this couldnt last forever
and now i have an ending

thankful for everyone here that has tried to help me even though you dont know u helped me

every1 wants to p[lay some game
so i say okay
less play
i love you
just need them too
its family
its the truth
i love you
but u dont need to know the truth
i dont really love you
i just think i can fix u
cant u tell by how there is nothing to talk about
when its just us two
cant u tell by how i dont give a **** about what your writing about
and youll never see my name on your dashboard u tooo slow
cant u tell by how i distrust u and sleep, soo much longer that i need too i know
*******
pay me or pay u
gonna shut u off
cold isnt it
are u alone
*******
know the world is drying
dying towel drying
no water left
*******
feel sorry for your sins
**** no
*******
repent
**** the smiling *****
straightoutof Magdalene
hey
SATA?N
hes not there
i been asking
god is here
but he doesnt ******* care
he doesnt ******* care
he doesnt ******* care
he doesnt ******* care
hedoesntfucking care
your love is here

ask god for a small place to stay
away from everyon and everything
that made u feel this way
he;llll!
hellsay hes working so hard
preparing a place
for your rotting creature pelt
to hang above his fireplace
u can trust with all the brids
that know seeing isnt believing
so fat with faith
sidestepping windows
like theieryer necks were made of
neckbraces
unable to kneel down
andpuke it out
fly with them
until they remember
somethings are invisible
and they matter just as well
im standing on the edge of the felt
the putting green orb u fell onto and melded
so u grab your blak crows
and fly fly fly
******* hard
******* full force
until you fly to ******* hard into it
and break your neck
and remember
before u die
that there is nothing to believe in
even when you are well
there is nothing to be decieved by
you were born worthless
branded with a dollar sign
and yyour holy ghost
wont pay the hospital life
ur dead
because u believed in life
birds are dumb+haldf blind
im blind
but i could see what you were doing
with empty sockets or backwards eyes

its been real
ready to die

rescue me with yoursmile

i have what i thought i needed asleep next to me breathing feeling everything

life is robot + always waiting

thankful for this girl that i never deserved and never will

what is sleep
turn it into purple sleep

cant change or explain the past
it’s there for a reason

when life catches up to you

care too much u are needy
care too little you are an *******
there is no in between

sick of being alone all the time

i dont know anything that ever made me feel better without even being close at all just by what you say i love u i love u

admissions of the weak and confused

lit a blunt and forgot the world exists

this is the beginning of the end of everything

thnkful for everyone that writes to me everyone that gives their time to me

i still have things to say

i love constantly
and that can never change

the empty that ur feeling is the living ive been feeling for

some peoples hearts are to full of money and success in society to feel what love is at all
and they hurt the people who they leave behind never understanding why it bothers them

when someone i give myself to looks at me i want to feel love in their eyes

so many people raised and taught to be cold and calculating instead of caring and understanding

whatever it is i deserve more than this ****

have to be two people now
emotionless
and barely holding on

it just comes down to what you value i would rather be homeless and in love than rich and empty and u dont feel the same way

i have to figure out what is wrong so i can destroy this
and go and be where i need to be

i had a good night for the first time in a long time and it ******* ***** that it has to end but at least i know i can have them and that it is a possibility that this could happen again

dont expect me to care now when everything is going good when u never cared from the beginning

fighting this everyday for too long when i know its right and i gave up because i was too weak to keep trying somethings are just connected regardless of what u feel about me so many things i cant believe that you said because its exactly what im thinking

i have nothing to give to anyone except for what is inside of me someday i will have more but if it isnt enough now u never deserved it anyways

everyone is alone and u are the one that knows

she said ill stay until 2 the rest of the night and the days after are nothing until im sleeping next to you

this is past present and future
u should know ive always seen the last next to you and no matter where u are and i am i love u for what u are and ill never forget this strange connection that made me feel alive again

where are u
i dk where i am either

going to make this right

im sorry sometimes i cant keep away anymore

u are beautiful and amzing nothing will ever change that

there are things in life that pass by and they were perfect then and are perfect now but that doesnt mean that they will ever exist in my reality

everything i ever respected or believed comes out in what you say

need to do this the right way or it will never be worth anything if it can ever be at all

why do some people add three periods onto everything that they say is it supposed to indicate youre thinking deeper isn’t that something that what your saying should already say

going to be myself from now own and whatever happens happens

i jus want love like it really can be like
nothing else matters to me
how it has been or how it could be

******* doing this inspite of what happens to my life thats how i know its real

someday every1 will feel the way u and i feel

life is a burden so we work towards what is after not knowing where we are going

starts over

saying things will get better
does not make it true