reminding myself that every door I open is also an exit

Only trust myself

Impulse impulse pleasure desire death

week 1 constant intense ***
week 2 slightly dimished
week three effort dissapears
conversation changes
everyone else is of higher importance
because u have alreay overcame the challenges and claimed what you fought for
texts dissapear
*** dissapears
except for in the movie in their eyes everytime another challenge walks by
and u are alone now together
dreaming of sleeping with other people
for the rest of your life

what the actual **** is happening to this  place

I love you, Joshua

.kabnee

fire is everything

I always need more
Nothing is enough

it all changes in the morning
what i was is gone
u need to embrace reality

everyone can love and respect you in the world and it means nothing if the one you want too doesnt see it

i love you sorry about all this mess

people need what is not given to them freely
when they recieve it everything else diminishes into nothing and a relationship is born