surely, have dinner!
Get some dinner for breakfast
Eat lunch at dinner
Say goodbye, never say hi
This poetry is nothing by an expression of my authority
No need for sympathy
Borrowing some words from the song I am listening to right now
surveillance, ambulance
yes, we need an ambulance to resuscitate this dying matter

I'm never in any way affected
i just want to utilize you to make art
What can I do?
You help me throw up art
This poetry starts

Return to me
Even though you have not even been here
See me
Even though you have not yet known me
I see you, feel you, breathe you
Will you see, feel, breath me, too?
So busy with life
I neglect my social life
I will never say never to you
If you will be the one sent to me
I will never ask for more, just be with me, stay forever
Slow motion, that is your effect to me
Come back here, my love, wake me up from this illusion
Saw you at the church
imagining we were holding hands
having dinner afterwards
Ooh, Happy Easter!!!
I see your face everywhere
For you, I will be willing to be better than who I am today
Here me out (I know you won't)
See me (I know you won't)

Longing for connection
Where do I put this affection?
Been waiting ever since that day I started waiting
Still waiting even though someone was there
Grieving while being together
Feeling stuck even before I became free
Negativity envelopes me
I ask myself, why being alone makes me more in touched with myself
I do not know where to go?
where will I meet you?
Should I go to the one loving me or loving you
I hope that someday you will see through me
See that I'm the only one for you

Holding hands
at the church, singing hymns and songs of devotion
Having dinner afterwards
Having coffee, conversing until midnight
walking to the door
you held her hand, kissed it, then the forehead
She said, "she'll move ahead"
One last look, then off you go
leaving on a jet plane, that's how far you will go
Everything here is nothing but a nonsense
Everything here is nothing short of great imagination
Vivid yet not graspable

How many times have you said, "Goodbye",
Only to say "hi" the next day?
How many times have you said, "Hi",
Only to leave the next day?
back and forth
Up and down
To and from
side to side
vice versa
repeat, defeat, such a feat
I'm complete
Don't want to be such a defeat

Ants they fall
It makes you want to cry
They stumble by the step
Hooray! It's nothing but an embrace
only to find themselves recuperating, again
Finding the route, the smell, the line, their goal
ah! A biscuit ~ don't you dare fall

She continues to take a leave
She wants to live... be alive
She lives for me, him, her
She wants to stay as a mother
She forgets her medicines
She thrives to survive
Sometimes, I wonder, how or earth did she survive!
Her life is nothing short of misery, disaster, and mistakes
Yet, she chose to rise, make the disaster, her enemy to survive!
What a fantastic human being
Why does she keep on spinning?
I hope she will last more than I do
She is a perfect, a masterpiece
She'll be the centerpiece in every table that I will eat
She will be my reason for being
The reason why I am so excited for what the morning will bring
Her smile lights up my life
Her kisses bring me so much joy and happiness
Her, sometimes, foul mouth brings me great pleasure
For I know how she cares about me, more than all the others
She is my mother
She is a disaster
She could be a stranger
No one loves me like her
There is nothing in the world that I love more than her
She bore me into this world
Like a sunflower, she will rise from all the others
There is nothing more perfect than my mother
There is nothing in the world that I love more than my mother

Technology defies
the progress to survive
It dies the instance it loads
Just wants to hit the road
Technology dies
Progress becomes backwardness
Clenching of the jaw
Gums recede
Technology dies the instance it thrives
Like the teeth, it falls out
No one heard it, not even a single shout out
Stretching the back, crying out of nonsense
just the stress that this technology brings
16 hours not really enough to ring
backwardness is what it only offers
Slower than people
Couldn't have been patient
Next time, who is the patient?
Now, what do you think?

Crawling, lurking, hoping
Craving for the apple to be bitten
Certainty you will realize
The snake is what you really need
Yes, It will be tough
Mindfully, cross the rocks
Everything will be smooth
See me on the other side
A tap on your back, a shoulder to turn
There, you will see me, smiling, waiting
Sugarcane tastes great as it is
Leave it be, then, it will be a source of temporary happiness
Leave it longer, it will turn sour
Do not let me become the sour version of the sugarcane
Let me be the forever honey that will make your coffee sweet
Surely, you will miss the splenda
Nothing is more spectacular than Brenda
Don't get me wrong, I hope she doesn't come out strong
Don't get me wrong, Brenda is me and not the other girl around
Please, see her... here is a pair of glasses
maybe, you need 2 hand lenses
Saw you today, tomorrow, yesterday
In my mind, there you will be
Slowly melting away
I should give up
You have a plan to step up
I hope that you will get off the bus soon
fly to the moon, try the train, be with the other her soon
There goes the afternoon
It shines like never before
she fades away, she walks away
you are running away
please, stay
walk with me
hold my hand, let's walk, ride the tidal waves, maybe
I can make you happy, be with me for eternity
Be my serenity, I will be forever your destiny
Becoming more specific now
what I feel for you is fantastic
I know you won't be ecstatic
You don't even know that because of you, I'm being dramatic
I see the cinematic entrance
maybe, the start of this entrancement
Do you ever think of me?
Do you ever feel that you can be the cause of this entrapment
Just like the yellow City
You will be the road to my eternity
I'm withered now
you will surrender to a different scenario
I'm searching for you, my heart grows fonder each day
I want to see you, yet, want to hide the sun on my face
Just like the sunflowers
I want to turn my head towards you
only, you are shining for everyone, not just that single sunflower that is me
Blabbering nonsense.
12midnight
see the light in a bit
giving more chance to other things
maybe, I lost my chance already
will you ever be someone liking me
If I saw you, met you the first time before she did...
This is crazy... crazy for you... not because of you but because of the things that I want to do
maybe, this will help me become more likable for you
I need you..
I missed my chance, didn't I?
I want you...
You are so far away...
let me stay...
I want you to stay...
Just like the skin covering my body

I'm a zombie
This coffee is making me dizzy
Is it the coffee, or am I just being silly?
Is it the coffee that is causing my headache?
Is the the headache that is causing me to drink coffee?
Downed cold coffee
Took small amounts of brewed coffee all day
Taking sips of coffee in regular intervals
This headache is just throbbing
This headache is just debilitating
Woke up this morning feeling dizzy
Allergic rhinitis, the cold, the sinusitis
The phlegm is clear, thank you, post nasal drip
The nose discharge is clear... so I think, the allergy is causing the steer
Pressure in the eyes, mouth, teeth, jaw
The ache that surrounds my face
The pain that originates underneath
Probably, deeper than my outer layer
This is becoming impromptu now
Losing the rhyme, maybe, it's the time
Guess, I'll have trouble sleeping tonight
My friend coffee, will keep me company!

January 21 2018
2:47AM

She will demo
I will follow
Those two words rhyme together
Now, tell her, which one is better.
Is it to demo, or to follow?
She says, it is the latter.
She will never surrender.
These are the words she spoke of today
Tomorrow, she will have a nice day
Wait, tomorrow is happening now...
She could not sleep, she is wasting away
The cold, it is the cold that bothers her throughout the day
She cannot breathe, she cannot sleep
She downed tons of water, still, the cold bothers
What can she do?
She will wash her hands often
She will not make her defense against common colds soften
Her hands are very cold for the last few days
She thinks that is it because of the coffee she downs everyday
No. Maybe, because she is just plain tired and restless.

My heart flutters
I easily cry over just about anything recently
I empathize a lot
Truly, everything is nothing but a plot
I watched a movie, I cried
I watched a movie trailer, I cried
Is it the loneliness I feel of being alone?
Maybe, it is the beach shown in the movie
Maybe, I just want somebody
I want to travel, be somewhere else
I want to see the world
Like in the movie, Lucy... she just takes everything
Do you have any idea how much you make me smile?
Do you have any idea how much I want to close the miles?
I cannot help but smile when I see your pictures
I cannot help but wonder what if I am the one behind your smiles

December 18 2017
16:43

As the moment dies
She cries
She begins with sadness
Gets rotten with madness
She suffers in pain
She remembers how her childhood loves marry another
She cherishes the will to survive
She only remembers why he could not be the one for her
She only remembers why he should not be loved
She only remembers why all her loves should die
It pinches her heart
The happiness of the other woman is her demise
She asks herself, "How many of this event will I still be able to witness?"
She replies to herself, "Many more, my dear, so long as you keep on saying YES to goodbyes...
saying NO to potential YES to happiness
No worries, there will be more goodbyes
Why worry of the goodbyes, when most of them have not even said, "Hi".

Now, remember, demise, death, madness
Words of exaggeration that she must express
But just to let you know
She continues to survive, thrive and dwell in nothing but gladness
Ah, there will be another time for goodbyes
There will be another time for a "Hi"
Let's watch this begin, again.
Repeat.
Undo.
Repeat.
Let's do it all over, again.

November 22 2017
19:09

Always out of nowhere
I'll receive a message from you somewhere
online or offline
It doesn't matter
You always appear out of nowhere
What was your drama last night?
Maybe you just want to get through the night
Maybe you just want to use me so you could have a fight
That maybe through me, you will find, again, the light
In this fight, I always give in and give up
But my heart for you has long been stopped
What can I do but to shut you up
Out of sight, out of mind
I will never make you see the light
I am here to hear your thoughts and play your game
But there is no way that you will ever win your game, again
I am tired of being used and abused for my kindness
I'd rather be made of stone, and be loveless
I don't want to be with your company that is hopeless
I want to talk to you, I want to be your friend
I don't know what you want from me, but I don't wanna fail with you, in the end
The light is dark, I will fight with light
The light is dark, but I will survive the fight
There you are again, you read my message at 09:02 AM
You were gonna wait for my call
Well, guess what, you did not heed my call
I don't wanna play your game, again
I don't wanna be insane, again
Out of sight, out of mind
says the other Incubus song tonight
Promises, Promises
I'll let myself be the boss of everyone but myself
I will not call, I will not message
Oh, please, message me first so I could have the last laughter
It will be fun to converse with you
See through you, know your concerns and challenges
Guess what, I won't be a part of the cake you will slice
Every time you show up
It feels like a dream, not a good dream I want to have though
It's a dream I don't want to have
Every time your name pops up
I feel like it's a different time
I look everywhere, look at my watch and people everywhere
I cannot believe what an abusive person you are

November 12 2017
19:55

I saw you at the bank
We were one seat apart
For one second our eyes met
What my eyes tried to communicate is blank

I want to say, "Hi"
I see you in my peripheral vision
You were glancing at me, once, twice, thrice
Was it just an illusion?
Was it because of this admiration?

The more I look at you
The more I see your handsomeness
The angst, the earrings, the tattoos, the overall attitude...
They melt me ~ I am without a word

I picture us together
You holding my hand to forever
I see this affection staying forever
Do you even think of me, ever?

I'll be off for 3 weeks
Not seeing you will not make my admiration weak
I look forward to seeing you right at your gate
There you are sitting...
A cup of coffee on one hand, a cigarette on the other

November 04 2017
21:04

I'm hesitant of the things I'll do in my destination
There is something joyful in this transportation
I do not want this bus ride to end...
and, yet, I feel like this trip will help me transcend.
I'm excited to get off this bus
I'm eager to finish all my deliverable down to the last.
I look forward to seeing my destination
Yet I crave to come back home using this same means of transportation.

November 1 2017
22:23

He listens to the songs that are once mine
He listens to the songs as if they are his
He remembers her as the songs play
He listens to the songs just how they are here to stay
The songs are not meant to be his
The songs are somebody else's and in between
The songs are not made for his benefit
The songs are meant to express the writer's feelings
Two weeks has almost passed
He remembers how they talked in the past
He listens to the same songs
The songs he came to like because of her
He listens to the same songs without even thinking of her
He now does not associate the songs to anyone, especially, her
He now offers the same songs to the new person he knows
She is everything... his dreams, his love, his all
He now thinks of this new person every time the same songs play
This new person, she came to like the songs he makes her listen to everyday
The same songs make him think of his former love, and his present

But never will he associate the same songs to the girl that was sandwiched between his former love and his present

Everything crumbles, he falls, he stumbles
He forgets, recovers, loves again
Ah! That is life talking to him, again and again

He ends the day... listening to the songs he came to like because of the girl that was sandwiched between his former love and the present

Never will he think of this girl. Never will he fall, stumble and crumble because of this girl.

He finally recovers.
and the girl sandwiched between his former love and the present is glad that he recovers.

November 1 2017
22:15

It is good to be the queen of my time
To be where I want to be, when I want to be
It is good to be the queen of my time
When I can be at 5 places at one time
Listening to Tom Petty does not make my heart break
Although Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers are playing
It is good to be the queen of my time
When I can write, do, sing what I want
When I can decide on what to do at any time
What does 5 places mean at this time?
Well, they are the tasks that I need to finish in time
I feel a bit pressured, challenged, out of time
nevertheless, I do not have a choice but to just be in time
Now listening to the lead part just after the bridge
Waiting for the chorus to repeat
but here comes the outro and not the chorus in between
I do not even know the title of the songs playing
I just feel connected, happy, sad, happy, again
There is something melancholic in the sounds they are making
Maybe, it is the Halloween that is soon to be ending.

I just cannot stop
The accumulation has to stop
The beauty of the sounds
The security it provides
Cannot be achieved by the digital copies I am bound
Is it just me, or the CD just provides better quality
This is yet to be done
I do not mind publishing this even if it is not yet over
Accumulate-Rip-Trasfer-Save
The action is on repeat
The process is monotonous
Ha! As long as the action repeats sound accuracy
What do I know about sounds?
What do I know about music?
I could not even recognize the bass lines or chords of most songs
Ha! I just know that sounds are better when the CD plays
It is the sense of security it provides
Better than online music streaming
My ears are beaming of confidence and certainty.
Again, this is yet to be completed
I will publish it anyway...
to be continued... the song is on repeat
The artist is the same, the emotion is the same
The beauty of the sounds is on repeat.
Stop.
Play.
Fast Forward.
Rewind.
Stop.
Repeat.
Play.
... and I will repeat, one more time. go.
The lines are poorly written
The rhymes lack decency and coherence
I don't mind.
I will publish this.
Let's finish this sometimes.