its passed this time stop asking stupid ******* questions

i am the master of the monotonous
and distance hardens the exclamation
nothing is returning nothing is never ending
there are no eyes that can see what is needed
neadrathal, white club dragging black ink through cantankerous white leaves, love is an iv,
long refuted poison of a debutants dream, it just blankets u while you sleep
and walk away
blank down colorless empty streets

why does everybody want to put a label on **** *******
let **** be what it is

rainbows sleep /live / hide above her open eyes

so many problems so many inconsistencies so many feelings

as real as you want it to be

nighttime is a beautiful place

******* doing this inspite of what happens to my life thats how i know its real

you are a liar annn so much better than me

this is past present and future
u should know ive always seen the last next to you and no matter where u are and i am i love u for what u are and ill never forget this strange connection that made me feel alive again

it means nothing, just friends with my family, we were just *******, it means notthing

every night now dreams infuse
hollow lotus flowers
colored by words
strangled by gloom

this couldnt last forever
and now i have an ending

so many people raised and taught to be cold and calculating instead of caring and understanding

there are things in life that pass by and they were perfect then and are perfect now but that doesnt mean that they will ever exist in my reality

apocalypse apocalypse apocalypse
who is the horse god

****

dreams feel so real and how they make me feel when i wake up, sad and afraid

white lights and vampires

the empty that ur feeling is the living ive been feeling for

went to my parents, got some money got gas, cleaned your car car wash and ciggarettes i dont have any left, love you sorry about all this mess

when someone i give myself to looks at me i want to feel love in their eyes

life is robot + always waiting

about anything that u are meaning
and everything that u have to live with

i dont know u but i love you i dont love u but i know you and it all can be made the same

someday it will be captured on stone
then this world will see how desperation grows tired of genies, beyond so much more the mask of your youth lingers like a lightning struck ghost in my brain crackling attuned to itsglow

do what you have to do now once this ends nothing is stopping me

she says she’ll never let go
when she already let go

i want to run away with u

its a long way down and out

seeing who a person truly is changes your perspective of everything

i want to live like this on another level and its sad that everyone cant see it this way i love everybody and everything and i was struggling because so many people who were close to me could never live this way this reality is ******* im making my own

i dont know what the **** im saying ever

when life catches up to you

i dont know how to deal with these feelings anymore

how do u love someone who doesnt feel love at least anyway close to how u feel it

always faded

why do some people add three periods onto everything that they say is it supposed to indicate youre thinking deeper isn’t that something that what your saying should already say

settling for nothing is the only thing ive ever learned to do successfully

i need to die before one of my cats die icant handle it

an evil that i have to **** before it kills me

still afraid
but not going anywhere

i love u im sorry if i said anything that made u feel sad or upset i love u boo i hope you come tomorrow to sleep with me i love you

nobody knows what your going thru so don’t expect anyone to understand

every1 deserves better than this
except for myself when i know i am the cause of all this

its all alone and gone

there is nothing worse than living against the things you cant change

lit a blunt and forgot the world exists

everybody has there own way to fight things i was wrong before maybe its something that u needed to be happy and thats okay im just doing it my own way