an evil that i have to **** before it kills me

still afraid
but not going anywhere

this is the beginning of the end of everything

i dont know how to deal with these feelings anymore

my chain is a rope
above a sad gold elephant
hung to heaven from the floor

why does everybody want to put a label on **** *******
let **** be what it is

when life catches up to you

there are things in life that pass by and they were perfect then and are perfect now but that doesnt mean that they will ever exist in my reality

it means nothing, just friends with my family, we were just *******, it means notthing

if u leave without speaking to me
when u come back
the doors will be locked
leave your key and leave

sometimes
i will
i love you
words u will never hear

why do people think im supposed to understand anything

someday it will be captured on stone
then this world will see how desperation grows tired of genies, beyond so much more the mask of your youth lingers like a lightning struck ghost in my brain crackling attuned to itsglow

seeing who a person truly is changes your perspective of everything

white lights and vampires

its passed this time stop asking stupid ******* questions

******* doing this inspite of what happens to my life thats how i know its real

you are a liar annn so much better than me

portrait of the american family in death

if u really care for someone..

i dont know what to say

this that kind of tired u cant sleep out of

****

domestic life makes me want to **** myself and idk how to get out

forces self to think about **** no one wants to think about hates life for it

this is past present and future
u should know ive always seen the last next to you and no matter where u are and i am i love u for what u are and ill never forget this strange connection that made me feel alive again

its a long way down and out

everybody has there own way to fight things i was wrong before maybe its something that u needed to be happy and thats okay im just doing it my own way

u cant even ******* listen

to hate urself alive

always faded

profession:: collecting all the sadness

u don’t understand because of who u are 4 cars colliding on purpose as fast as they can go

absorb me im nothign less than dreaming

i hate u maybe more than anything for the way that u live and the way that you leave

Takeoffs brain is empty, young dolph is at roscoes now as  Casper the friendliest ghost around Memphis, Sylvia’s head is still in the oven and I’m here disbelieving *** might be a ghost on a podcast but I’m alive and still can’t see what there is to be looking for on this side or the other no one is made for anything or anyone just to die and live while In life

So why

im sorry i ever made this

if u dont hear from me know that **** is going like it should

why do some people add three periods onto everything that they say is it supposed to indicate youre thinking deeper isn’t that something that what your saying should already say

what are u and why do u want to do this to me

how do u lie like being alive

what is sleep
turn it into purple sleep

i know what this could be like half of it is better than my wholelife

i dont trust in ****
i dont believe in ****

i want to live like this on another level and its sad that everyone cant see it this way i love everybody and everything and i was struggling because so many people who were close to me could never live this way this reality is ******* im making my own

lit a blunt and forgot the world exists