one day she longs
to remember the sadness
with a gladness and fondness
that she no longer resides there
heaven help her hopeful heart.

Father, remember the drives
Me on the passenger seat of your UNO
The old cassette

You were always this strong person
My giant
My one and only father
I have been frozen since your reluctant departure
Ricocheting between numbness and screaming despair
not far enough on either trenches
For fear it will all collapse

I imagine you here, still
You took the sound with you
All's left but sound and warmth
Burying my head in my hands
in shame, is all I can do

Father, remember the warm December nights
Our lungs filled with music
before yours filled with water
father, you may rest now
You said you still have a dream
I will fulfil your dream
As a shrine to your lungs
That must now sing forever
In the garden of good-byes.

I felt you in my future
and i knew you'd be mine
in my dreams
Visceral certainty
when you came to me
it shocked my faculties
where you really here
i am not used to this sort
of fortune
You were too important
for me to swallow you whole
but you were all mine
The moon at my very feet
And then you were gone.

my dear
where are you?
are you at peace?
as for me
i ached to bloom
all my petals
scattered on the ground
on this strange land
i am sorry
i am failing to be
i miss you.

He is pain
He is light and love
Cocooned in his sublime presence
Hazel eyes that glimmer in daylight
I feel as though I'm to depart from this life
He possesses tenderness
in the way he moves and talks
A delicate man
He is pain
He is mine.