i wont be lied to

i want to live like this on another level and its sad that everyone cant see it this way i love everybody and everything and i was struggling because so many people who were close to me could never live this way this reality is ******* im making my own

never wanted anything more

u can focus everything on making something perfect to yourself or let it be the disaster it is and it will become perfect in its own standard, in the end i find it hard to believe that there will be any recognizable difference

im starting to forget why i had faith in u ur loving is less than leaving and im just trying to pass through

clouds of smoke
speak in exhaust
write in tongues
by their frail haunches they unlatch
then attach to my lungs

ready to give up

everything makes sense to me

in closed eyes
u look dead and white
open mouth black
closed lips in violence
u let me feel alive

ruin it ruined it ruins it

u dont try hard enough so im done trying at all

**** **** u

tell everyone everything that u never wanted anyone to know

master your emotions and no one can touch you

this house iwll be my tomb

everything was for u and  i dont care what way you see it

too tired to make love"  warning sign for the rest of your life

i wont be lied to

cops are worse than useless

feel like im coming out of a coma

I can be god just ask me what u want

i know this will never amount to anything so why do people still try to act like im gaining anything for this or have a reason to fake anything i just want to do something good for once in my life i really care too much and it makes me sick and i dont know how to change it and no one knows how much its affected everything in my life and everyone im trying to live with

pills are something and they seem like the same // death is a cold grave and cold feels like life again

just because certain things are widely accepted as truth it doesnt make them true

dont need any1 or
anything

i have never been enough
and u remind me
every time you close your mouth

if u have to think really hard about what u are writing or need to put the words poem or poetry into everything your writing your trying to be something u are not just give up you are trying to be something u want to be not something u are

dont be offended by anything im saying if u are its about u and you know it more than i do

i dont want you to hate me

**** america

where are u
i dk where i am either

learning to feel
******* dumb

i ******* hate you for not caring

what advice could i ever pass on to my future children or what good could any of this bring to a family nothing and it is who i am so what the **** do you want from me

cant sleep cant eat
but i can smoke and i can drink

give it time I told u you are mistaken to believe anything or anyone beside myself will choose when I die