her mother used to repetitively say to her,
"i'll always be here for you."
but sadly, she had to leave her forever, on this earth, all alone. why?

her brother used to remind her,
"if anyone were to bully you, i'll beat the living **** out of them."
but instead he never do anything bout it when she complains to him, but beat her up instead. why?

her relatives used to say to her,
"family comes first, you'll eventually come running back to us when no one's there for you or when someone leaves you."
but when she needs them, when no one is around, they ignore her, they leave her, and let her be on her own. why?

her friends always say to her,
"because you are my friend, I'm always here for you, if you need a shoulder to lean on, I'm always here."
but instead, they turn their backs against her and walked away. why?

who in the righteous mind would be sitting down next to her, and tell her everything's gonna be alright? and make it **** happen, make it sure that it will really be alright?

Begin with fist bump
Out for daily adventures
And end the day well.

You, are my shining armor.
Protects me from all dismay in my life.
I, am yours. I am sure to make you feel sated with good vibes.
I'll give you assurance of my fidelity to you.
You, are mine. As how you convey.
So as we always hoped. We are one.

we don't speak no more,
except for in my dreams you're there.
we don't see each other no more,
except for in my memories you're there.
we don't care no more,
except for secretly in my heart, for you i care.

you in my mind, kept me up at night.
the cause of my everyday sleepless nights.
the toughts of you as i hug my pillow tight.
makes me miss you more, nothing ever feels right.

your smile have always made me shy.
making butterflies flap their wings in my tummy, that's no lie.
you look at me, eyes sparkle right at me.
i wish you'd see how mine did too,
as i bashfully looked away slowly.

if ever you know what's going on in my mind,
and what i have for you in my heart.

His mind is all clogged up with excruciating thoughts,
and as he screams in agony, he knows no one could hear.
For those who did, they are what you call demons.
Those demons that stayed in him, and those that lingers around him.

He's lost and he's trapped in his own dark world, and no one is there to help.

"Is it normal to be missing someone so bad, that you can't even keep your mind on track? To the point you forgot the time, and the date. To see him was all you could think of, and so you wait?"

Time to compensate for the times I am late,
To be telling the world of how I let this thing go, before.
And I'm here to be coming to what was the thing I love the most.
My mind full of thoughts, all day everytime.

Thinking bout the things I could or would have done.
Bout those times I've wasted, ended up letting myself down.
But today I am giving no *****, to what's in my way.
I'll stand up, and get out, to show everyone what I'm capable of.

The road I went through time to time,
From a kid, to the woman I am today.
I don't have to tell the world I am fine,
Because we all know I don't need no say.

last i saw your face,
i passed by without any trace.
thought i could say hi or so
but we weren't quite on our toes.

til then im left with remembrance of you,
of how we could have been
i could never get that through,
but it's time instead i let myself win.

i am missing who you used to be,
around me as if, it was all easy.
but i should shake that away.
for you were the almost lover that i had, but you went and stray.

i never thought you could mean so much to me,
you make happy, always feeling so free!
as much as i get to see you almost everyday,
i can never stop missing you so, will you stay?

we both are always on the road going for adventures together,
and i could do that with you forever!
everyday i'm always looking forward to a new run.
with you, it's a never ending fun.

you are the definition to my happiness.
you're not perfect you're nothing more or less.
but just enough to keep me together,
keep me sane.

x.

The tide is getting high tonight,
You and I, nothing is going right.
Tried to talk to you all night,
But realising, there's nothing worth the fight.

You think that you're all cool,
Yet you are nothing but a fool.
***** that, go drown in a pool.
You are just a ****** tool.

Yeah, all I wanted was to run and hide.
But you went and broke my light.
You're no longer all of my nights.
Not in you no more, that I could confide.

Today, I've decided that I should let you go.
The idea of you in my head is taking a toll.
I'm getting sad day by day knowing you're gone.
For good.

Last night, I couldn't control it any longer.
The tears rolled down my cheeks like waterfall.
I tried to get a grip and hold on tighter.
That little hope in me but we know it's my call.

Let it go, they say.
It's really the time for me to let you go.

I got to go.

Goodbye my almost lover.
Just to let you know;
We had a good run.

I'll remember you til the end of time.

Maybe we are not alike,
We are definitely different.
Maybe that's the reason why I looked your way.
But,
Maybe that's the reason why you walked away.

Maybe.

It will eventually become a place as somewhere only we know.
Somewhere we could be free and mindless.

Maybe.

After a long day of living,
a good long shower would suffice.
to keep my mind of everything.

As the water glides through my hair,
and it reaches my skin.
That feeling of warmth and comfort,
purification, it hugs me.
So tight, it cleared all the unsure
and unneeded feelings.

Refreshed.

strange, subtle energy.
i’ve lost my voice to uncertainty.
everyday i questioned myself.
what’s worth the fight and the energy,
when it’s not recognised.

stop reminiscing,
it hurts so bad.
stop hoping,
you won’t be back.

time moves at it’s own speed.
we can’t always keep up.
so accept the changes.
no one’s gonna stop for you,
except yourself.

somedays she feel contented
somedays her mind gets cluttered
somedays she is on top of the world
somedays she just fall in a twirl

she realise it's all about being equal,
but eventually she ended up in sequels.

but all she got to do is,

she have to walk the talk,
somedays, talk the walk.