showing your emotions openly and living with it after is way harder than pretending that you have none and trying to rationalize that feeling sadness depression anxiety and need is just irrational and childish just makes u fake not strong

why does everybody want to put a label on **** *******
let **** be what it is

i want to do every drug in the world at the same time

role models: Judas

im trying to work to get these things even tho i feel like u think im wasting time
i have the time to do it
too many big things happening at once cant handle all of them
but it will happen

cant handle distance

read this ******* garbage

i never do anything good for you

learning to feel
******* dumb

went to my parents, got some money got gas, cleaned your car car wash and ciggarettes i dont have any left, love you sorry about all this mess

come to show u what dead really means

im so sick of feeling like this i just want to be happy

theer are so many stars named after you

ur testosterone is sucha wsate of time
stop pointing the knife flip the handle
hand itto me backwards
and ill stab out my own eyes

when i say **** u
it really means i lov u
when i tell you to leave
it really means i need u
and it hurts me
that it hurts u less
than it hurts me

there is a type of pill to **** every type of feeling

i deserve this u didnt deserve any of this

if i disappear know that im okay

ruin it ruined it ruins it

i love people who spend hours on things that no one ever sees
maybe because its easy but idc i know they mean it

king of nothing

love lasts forever
story close to ending

farther from life closer to death

you inspire me more than you could ever know

**** america

not everything is about you

alive and breathing
dead and dreaming

tell everyone everything that u never wanted anyone to know

i want to run away with u

this is not how i feel like only sometimes how i feel

how to handle life idfk

profession:: collecting all the sadness

somewhere in a different place
maybe with a different face
you need me here to blame
so i stay
even though i will never change
i will always be the same

u r taken for granted
when you are all that should matter

am i okay, no
is anyone or anything okay
are you okay

pulling out teeth that grow right back

you love when you need to
i speak when i have to
and its the right thing to do

i have no soul

someday it will be captured on stone
then this world will see how desperation grows
tired of genies, beyond so much more
the mask of your youth lingers
like a lightning struck ghost
in my brain
crackling attuned to itsglow

i can feel my body dying and for the first time that isokay with me

nobody knows how ****** everything really is

i cant get out of what i need to escape to try to be happy there isnt enough in me so im here and im staying until everything goes away

i need to die before one of my cats die icant handle it

what advice could i ever pass on to my future children or what good could any of this bring to a family nothing and it is who i am so what the **** do you want from me

animals make me feel like there is hope in life humans make me want to die

my parents relationship used to make me sad, now i feel happy for them and sad for whatever im missing to ever be able to have something like that

people are afraid to talk about death
until they **** it and sleep next to it
then its all they can stand

completely

i am in love with a mermaid

i thank god everyday for ****/cigarettes/hennessy