starting to believe in none of this is real

a woman riding the beast

darker crows take a walk
through your mangled picture space
as u serpent by
and melt the frames
while I slither out your past in shame
il rot in here
its for u okay
if it makes u warm and less afraid
ill stand in here alone forever
and never ******* move again
u can tell them i am anything
when they ask you u can say
when he touched me
it felt so lifeless
like a worm taken from his grave
and they will believe you
every word you say
no one believes in a sad liar
or in the palaces he creates
ill be your god i/\ heaven
and you can streamline everything i make
drive an 8 sided truck, filled with human garbage + stuff
and let your carriage wheels tread the waste
(it could be so much simpler)
(walk in with a lighter)
(and burn those newspaper gates)
but when they ask you
its all made of paper?
how does he stand so still in the flames?
when you become quiet
they will watch u grow in the silence
u will know the only words to say
I told him that i loved him
until i realized what i was saying
he walks around in there with his head chopped off
(it scares me)
drinking a bottle full of waste
quiet
always quiet
i die in your silence
always silent
******* kills me everyday

but i’ll be your motion picture and mirror what you window
to watch u inhale these seething lakes
next to a thousand blackveiled widows
star-dusted in liver
horrid mouths foaming sea spray
please come this way
ill walk out my head
its all for u okay
refuse eternity
refuse redemption
refuse to even turn away
passing unreasonable
approaching undeniable
livingin the cold with my shame
come and take my ******* phone
i buried it in the snow 8 months ago
the irony of the timing is making me gag
**** life **** timing **** mistakes
this is what i needed to say
i never left u alone or abandoned that frame
and u have barely been searching
and ive been dead in here for days