noelle

noelle Nov 2020

love songs

i think of you
when love songs
come on

noelle Nov 2020

live or die

maybe i don't actually want to die;
i think i just want to live.

i want to be me.

one day

Nov 2020

elaine

that was us.

you never asked to read my poetry
maybe that was the sign.
i told you i wrote for fun,
you shrugged and moved on.

red flags went up everywhere, but i didn’t bother looking

#sorry #love #poem

noelle Nov 2020

faking it

i'm standing at the bottom of a hole
with a shovel in my hand

noelle Nov 2020

one touch

a brief finger on my face,
or your warm hands on my back;
i'm all yours,
and that's all i ever wanted.

noelle Nov 2020

when i don't notice

i look away,
hoping you look back at me
when i don't notice.

noelle Nov 2020

how

i don't want to sleep,
but i don't want to be awake.
i don't want to eat,
but i don't want to be hungry.
i don't want people around me,
but i don't want to be alone.

i want to stop existing,
but i don't want to die.

how the ****
do i get out
of my head?