dont even know where to start

rainbows sleep /live / hide above her open eyes

this is past present and future
u should know ive always seen the last next to you and no matter where u are and i am i love u for what u are and ill never forget this strange connection that made me feel alive again

all i had to do was be myself and u tried to take that from me and change me into what u wanted me to be

im not making anything until it just comes out of me it makes me crazy, bothers me, more than anything but it would be nothing without waiting

nighttime is a beautiful place

seeing who a person truly is changes your perspective of everything

******* doing this inspite of what happens to my life thats how i know its real

need to do this the right way or it will never be worth anything if it can ever be at all

its all alone and gone

there are things in life that pass by and they were perfect then and are perfect now but that doesnt mean that they will ever exist in my reality

when i say **** u
it really means i lov u
when i tell you to leave
it really means i need u
and it hurts me
that it hurts u less
than it hurts me

this will never be more than this

your parents have a favorites and it isnt u
your god has a favorite and it isnt u
your girlfriend has a favorite and it isnt u
your wife is ******* her favorite
and she isnt ******* u

this is the beginning of the end of everything

dreams feel so real and how they make me feel when i wake up, sad and afraid

nothing has ever felt worse than this

i dont know how to deal with these feelings anymore

its a long way down and out

when life catches up to you

why do people think im supposed to understand anything

if u leave without speaking to me
when u come back
the doors will be locked
leave your key and leave

if u really care for someone..

i dont know what to say

still afraid
but not going anywhere

someday it will be captured on stone
then this world will see how desperation grows tired of genies, beyond so much more the mask of your youth lingers like a lightning struck ghost in my brain crackling attuned to itsglow

portrait of the american family in death

it means nothing, just friends with my family, we were just *******, it means notthing

my chain is a rope
above a sad gold elephant
hung to heaven from the floor

always faded

everybody has there own way to fight things i was wrong before maybe its something that u needed to be happy and thats okay im just doing it my own way

sometimes
i will
i love you
words u will never hear

this that kind of tired u cant sleep out of

****

why do some people add three periods onto everything that they say is it supposed to indicate youre thinking deeper isn’t that something that what your saying should already say

forces self to think about **** no one wants to think about hates life for it

domestic life makes me want to **** myself and idk how to get out

feel like im coming out of a coma

what is sleep
turn it into purple sleep

profession:: collecting all the sadness

to hate urself alive

im desperately trying to fight this
no one is going to give me pills
i dont want to be helped
because i need to know that a human being alone can make it

u don’t understand because of who u are 4 cars colliding on purpose as fast as they can go

u cant even ******* listen

i want to live like this on another level and its sad that everyone cant see it this way i love everybody and everything and i was struggling because so many people who were close to me could never live this way this reality is ******* im making my own

i hate u maybe more than anything for the way that u live and the way that you leave

im sorry i ever made this

in closed eyes
u look dead and white
open mouth black
closed lips in violence
u let me feel alive