From where my body understands
that youth has told me goodbye.
A few steps more......
and I am starting to think
my life still contains
little pieces of a beginning
that will never die.

Betrayal, fills in the blanks
when I try to hold back
from singing the melody.....
of my heart.
When I'm looking for that someone
who is able to run
through my forest
written in.........
as my other part.

In all this waiting for love,
my youth.......has become
a memory.....
protected..........by no sword or shield.
I cannot find favor on any day
that I spend counting leaves on trees....
that stand........
in quietly, fading fields.

I can no longer stand in secret
knowing my youth
lies on its back, pleading.......
to be young, once again.
While I breathe in the footsteps........
of a long lost smile......
weaved around a love
I keep waiting..........
to begin.

I brought you a broken heart
You returned it healed
I showed you senses that were numb
You made me feel

Distrust I showed
Your net you spread and shared
And when I leaped I found you there

I have shown you true
You have shown me real
I love you more than a heart should feel

The game of Hearts one may play
Thinking they will win
Yet all the cards they throw down
Stand back up again

The cards they shift round and round
All about the table
Winner takes all you hear said
The players they enable

The lowest card could never win
One would have to think
So they smile and throw one down
Never even blink

This game of Hearts is not one
That makes a bit of sense
As you find what you threw down
Was your best defense

What you may think to be the least
Is worth more than the rest
The game of Hearts you will lose
As often it’s the best

Go close the door and shut the gate
There’s no more to reveal
What’s been seen and said before
I no longer feel

That which was felt so strong
As if meant to be
No longer pours into the flow
Of everything I see

That which should flow so naturally
Now does not flow at all
And I can’t express what I don’t feel
Even up against the wall

So close the door and shut the gate
The flow has disappeared
When you take and don’t give back
You'll find there's nothing here

I looked out from a heart that hoped and saw a precious jewel
Unafraid of my gleaming leaves or the way I speak
With a heart unselfish and never cruel
Shining as in a dream
A light to seek

The air sprouted new leaves as time and space stood still
Touching these gleaming leaves of my own
What a heavenly gesture I could feel
Radiating from this jewel
Unbeknown

Clearly, in my sight, my pulse quickened at the view
As these leaves kissed my gleaming green
Such treasure I found in a jewel
When I looked out in hope
Unforeseen

Never again will I see my world the same as before
Because I saw a precious jewel
With air my leaves adore
A heart unselfish
Never cruel

Silver and gold mean nothing to a red rose petal.
It would never speed down a rippling stream seeking treasure.
So why do you whisper like the devil with his hat in his hand to me
When tranquility is all that I need.

There is no sign that says “For Rent” on my heart.
I have no need for a cluster of jewels when my evening ends.
Happy I will be twisting and turning in a blanket of leaves.
Take with you all your glittering whispers, I am full to the brim.

Within my soul, I hold great treasure. My feet are firmly planted.
All I have need for is the love that shines in my stars.
Silver and gold mean nothing to a red rose petal.
Go away, you cannot ever barter with me for my heart.

When all is still the sun is my gold and the stars are my silver.
My treasure is the tranquility I hold deep within my soul.
There is no sign that says “For Rent” on my heart.
Put your hat back on my friend, and be gone.

With a golden dish in my right hand
I came to get my fill
Of honeysuckle pleasures
On hidden vines
There waiting for my tender touch
Sweetness I did find
Under the marble steps
Of my will

That old cunning devil flew right by me
My conscious saw him first
A shift of black
Lifting up in airy flight
Yet still I sought out my reward
Though his face I could see
My dish, would be filled
That night

I thought of waiting for my pleasure
Then in a lullaby I rehearsed
I convinced myself to reach out anyway
As I came to get my fill
Of all those hidden treasures
So I sang my song
And put my conscious
In reverse

With a golden dish in my right hand
A shift of black in my heart
I partook of those honeysuckle pleasures
Yet no sweetness did I find
In those hidden vines
When from my own will
I did depart

There are many wondrous days
When I feel you by my side
With your protection and your presence
My every step you lead and guide

Yet some are so very barren
And my spirit feels completely dry
I can’t feel you near me and I’m thirsty
And I keep asking why

At times I can’t help but wonder
If anything is planned
I keep asking where you are
And trying to understand

On these days so gray and cloudy
I find it’s best to just be still
Quietly listen for your answer
It comes and always will

When you found pleasure
walking on the bridge of night
you did not breathe in the eyes that cried.  
You gave your heart to the dreams of midnight
all for the want of sighs.

You lived beside the cause of never
in a garden beautiful as the reasons why.
I never mentioned the winds of all your years,
always trusting,
one day you would fly.

You searched for sleep
by haunting ways that no tear
first had been. Time passed
left you singing an endless song
of dreams of midnight on the bridge again.

Your world had no time
where rain fell in crystal showers.
So in vain you burned to become part
of the skies that whispered words of honey
into your every hour.

When you found pleasure
walking on the bridge of night
you found the hand of sorrow.
You gave your heart to the dreams of midnight
while the eyes that cried,
found your tomorrow.

True friends can help us seek inside our souls
For that which is true
Retrace our steps looking into burning coals
Of blazing fires, we left a smoldering
When life went all-askew

They help us see beyond our looking glass
Under places where we hide
Deep scars and wounds of days gone past
From all those bitter tears
That never dried

A true friend can help us see a side of us
We may not wish to see
While holding our hand in gentle trust
Even when
We don’t agree

The truest friend is the one who appears
To help put those fires out cold
Binds your wounds and dries your tears
While holding the hand
Of your soul

I see your heartbeat in every man
and I can hear your mind
even though you hide
behind the sun.
You disappear
into places of mystery    
where you survive
inside your fun.

You see yourself
as the lost make believe
and leave no room for reality
to ever be the same.
All those bridges you are burning
have you drowning
inside of your
own shame.

You want to vanish
into a spiraling truth
and be heard
by your feelings
while reaching out.  
There is no such thing as honor
when sitting on a velvet seat
where you only shout.

Your tears will soon pass
when you think
of the anticipation
of the dreams you had
in your cradle.  
Harmony breathes in a quiet breath
lasts forever
if it is able.

I heard the rushing wind in the calmest air
Loudly whispering
Unemotional words spoken through many tears
Flying freely
With no wings

The present time became bygone
Dedicatedly detached
A light of darkness lit up bright shadows
Well suited
In mismatch

Opposing allies fought for hostile peace
Calling light the same
Agitation dwelled in tranquility
All their calmness
Spoke disclaim

Harmony was found within a tempest
Coordinated discord
The rushing wind screamed out quietly
Time as they knew it
Was no more

When warm I love you’s join affection
our souls
cannot seem to say
it is time to go.
I can see
no journey’s end
that will ever prove to me
that forever
could ever think
of leaving this love
we stand by.

I hold on tight to your soul
even after
we say goodnight.
Inside my mind, I see visions
looking back at caresses
from your hands
and no door is closed
In my heart
containing any words written
you have not read.

Sometimes life feels like a river
flowing into the dawn
reaching beyond
any love song of passion
clinging to the clouds
I am in.
However, thoughts of you
sail me higher
and higher
into beautiful colors
again.

I am left breathless when I see your hands
moving within the realms
of a thousand
I love you’s
yet to be said.
I can see no journey’s end
to this forever
I feel,
as one by one
they are heard on my skin.

I’m breaking free of all these chains
That bind this heart of mine
I’ll be running free to find myself
And my peace of mind

A heart that’s wild runs inside of me
A spirit that is free
All these chains around me now
For long they will not be

All the inhibitions that hold me back
From who I want to be
Take your flight from me now
So I’ll be free to speak

I feel them slipping from my heart
Quickly see them go
Listen as I speak my mind
My words so freely flow

Echoes fall like raindrops on leaves of lonesome trees
Whispering to the heartless
Come and listen and you will hear their sound
Calling softly
To the darkness

A rustling in the underbrush stirs an unknown need
Curiosity feeds upon the now
The crescent moon is waiting for eyes yet to see
Wondrous visions
He will soon endow

Wheels begin to turn in the mind of the present
Defying the light and the sound
Though their ears hear the echoes, still is the absence
Of the hearts recognition
Of the found

The time had come to renew the morning mist and clinging ivy
As the shimmering stars were quickly forced away
In sweet displays, I saw before me
The dawning of a brand new day

I stopped and took a look, under the great unknown
Thinking I would be pleased at the sight
Waited on the darkest song
Many call our night

A distant swaying caught my eye, I think a friend of fate
With a heart of fire, waving there at me
Smiling as if he knew, I would be too late
To ever stop, what is and was to be

I turned my gaze from the great unknown awhile
Felt the morning mist upon my face
Watched the ivy cling to the heart of fire and smile
Knowing day had taken place

How quickly we forget, exactly how it feels
To be the one, with nothing at all
So amazing, how fast, those memories steal
From a heart, which no longer crawls

When one knows of the emptiness
Has lived out the shame
How can they not recall being penniless
When mercy calls out their name

If you are the one who is crawling right now
Hold this time, close, in your heart
So you never forget, when you are better endowed
The shame which it can impart

When you are no longer crawling, stand up tall
Keep compassion instilled in your heart
So those memories will never steal away at all
From mercy, you will never part

Capricious waves push at my hands, show how much you mean to me
Do you remember how we used to play instead of talk
I would dress for my day while you stood with your back turned
Considering if you should go ahead and celebrate the details
Of a few minutes drawn in chalk

Our eyes look down the road at the reasons we have to be grateful
Looking at skid marks left in place from better times
While a wisp of smoke considers those heels I wore for you
That tore down the walls in our bedroom many nights
As the memories filled your mind

Just a little air to breathe was all we needed inside of this our warmth
So we would be able to feel the joy of love without labels
You stepped back and so did I to sip from the glass of our glow
Because we thought routine had taken all control
Leaving nothing on our table

I find I cannot breathe the air and this drink has lost its glow
Have you forgotten how we used to play
Where is that wisp of smoke that remembers me in heels
That tore down the walls in our bedroom
As we undressed our day

He tunes the bonds which hang on the mirror of the sea
Revealing deep meanings in the vaguest air
She likes to speak of him to me
When her day catches fire
And loses flair

She tells me of the good things he makes her feel
When he tunes the bonds up and down
Yet she wonders what is real
And if that mirror
Makes her world go round

Perfect joy she says he has shown her now
Seems that her cup runneth over
Yet as serenity takes a bow
Those deep meanings
Fail to hold her

She likes to speak of him to me on her cloudy days
I look through her eyes and see the truth
She tunes the bonds in her own way
And when her day catches fire
He becomes her excuse

Hidden between what you can see
And what is really there
Are all of the things you look for
Don’t you wonder where

In between the lines of deceit
There hidden lies the truth
It’s staring at you big as life
Right in front of you

Swept right under the carpet of life
Many things are hidden
But do you dare to lift it up
It is not forbidden

What you find when you do
Just might enlighten your soul
Pick it up and take a look
It could make you whole

Lightning strikes and shifts high above our never.
Time flows like a river standing out in delight.  
There is more power within ideas
pressing against the throat of morning;
filling your life’s cup with wonder,
than when dusk stands alone
dressed only
in feathered flight.

You cannot pry open the fingers of flight
make them advance any higher
even if you want to know
about time that’s passed.
Twisting and turning you will begin falling,
until what you want to be
sweeps across this land.  
Take my hand
perhaps we will learn
the truth at last.

Last night you looked better
than the first time I met you.
All the while familiar feelings
sank into our sleep.
Madness streams into a waterfall of self,
full of imperfection.
Where comfort causes passion
to stretch tenderly
into each word you kiss,
when our talk
runs ever deep.

All the tears that fall between rocks
surrounding your loneliness
want you to try hard
feel nothing at all.
They glisten as they attempt to become
lost inside your stubborn heart.
Forever tells me these tears
will continue as trails on faces,
and be heard as thunder
when they fall.

I could feel you late last night
Knew that you were there
Watching with your empty eyes
As at the light you stared

I felt you reaching out your hand
To touch that of which you hate
And  I sighed at your attempt
To appease a hunger you can’t sate

Knowing that which you obsess to own
To shatter and defile
Is protected by a hedge of love
That reaches boundless miles

This hedge is my fortress
It burns bright with mighty fire
And each time you try and touch it
I watch the flames burn higher

My mind is circling round my heart
Asking what is true
Does my heart safely abide
In all of this I do

Emotions running up and down
Heart beats fast then slow
And right when I think I'm there
I'm not sure which way to go

Loving and being loved
Such lovely words and feelings
But I'm still standing on the edge
Of accepting all this healing

Trust and all that it may be
Has never been a friend of mine
Each time I have gotten close to him
A way to break my heart he finds

Once more I'll put my heart out on a limb
And I'll be strong and bold
Trust I'll once more make my friend
And pray this limb will hold

It often makes me angry
When life doesn't turn out like I think it should
And I feel so much resentment
This doesn't do me any good

It pains me when I don't get to do the things
That I wanted to
Because something else was put in my path
That I was led to do

It is hard to just move on and get over it
And know that this too will end
Not let it turn into so much bitterness
And all my emotions offend

It would be so easy to just be angry at the world
I could probably justify it in many ways
But I see that holding anger in my heart
Will only take all the love and light
In this life of mine away

Each time I come here to this place
To face this world again
A hush falls across my own
And darkness it sets in

I have left all my peace of mind
Everything I've ever known
To be here in a place
Where I know I don't belong

What began as just a test of me
A life lesson to be learned
Some humility to bestow
My spirit now it burns

Some kind of prisoner I've become
Held by unseen chains
With all means to escape
Calling out my name

Will I heed this call I hear
And throw open freedom's gate
Run for all I'm worth
Or wait 'til it's too late

Tired of all the wasted days
All the wasted years
So tired of running backwards
How time disappears

Sick of being sick and tired
Tired of being sad
I decided that only I could change it
Be happy with what I had

Tired of feeling lost
Always seeking home
I took a good look at myself
And how far I've roamed

I've never put down roots
Or clung to anything
Never stayed in one place for long
Afraid they'd clip my wings

It's no wonder I feel I don't belong
Anywhere I roam
I've never stayed there long enough
To call any place my home

Mirror, Mirror upon my wall
What is this far off land I see
When I look into your lovely glass
It calls out my name and beckons me

Is this my home from another place and time
That I yearn for in my heart of hearts
Bringing memories back to me
From which I cannot part

I think I will step inside you for just a bit
And travel back in time
To see if this place I think is home
Is only in my mind

Do not come to me with your messages
Of honey laced with lies
Singing hallelujah from your wreckage
Spinning spite
With upturned eyes

I see your hands are folded there
In prayerful solitude
Yet your actions speak that you don’t care
When you think no ones
Watching you

You speak to me of compassion dear
Mercy which you hold
However those words are just words I fear
Moving lips
From eyes so cold

If you have come here to save my soul
With honey laced with lies
Then I prefer not to enroll
In any lessons
You can provide

Carry me into the dream you had last night
Where we were as strong as trees
Fill my imagination with little jars of honey
We charmed from the hives
Of bees

Stand up in the sea that holds all wisdom
Commit my face to memory
Sail with me until we are of one mind
Across the lines where you start
I’ll be

You will become the man I will never forget
The seed in my heart that grows
We will set fire to the wind and waters
Until eternity separates our lips
In woe

Promise me if we wake from your dream
I will hear your voice in my ear
Your name will leave the taste of honey
On the lips of my imagination
My Dear

To find the strength I need to see
I look to you constantly
To stand up tall and straight and true
My eyes  will always look to you

I shall not forget where my hope lies
Or who is ever by my side
No matter what my day may bring
To this hope I’ll always cling

Your comfort I know you will provide
Such a peace I'll feel inside
I need only  look to what is true
That which I have found in you

No matter what in life may go wrong
My heart will ever sing this song
Your sun shines throughout the rain
Lighting the path where my hope remains