Your hand in mine.
Fall wind sending shivers up my spine.

This won’t last, as I gaze into your eyes.
Searching for another second of peace, before I fall into your lies.

The sound of your laughter echos around.
Until my memories leave me in silence. Not a sound.

Rewinding in my mind every stolen glance, every laugh, each touch.
Wondering if my expression gave away too much.

I was falling, hard and fast.
For someone who wouldn’t last.

Being alone stings.

.

But feeling unwanted swells.

#hedosentcare #noonecares #whowouldcare #idontcare #idontmatter #mindgonewild

Words. Feel. Like. Bricks. Tied. To. My. Heart.

Sink. Or. Swim.

I just keep wondering, when are you going to show up?
Does all the false-kindness and backdoor agendas end?
Where the hell are you and what is keeping you from showing up?
...Are you even coming at all?
.
.
.
Hallow.

Here I am
It's quite now

And all I can feel
Are tears falling down

They are in a race you see
Which can caress my lips first

Streamers of shame
Rivers carrying my pain

It's off to the races
My face becomes a tidal wave

This floor is a pool
Water engolfing exahusted hands covering face

Even if I bend and break
There's no leaving this place.

So I melt into my deepest fears
Stuck in my own disgrace

#depression

Your words break my spine
                        *one syllable at a time.

Bite the serpent living behind your teeth.
Keep your venom far away from me.
Don't let the reaction strike.
Words constricting my neck tonight.
I can't respond. Not even to breathe.
Poisonous love, quit striking me.
Chocking on your judgement.
Harsh words build higher walls.
Next time you coil up that tongue,
I know it's time to run.
Just like venom slowly kills through the bloodstream
So does your words that are hurting me.