I don't know what id do without my mother
Without her wise advise
Without her loving arms
Without her sarcastic comments
Without her snide stares
Without her bold statements
Without her encouraging care

I don't know what I'd do without my mother
Because she's the only one who told us it was okay
That things would get better
Even after we were abused
And there was nothing she could do to fix it
But help us leave from that place
And help us cover up what had happened
Because no one should know what went on in that house
Because no one deserves to have those memories
And so we try to forget
And she holds us together
With her encouragement that we will get better
Even after our bruises have healed
To remind us that are scars are beautiful
And we are a new family
Thank you mom
I love you
And all that you've done
I don't know where'd we be without you
Never leave us

Pain comes in many forms
Whether it's physical
And you can't breathe
Or it's emotional
And you can't catch your breath

But the worst part is
We can't choose our pain
It chooses us
And it takes no consideration
For your life's path

And sometimes all you can do
Is let it slap you in the face

Because we are all just chess pieces
In this life
Waiting to be pushed into the direction
We wish not to move to
And wait to experience pain
From our opponent's next move

Sometimes you lay in your bed
And all you can do is cry
          For yourself
                  For others
                         For humanity
Because what do we live for
Besides to convince ourselves
There is no oblivion

Death is eminent
And life is short
And mine will be cut loose
Sooner than most

So what do I have to lose
Besides believe in lies
       Those stories they tell us
              To give us hope
                      To keep us going

But I don't know how much longer I can go
So I just wait
For my time
Because it's coming soon

It's just one night of acceptance
Giving it all away for an hour
But things end too soon
With reassurance of reoccurrence
But it meant nothing in the end
And I was okay with that
Until the next day
When I thought of it endlessly
And I started my search
To discover the real him
After all he was so interesting
Falling faster and faster
Down the  pit of infatuation
Hoping to receive the call
That was once promised
Because he was good
At giving me what I wanted
Even if it was only for an hour