Chameleon

Chameleon Aug 2018

Being the cool girl is the same as being the nice guy.
It gets you nowhere.

There's a reason cool girls always show up somewhere alone.
Cool girls are mystifying and exciting to look at and talk to,
but guys really want the practical girl.
The one who has a vibrant social life, loves everything, and never ventures to find music outside of the radio.
The ones who are... unartistic.
If a guy ever says,
"You are the coolest chick he's ever met."
Just know that you have been exiled to the friend zone,
or at least the hook up zone.

Chameleon Aug 2018

Ohio

Ohio sunsets in late summer are amazing.

The sky becomes cotton candy with pinks and blues and the temperature begins to drop.
The clouds swirl and stretch.
You can hear a train in the distance with a faint breeze.
It feels great to drive around with the windows down and listen to music.

Ohio sunsets in late summer are amazing.

#ohio #sunsets #beauty

Chameleon Aug 2018

Dumb

I wear a watch just because I like the way it looks.
I don't actually use it to keep the time.
I buy books even though I haven't sat down and finished one in many years.
I've already listened to Christmas music this year and bought an iced pumpkin spice latte from Starbucks even though August hasn't ended yet.

And I might be in love even though it's one sided and I swore I wouldn't fall for anyone for a long time.
In conclusion, I'm an idiot.

Chameleon Aug 2018

Negative self talk

I feel like if I were anyone other than me,
he would like me enough that we would be a couple by now.

Chameleon Aug 2018

Slow change

It's kind of funny how the human brain works.
You really should be careful what you wish for.
The last month has been emotionally exhausting and so long, but I feel like I'm about to make it to the finish line.
Just like the season is slowly changing, so am I.
I'm ready for colder weather;
to put away my tank tops and shorts and pull out the sweaters and boots.
Of course I'll miss summer when the wind hurts my face and I feel that kind of loneliness that only someone who is single on the holidays can understand.
But life goes and change is good and everything has a way of working itself out in the end.

Chameleon Aug 2018

I wish

I wish you wouldn't call me cute,
or be so nice when I talk about losing an old friend.
I wish you wouldn't tell me you've been thinking about me.
I wish you wouldn't put on classic rock and talk with me for hours, or make me dinner and worry that I won't like it.
I wish I wasn't so comfortable in your house, on your couch, in your bed.
I wish I didn't think you were going to kiss me when I left because you looked at me the way you used to before you'd kiss me.

I wish that all of these things meant you wanted me to be your girlfriend.