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No One Special Dec 2013
Please don't leave me alone with these thoughts in my head
The monsters are coming and they're telling me I should be dead
They force down the blade, they slice up my skin
They tell me I belong in hell, and I should pay for my sins
Humming sweet tunes of death, I can always hear them
No matter how hard I try to ignore their sounds of torment
These monsters in my head they're tearing me to shreds
I want them to stop, with every drop of red, the voices become softer
I can barely hear them now, but they'll be back full volume all too soon
As long as they're still here, my mind will only get darker
I just want the voices to stop, I don't want to hear what they have to say
I want to tear out my heart and cut off my ears, I want the pain to end
These voices in my head make me ashamed of who I am everyday
I'm thinking of ways I could silence them, maybe I'm better off dead
My soul and body are becoming  vacant and empty
The only thing still inhabiting me are those voices in my mind
The quick stinging pain of a cut is dulling the screams, but just barely
I'm already empty inside so all that's left is finding a way to die
I bought a new razor, I have my pills and a tub of hot water
When suddenly I'm hit with a memory, a memory of you
That single thought saved me from the slaughter
You called me perfect, you made me feel beautiful
I remembered your smile, your eyes, how you looked at me
I know you're hurting too, I'm sorry, just know you're irreplaceable
I'm fighting my demons, I'm locking them up and you are the key
No One Special Oct 2013
Two years ago I wouldn't have seen this coming
Drinking until I stumble and fall to the ground
Pools of scarlet grow with my arms slowly dripping
Believe me, I've been trying to turn it around
No One Special Oct 2013
1 for the luck I need
2 for the beauty I never had
3 for the size 0 I couldn't wear
4 for my wrong doings and deeds
5 just because I'm sad
6 for the pain I bared
7 for the taunting
8 for my family
9 for my "friends"
10 for the nightmares that still haunt me
11 is just for me
12 a cheers for my life's end
And 16 more for every month my heart beat for you
I'll leave the bottle open and here for you
Just in case you suddenly remember or see
You still love me
No One Special Sep 2013
(Intro)
Don't let your heart fill with dread
I'm here to hold you near
I won't let you stain you sleeves red
I'm right here and holding you, my dear

(Verse 1)
Put down that blade
I have something to say
There's no need to feel betrayed
because I am here to stay

(Build-up)
Please be oh so careful because
When it is the end of the day
The monsters come out to play

(Chorus)
Like a weight holding you under
Pulling you to the depths of despair
Leaving you to wonder
As you keep fighting for air

How did you get here
Why is this happening
Looking in the mirror
Finding no hope to cling

(Verse 2)
Your mama and daddy might be gone
But I'm not, oh I'm here for you
I'm sorry so many have done you wrong
But many also care and you have no clue

(Build-up)
Please be oh so careful because
When it is the end of the day
The monsters come out to play

(Chorus)
Like a weight holding you under
Pulling you to the depths of despair
Leaving you to wonder
As you keep fighting for air

How did you get here
Why is this happening
Looking in the mirror
Finding no hope to cling

(Outro)
Feeling down and alone
I really hope you know
That I'm right here
I'm right here
No One Special Sep 2013
My heart quickens its pace

As I sit, wait, and anticipate

Shaking hands, rattling teeth

Nervous beyond belief

Was I too fast? Was I too loud?

These are the questions I ask myself

Would my parents be proud?

Or like a trophy collecting dust, put me on a shelf?

Toes tingling, face warm

My heart is torn

I want to go, yet I'd like to stay

At home in bed, I wish I could lay

People encourage, while I protest

They say I did better than all the rest

I try and calm down

Without making a sound

Here it comes, the moment of truth

Like sitting in a photo booth

Waiting for the camera to flash

3... 2... 1... my heart turns to ash
No One Special Sep 2013
Greens, yellows, blues
Indescribable hues
Soft beautiful, no less
Laying under the stars
As colors dance in the sky
All other thoughts left behind
Waves of purple and pink
With splashes of deep red ink
Sprinkled with specks of silver and white
On a canvas of a dark winter's night
No One Special Sep 2013
My nightmare is now reality, you left me

No real explanation, no apology

Two short texts and a phone call

After pressing end, I fell apart

It ended before it had the chance to start

I know the reason why

You left me all alone

The reason you said goodbye

It was for her..

there's a difference between love and in love

and right now the difference is me and her

you only love me while you're truly in love with her

yes it breaks my heart, she hasn't loved you as long as me

but if she makes you happy, my lips won't speak a word

this is because I want to see you happy

even if it tears me apart
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