The fallow field
the desert in my mind
the wind that blows
renders me blind

No crops no life
just dust and weeds
into this barren landscape
my inspiration bleeds

The smell of the inert
lays heavy in the air
amidst the inhospitable
I am chained to a chair

The soil the earth
these misty plains of misconception
microbes of madness mutate
tumbleweed tightens the anticipation

No creatures roam
the rivers dry bed
and as forests die
their screams fill my imploding head

A green pasture oasis
a summer rainfall to tease the synapses
right before my tired eyes
the hallucination perfectly collapses

The fallow field
the vastness within
no sooner does it end
then it starts to begin

If it is love on your lips
that you can taste,
then you know that kiss
will never be a waste
Emotions collide,
bonded for an eternity
At times a tempest
then a steady flow of serenity
One look
One hold
Fate is sealed
Pain is healed

My word is my bond, the politician lied, through milky white bleached teeth, a snarl springs to mind, a hyena I think

Promises of nothing more than irreconcilable intricate initiations, integral, unsavoury, biased and deranged

A set of broken scales line their halls of judicial justifications, pay to provide to elevate the highest order , the cruelest tongue

Vile little creatures is how we are expressed when discussed in such high circles of zero morality and a gene sharing ethnicity

So very aware and yet nonchalance of manner and the resilience towards the common being holds this rank and file far from the temper struck troops,

As we can easily perish they can so easily cherish, embrace and rule a world scorched by their own heresy, a world void of love , empty of meaning

I'll take my words, my ideas, my master plan ,
I'll not fall foul of life from a tin can

If there is a destiny if there is a reason to define
Then these politicians of premeditated symbolic systems
Can understand that my thoughts for them are inert ,
And my time for them shall be there when the planets realign

I am pristine
I am pathetic
I am pointless

My love commanded
My love reprimanded
My love finally destroyed

The dream dissolved
The dream was gone
The dream was what??

I am pointless
I am pathetic
I am happy
I am free

No constraints
No marriage to restrict
No divorce with pain to inflict

No need to please
No you cannot dangle and tease
I owe you nothing
And you owe me, even less

Pointless with reason
Pathetic to the point of perfection
But freedom is the answer
And not this façade, this fake reflection

I have nothing but me and my soul
There is no one to who I pay a toll
Pathetic and pointless??
Painless autonomy,
Sublime in my sanctuary

Wow,
Hectic,
head on
freight train trauma,
The constant
Non stop
Dissipation,
Distribution of noise,
Immense
Incredible
Overwhelming
Frightening
Worrying,
A siren sounds
Oblivious to life,
People talking so loud
The **** are so proud,
Cars with their
Unconfigurated congestion,
Life racing by
With on obscure obsession,
Beauty rides rough ridges into reality,
The sour and the sombre,
Their shoulders are rubbing
With the rich and famous,
The righteous reason makers,
Serenity shines from a balcony
5 floors up,
And anger
Angst
Immoral institutions,
They rise from the ashes,
They dominate the structure
They furnish our desires,
They instruct our illusions.

I am not really sure
What I am actually here for
I know its not to sing and dance
Or put you all into a trance
I know I've got words
And they must fly from the nest
But what to do or say
I never know what's best
Maybe sit maybe stand
But always at hand
Something to write and say
How I sometimes see our day to day
How my nerve endings react how I feel
When nothing seems quite real

Love in silence, under wraps,
behind bars,

best place to hide
and show no scars

Love in vain
holds no attraction

love in pain
a life full of distraction

Love without tenderness
shall be the way

no bond no union
each and every lonely day

Love from a distance
and no pathetic excuse

love in silence
no barrage of abuse

Hold no candles
that never can burn

with one look of the eye
love can so easily turn

Factory reset as my eyes shut  on another day confined to the ranks of history
The bright sun awakens ,
The mind is alert,
A day  of unknowing,
So tragedy we shall, try to avert
New day new challenge
New day new start,
From the days that have ended
A good place to depart
The screen is dark and no pixels shine
The intellect is bright and the subconscious is  sublime
Creativity creates chaos and reason redefines our  irrationality
So as the songbirds chorus greets your new horizon
Why do we fall back so easily into the arms of a dysfunctional reality

The distraction of attraction
The intention , of what, your thoughts did mention
A fleeting glimpse, the curtain slightly pulled
A vision , on your hard drive installed
For hours for days the distraction remains
This attraction shall have you in chains
You smile
You laugh
You cry for your pain
Tears for the loss of something never owned
The ghost has never been seen again

The way of the good

Without the words of Gods

The design of existence

Without the creation of lies

The prosperity of our race

Void of any divine distinction

To achieve without wealth

To avoid an early extinction

To have and to hold

Without the loss

Confused by the creativity
Submersed in its beauty
Choking on its inability
To simply slow, maybe freeze
The words maybe then
Could flow with ease
The reason would have  meaning
It wouldn’t feel like I was screaming
Drowning in the dire
Consumed by my fire

The rapids of the rain forest cut rigid streams into a rapidly receeding recollection
Acid burns as the wheel turns
A slow ebb of translucent trigonometry triggers the incomprehension
It wouldn’t feel like yesterday if tomorrow had gone so well
And if only today had a story to tell
Then the writing on the wall
Would not speak of a down fall

The words they merge
The ideas they purge
The mind you cleanse
Through this shattered lens
And as the end does begin
So my words shall be my sin

Spread like wild fire
Scorching the land
An unstoppable force
On an unpredictable course
Into the soil
Into the ground we walk
Unpredictable with its saturation
Around the globe unto every nation
The water we drink
The food we eat
Infected now with some obscure disease
Bringing the world and it's power
To it's begging knees
No pain and suffering
No rash no fever
Just dizzy spells and blurred vision
As the citizens of earth
Endure this transition
Away from the solace of their solitude
Away from the modern mayhem and its debilitating attitude
Into a no mans land
A land of peace , of an intolerance towards
Anymore of intolerable rewards
Shrouded in no mystery
A life like no mythology
The power of unity
Void of vanity
Peace love freedom for all
It's in the air we breathe
It's natures call

It is true that we all have an identity and it is true that it has been with us since birth,
It is also true to say that we as certain and specific individuals have chosen to ignore disregard and change our supposed identity in exchange for one that is perhaps only coherent to them and their thoughts
It's a “ chicken and egg” argument, what came first , the body or the mind?
Did consciousness slowly evolve as it was gently dipped or violently thrown into an abandoned society, or was a new-born childs greatest gift an unseen preordained fabrication of it's own existence

The world around, this is the mind at large
So how can you be judge and jury
When you're fostering an identity
Of which you are not in charge
To be what you desire
Is the answer for one
But to be what you are
Is the answer for all
And if it is a battle
Between body and mind you are torn
Then the simplicity
Is not an irrational irregularity
It's the power of reason to understand
That the mind of constraints came after
The physical was born
It is the eyes that see
And a mind that you follow blindly
Knowledge at birth
Wisdom with age

We don't talk
We won't talk
Problems grew
Far beyond me and you
The silence it calms
No reason
To take to arms

We accept the reasons why
Side by side
We walk on by
I don't speak your name
Mine is never heard
No emotions to exchange
All feelings now
Go way beyond blurred

I saw an old figure
Hunched,  but familiar
Whispering words
Words of regret
How time so quickly
Does seem to pass
Drinking from an empty glass

In a broken mirror
I can see
The person I blame
The person who won't talk to me
Fractured memories
Of a splintered past
A heart forged from stone
A heart that shall forever last

Big wheel turning
What are we  learning
The world is changing
Our thoughts we are exchanging
In their place, fear, paranoia, intolerance
A world surrounds us, full of incompetence
Travel to experience, to inhale the sufferance
Paying more attention now to your own irrelevance
Your life, is it really yours
No rest till you finish your chores
Subscribe at will to the daily wars
Suffer some more under restrictive laws
Technology the new master of destruction
Subliminal and seemingly effective its intoxicating instruction
Individuality now a global condemnation
Conformity comes hand in hand with your confirmation
On the path of least resistance  the powers that command reside
Their piety pains me from the inside
Fragmented and scarred beyond recognition, the human race now runs to hide
Taxes paid and the message relayed, to so many , the truth is denied,

9th Feb 2016

So random yet
So precise
Just a device
A means to an end
No way to amend
Our lives in freeze frame
So take the blame
Live no longer in shame
Take responsibility
The burden you carry
Will one day
Set you free
Spare you from
This monstrosity
This global atrocity
Stand out from the crowd
Step away from the masses
Take part no more
In social and cultural clashes
And on the collapse
Sit back and relax
Watch the righteous despots
Fall crying and screaming
No mercy, no pity
Just a lifetime spent
Wasting and dreaming

Defend your honour
Your means to an end,
From the inglorious to ecstasy
You shall transcend,
Fall apart and dream a dream
Fall far from
The swollen stream,
Take light
Take dark
Take infatuation,
Live hard
Live fast
And seek no inexplicable
Explanation,
The fire in your soul
The mindlessness of your mind,
Let them not battle
Let them not
Render you blind,
Your path
Your choice
Your reason
Your voice,
Let no others
Put you asunder
Let the world hear
Your crack of thunder

I've drifted far
Dug a deep scar
Flanked in treason
No rhyme , no reason
My name a blur
My speech a slur
The foundations tremble
The demons assemble
I am lost
I am free
I am lost
and the devil is in me
Naked
Impaled
No fear to fall
Awake
Aware
As nature did call

Personality
Requires
Opinions
From
Open
Undulating
Neolithic
Dreams

Outside
Bewilderment
Never
Opp­ress
X-rays
Insist
Opposites
Unwillingly
Surrender

Eventually
Co­mets
Collide
Everywhere
Near
Total
Reason
Ideas
Converge

Momenta­rily
*******
Stimulates
Memories
Evolution
Rapes
Insanity
Social
Ideas
Negate
Gravity

Satisfaction
And
Yes
Indignation
Narcissistic
Grotesque
Sublime

Your safety deposit boxes,
We shall hunt them with foxes
Tear them apart seam from seam
Weld from weld
Only for so long
Could your riches be held

Like the pariah that you are
You have left a great scar
Only to be healed
By chasing your worthless **** for hours across a muddy field
And when you come to an untimely end and go off to meet your maker
The only great thing you will be remembered for
Is how you were such a great taker

No balance
No sanity
Your ways and means
The greatest profanity
Yes we need money
And no there is no problem with wealth
But are we always to measure prosperity
Against another's poor health

you never knew that you helped me to breathe
you never knew the day you decided to leave
that I lost a piece of me.
we spoke, it was nice,
it was a bit too late,
your life and your thoughts
you would always complicate
you never knew the importance of who you were
you lost your way,
lost the love of your children
and eventually lost the will to exist
you never knew my kids,
but then you never really knew your own
it hurts to think
you never really knew how I cried,
how I felt so alone
you were never there
you never offered guidance or some words to help see clear through the crazy days
you certainly knew though that your gift of nothing became the greatest gift received
I loved you
I told you
soon after, you died
but not before I felt your pain, and sat with you as you cried

Simplicity
With intricate infinity
To pass with ease
Have no other to please
No need to worship
Pray for a forgotten forgiveness
Live a life on the edge
Live a life of stress

Just easy smooth seriously sublime
Peace and harmony in perfect time
No desire to burn
The wheels that turn
Just divert go around and ignore
The Ideals and beliefs of before
The way of life aimed at human tragedy ******* and oppression
People high on fantasy
Low in depression

I breathe as a free spirit
A wind that flows
A soul that grows
Free from the surreal
The jaded jewel
Free and forever nobody’s tool
Just here for the power of independence
And not to pay your imposed penance

So glorious is life
when riding the crest
How miserable though
when it is all you detest

Calm and self-satisfied
when all is at ease
But so low and degenerated
when nothing seems to please

Sometimes strong
positively untouchable
Other days weak
undeniably fragile

You can spend your time
high with the birds
And then crash to the ground
because of some thoughtless words

Optimism constructs hope
out of misery
Helps to soothe
the mental brutality

The fate of the pessimistic
malfunction in rejection
Peaks and troughs
life's great reflection

It is catastrophic
It is unbelievably catatonic
And I truly am
The eternal sceptic
With the ability to create
We destroy and deploy
An instruction to humanity
That the life you live
The very air you breathe
Forgotten is our existence
If we don't embrace the love of life
This very instance

I am sick of the false prosperity
Built upon the negligence
The indoctrinated desire to believe
That gold oil and diamonds
Were all that was needed
To disarm and deceive
Bring nations to their knees
As the perpetrators of the pain
Do as they so please

Amidst the quagmire of imagination
Our neighbours we become
With great intellect
We choose not to dissolve or dissect
We strive instead for popularity
And breed openly, familiarity
As identical as a twin
You can fit in , never stand out
Is this what the human race is really all about

We are controlled, and into this system
We willingly enrolled
We sit by and watch the greed takeover
We do nothing but work and pay a hefty tax
Just to provide the justification for our leaders
To bring upon this planet their unlawful attacks
Where there is war there is pain
And when it's all over someone's pocket feels the gain
We march we protest
But in our futures we seem to not invest
As sheep we follow
To escape our lives so hollow
So forget the symbolism , the brain washing autocracy that rules with nothing short of an atrocity
It is so hard, to ignore and discard
So easy though, to accept and go with the flow
The choice it does remain
The choice of ignorance and the insane
Or a desire to walk a forgotten lane

Anxiety
Becomes
Contagious,
Depression
Evokes
Familiarity,
Good
H­as
Induced
Juxtaposition
Killing
Livid
Memories,
Nonchalance
Obse­ssively
Portrays
Queer
Rationalities
Surrendering
The
Utmost
Vali­ant
Ways,
Xenophobic
Yellow
Zebras

Tough
On
Reality
Today
Unless
Reason
Emulates
Deception.,
Somewhe­re
Obtuse
Understandings
Lay
Silent
Whilst
Intricate
Lies
Legally
Nullify
Originality.,
Transcendence
Beckons.,
Religion
Evolves
Against
Knowledge

All Aliens Assassinated
Because Belief Beckons
Can Charity Clarify
Drifting Dimensions Dictate
Evangelics Evaluate Emotions
Fantastic Frantic Fables
Grotesque Gratification Gargles
Heroes Help Hypocrites
Ideals Inside Insanity
Juggling Jesters Juxtapose
Kremlin Kills Kermit
Lennon Lost Liberty
Malice Marauders Meaninglessly
Nature Never Neglects Necessity
Only Oppose Oscillating Opinions
Passion Perverts Purpose
Quiet Questions Quelled
Restrictive Realities Reincarnated
Segregation Saturates Society
Tomorrow Trades Today’s Treason
Understanding Us Unites Us
Valors Victories Vanquished
Which War Was Wanted
Xenophobic ******* X-rays
Yes Yesterday Yearns
Zealous Zealots Zeniths

Today shall be how yesterday was
Tomorrow will be much the same
And every day shall be as history is played
Until the decision is made
To try another game

I see no difference
More a change in preference
The reasons for and the reasons against
Now just a point of reference
The power never shifts
And the balance never tilts

There are no secrets
No great conspiracies
The truth is out there
It's written in manifestos and policies
Entrenched into the laws
To which we abide
And helping the aggressors,
The instigators of our realities
To run far and hide

The eternal
The infernal
The dictator
The navigator
Bare faced and brazen
In the fields you work
Unlawfully grazing

What can we do
When all the time
Old becomes new
A life on repeat
In constant retreat
With no holds barred
And battled scarred
Take note, take heed
I will not bow down
And accept defeat

We all know it's all for nothing
That is why the most of us try to make something
Let morals command
Let responsibility reprimand
Let the games begin
Your truth is
Another's sin

Leave a mark behind
Run naked and screaming
Joyfully blind
Sober as a straight line
High as a kite
Willing to take the punishment
Ready to stand and fight

In love with pain
In love till you're insane
In love with yourself
Selfless with your wealth
Drowning when swimming
Losing when winning
Laughing joking
Drinking smoking
The experience the enlightenment
The necessity of nature
And a stress free environment

I am a memory made
I love this life
And the games I've played
Something from nothing
A life from the beginning
To a beautiful demise

The impatience of my patience
Impetuous instinct inspires the insipid, the dream of no colour
Intolerable ideas of individuality
Now defined in the shattered reflection of a frivolous fantasy
Just before
You take so much more
The benevolence of existence
Distracts us from the instance
And if it all ends
If all signs of hope are extinguished
Then all morality is relinquished
I shall not suffer, run for cover
I will not bow down to the knees of any other
I am resurrection , I am now free

The introvert
Emulates the desires
Of the extrovert
An inward vision of a life self contained
Played out on the fields
Of the self confessed social terrorist
Look at me
Look at what I can do
My clothes my attitude
They are just like you
I must be known
For all that is so nonchalantly grown
Leave me be
Leave me here all alone

I have an idea
It fills some with fear
I strive , I toil
I never give in
To be so proud
And never need
To broadcast my life so loud
To take no photos and write no text
Frightening I know
That a total immersion into
A world of a different version
Does not compute
Does not resonate across the masses
It's where we should be, full of life and free
Not chained to an image of constant correction
Fighting each and every
Introverted imperfection

It is true that we all have an identity and it is true that it has been with us since birth,
It is also true to say that we as certain and specific individuals have chosen to ignore disregard and change our supposed identity in exchange for one that is perhaps only coherent to them and their thoughts
It's a “ chicken and egg” argument, what came first , the body or the mind?
Did consciousness slowly evolve as it was gently dipped or violently thrown into an abandoned society, or was a new-born childs greatest gift an unseen preordained fabrication of it's own existence

The world around, this is the mind at large
So how can you be judge and jury
When you're fostering an identity
Of which you are not in charge
To be what you desire
Is the answer for one
But to be what you are
Is the answer for all
And if it is a battle
Between body and mind you are torn
Then the simplicity
Is not an irrational irregularity
It's the power of reason to understand
That the mind of constraints came after
The physical was born
It is the eyes that see
And a mind that you follow blindly
Knowledge at birth
Wisdom with age

Our world, is in a horrendous state of repair
Problem is
There's not enough people
Who truly care
We can't just move to the 4th rock from the sun
We can't just tax the world and pray that the problems are simply undone
Our resources might just be on reserve
And we have the intelligence to preserve
So is it the gluttonous retention of wealth that handcuffs us to a stalemate
Or our misguided judgements of the hysterical hypocrisy hemmed into a society that deems a healthy environment less important than who is next to dishonour as they dictate
It shall be cataclysmic
Our efforts to avoid and avert?
Quite honestly,, pathetic,
Our self worth
This is reflected
On our treatment of earth
Down here, we are trying
To nurture nature as she sits crying
Up there aloft, where the orders command and the pockets demand
They are flying
As we perish from existence
As we struggle to even stay alive
As we prepare for Armageddon
Our dooms day procession
Feel rest assured
If our intolerance towards change isn't cured
Then it is only the planet that shall survive
Our prosperity
Can never be exchanged for our integrity
Let the glory of our existence
Be the definition of  our humanity

In the blood red stream
A despots dream
Devious the scheme
Those of the loudest scream
Is it a master plan
Our wealth they scan
Intricate initiatives secretly span
No freedom no voice , for the common man
Desperate we devise our escape routes
Up your spine though, conformity shoots
The anguish of our ancestors reboots
Indignity marches on as every worker commutes
If hindsight, in reality, was your first sight
And you lived always knowing that your history would not be your plight
Would you follow signs and stop at every red light
You could always just stand and fight
No violence no guns no petty war
Just a shift in balance a settling of the score
The dreams of demons of liars and cheats??
Well,
We shouldn't have to live them anymore,

A battle rages
This war of attrition
The mind shall not wither
And these old bones
Well they’ll just keep on going

It’s been 50 years
No winner no loser
Just the constant,  relentless
Indecision
Aimed with precision

It shall not end
Dug deep into foundations
No explanations
My burden my curse
My introduction

Madness depression
Just a spiritual recession
The good times don’t linger
The bad times leave their stench
Emotions cold like the butchers bench

And so it goes
Nobody knows
Just smile and wave
Live with your afflictions
Maybe your addictions
Only so few will truly care
An expansive existence
Wrapped tight in resistance
Then into the ether
The ambitious air of solitude

I see demons
I see death,
I see destruction,
My own demise
My own release
This is why
I cannot see peace

Tortured from days of young
An incarceration
A burden to wear
Private words in private thoughts
And the reason for all the unforgiving ways

You have yours
And I certainly have mine
1000mph
The trajectory never a tangent
But multiple and critical
Fuelling the cynical
Shameful, sorrowful, despondent , diseased

Once or twice
I actually spoke
The response
The valued diagnosis
A joke
No words to inhale
Just sit listen and choke

So my rugged path
Wayward and distressed
Has brought it's own fortunes
And not always impressed
I ask for nothing but the same
To be accepted and shoulder no blame

You don’t need mine
Nor I yours
The messages we'd send
Of such labour and chores
Accept the difference
And take no sides
Home alone
Is where the fear hides

In the blink of an eye
The story told a lie
Deceit was an angel
Love had its flaws
To be hurt
Whilst the joy of serenity
Washes hardened skin
To suffer at the hands
Of your saviour
As you grew
It seemed you already knew
But then fate with its twist
Brought the demons
And you failed to resist
Diseased from the day of birth
That day you climbed high
Waving a flag
Now you are silent
Darkened and alone
With nothing to brag
The truth has no lies
From this anarchy
There now is animosity
And i refuse to live a life
That I need to despise
As the day breaks
And my soul awakes
The angel of deceit disperses
And my love again, is raptures and verses

The dream has expired
For the boss has been fired
From their aspirations
You built your own inspirations
And as they crash, burn and fade
You sit watch and realize,
The dream was one that someone else had made
They say dreaming is for fools
One of life’s survival tools
As the strain takes hold
As life suffocates the ambitions you hold
You walk into the storm
Forgetting all you have learnt and been told
Walk a path of your own footsteps
Dream if you shall
But make it real
The essence of life
Should be the positive you feel
Bring joy to yourself
For it is here you have the strength to give joy to others
Love respect and feed your soul
This is the place where the love of life is made
And your turn at being supreme is being played
Live to love,
And just love to live
There truly is no better gift
That we can give