When you no longer see the face;
No longer see a form;
When you see just her essence;
The beauty within the outline,
This is when you transcend
From the lust to the joy
Of loving her,
For her very being;
For her existence,
That which she brings
To you in heaps
And bunches
Of unfurled light,
From the recesses
Of your mind
You seek the inner her
The hidden gem that is
Found beneath the unpolished
Jewel that is her glowing soul
You just sit back and look
At this beautiful energy
Brimming within,
That makes you smile
Without so much
As a tap of glee;
Beside her she sets you free...
© okpoet

I'm burning through rainbows,
Dreaming on the wind; wishing on stars;
Can't get away from behind these bars
In my heart in my head no one knows,
The avenues I come across;
The boulevards I run through
Do I go left; do I go right?
The choices in the air I toss
The fog is clouding my view
And soon the light is fading into night;
You were once my global positioning system,
Guiding me at all hours;
But I failed to renew my subscription,
And now I'm left out in the dark
A helpless lost victim
Crawling on all fours
I hope this is just fiction
But in the distance I hear a bark
Lonesome and scared
I can't believe I dared
To doubt you
But now I'm due
For an awakening
To think is frightening
But I'm here lost
And it's winters frost
That will chill me cold
This will break me I will fold
But I don't know if I will find
The way out of my psychotic mind...
© okpoet

She's his bubsy;
Pause and watch this love's seed
Grow; beanstalk to the sky
Don't ask how; don't ask why,
Just let this magic be
As true as unicorns you will see,
There's one in a million
But she's one up in a trillion,
Mario's got his princess after all,
Jumped through hoop after hoop and pitfall,
But she's summer
Come after the spring,
Waited for the leaves to cover
The yellowed grass and now sing,
Sing loud and sing clear
Without a doubt or fear,
Water the ground  
And nourish with the sound,
These two hearts beating
All their past sorrows deleting,
Start of a new chapter
Happier than an ever after...
© okpoet

I prompt thee
To see
The television
Prompter,
Yelling at me
In caps lock,
Buy one  
Get one
Free,
But wait,
Call now,
Static intermission,
Interrupting
The human
Condition,
Prompt
DOS;
Black and white
Flicker,
Press ESC
To exit,
Life...
© okpoet

She is all kinds;
Of stunning,
Exquisite intrigue;
Sultry crude substance,
She is bequeathed of delicate allure;
She is,
Raw beauty;
Unpolished titillating elegance,
Unfettered natural charm;
She is provocation,
Captivating distraction;
Deviation of one's resolve,
Without so much as a casual glance;
Riveting seduction,
A Mona Lisa of subtle sweet temptation;
Yet unpolished,
She shimmers and radiates through the haze;
Unlike fool's gold she is genuine tangible truth,
A magic act of unquestionable splendor;
Waiting lurking smoldering essence,
She is --
Rapture divine; beyond words...
© okpoet

If we were advised
Our lives would be televised,
How would we be?
Would we be worthy to see?
Would we ourselves
Want to watch?
Flip through the channels
Every single one of us
In high definition
Being human,
Would it be
A horrible reality?
Or would we be entertained
By the insurmountable variety?
Stalkers of the new generation
Greater than any YouTube sensation,
Natural born stars and entertainers
Shuttled into their spotlight; invisible containers
While the rest of us wonder
If we can laugh at every blunder,
Would emotions die
Or run rampant empathy
For a possible scripted lie?
This future I hope to never see...
APAD13 011 - © okpoet

Beauty in her possession;
Is a power no mortal or god can wield,
She demands obsession;
From her stare no one can shield,
As she takes and consumes man's soul;
With a touch proves his demise,
A whisper his death's toll;
A stare eclipsing the sunrise,
This power she bares to all;
Unbeknownst to her and yet,
From winter to fall;
From the morning until sunset
All those around her; prisoners become;
Subdued by her charms,
All are taken captive; spared are none,
No warning; no alarms;
This is her virtue,
Spilt forth from her smile;
And little is left to go through and sift,
Of this carnage seen mile after mile;
As she continues wielding her beauty,
Hypnotic; entrancing; a call of duty...
© okpoet

She played me like a fiddle
Tuned into my thoughts and dreams,
Read me like an open dictionary
Knew how to solve the riddle,
And so it seems;
She was nothing revolutionary,
Just another pretty face
Gone almost without a trace,
Leaving me in wondering
Sitting and pondering,
How will I ever solve this puzzle?
But I must return to my hustle,
What keeps me grounded
While all others are dumbfounded,
I keep my head clear
Undistracted unable to hear,
The melodious song of those sirens
Beautiful and enchanting; oh how it lightens,
The spirit and mind
Leading many astray,
Their purpose behind
And as they break though the fray,
They all crash and burn
For all this I refuse to take a turn...
© okpoet

In the light of early dawn she sat;
As no sleep could bring peace to her,
Restless mind; littered thoughts of that;
Which haunted her every moment after,
From minute to minute her nightmares;
Were her living hell and there by her side,
He knelt; held her hand and ignored the stares;
Of those all around who couldn't understand,
How he couldn't leave her side; they couldn't stand;
To see this outspoken love he wouldn't hide,
Even though she was broken sitting there;
Unable to love him back; but he didn't care,
Because his love was for that memory he held;
Deep within his heart and the promise he upheld,
His vow to her from the moment they met;
That he would always never this feeling forget,
What she meant to him the light she brought;
Made him stand again and how for her love he fought,
Because she was that purpose he had been missing;
All his life, and though he slowly lost her to her demons,
Past, he never would abandon this flower no longer blooming;
For within her lost mind he knew she remembered him and,
So he'd be there to welcome her no matter;
What the cost no regretting the coming latter,
Even if the toll of time would his bones turn to sand...
© okpoet

My throat is tied in a knot
While my mind unravels thought after thought,
My stomach is churning
While the tears flow my eyes burning,
What is this turbulence?
As to ponder I commence,
You're a part of me now;
But am I a part of you and how?
You lose sleep as I do;
But is it for the same reasons too?
Many a question I wish to ask
But to confront you I am not up to the task,
Because I wish not to care;
And yet question after question I do dare,
Entertain as to it's revelation;
It's part in our equation,
But what am I? if you are my epiphany
Enigma deep shrouded in mystery,
I was strong and independent
But of you I've become dependent,
But for a twinkle of your eyes
Is this beauty your disguise?
Are you my heart's thief? clever;
I was not to uncover your endeavor,
And now in feelings and mind I suffer
My work no longer my agony's buffer,
This is a vivid hell on earth;
As every moment away from you gives birth;
To another and another inquisitive doubt,
And this my judgement does clout;
As I fight not to give in,
But I want to dive; jump; propel myself into this sin,
Or is it not? this indulgence of you;
It cannot be nothing else, such pleasure I do
Crave; deep within every one of my synapses,
Time stands still just as it lapses;
After every encounter with you,
And all I can ask; is this voodoo?
How did it come to this?
You are my torture and my bliss...
© okpoet

Today was the day
I looked about and saw the sky;
The world, everything around me
In a whole new way.

It started just the same
As every other 24 hours
Another X on the calendar,
Just more time ticking gone and came.

But like day to night
I met you
So sudden and unexpected
It all went from black to white.

My stars had aligned
My toast stopped falling
Butter side down
An explanation I could not find.

How could I explain this
To any a passerby?
How my heart beat so;
This was to me God’s kiss.

I looked into your guise
I listened to your voice
I felt the very depths of your soul
I smelled and tasted salty tears from my eyes.

Time finally stopped its tick tock
I was no longer confined
To the march of life’s parade
I finally found someone with whom to walk.

Who knew living was
Loving,
I can exhale now; next to you
Life gave me a day to pause…
© okpoet

I want a swing
To sway between
The moon and the earth,
A hammock to lie
Between Canis
Major and minor,
Let me row a boat
One paddle
Through
The milky way,
Let me pedal
Across the galaxy
On a starship enterprise trike,
I want to race
A shooting star,
Whittle meteoroids
Into beautiful
Paper weights,
Surf the rings
Of Saturn,
And play
Laser tag amidst
All the space debris,
Let me be astronaut...

APAD13 010 - © okpoet

I realized,
There were not enough
Hours in the day;
On the one I met you,
On that fateful date
Time became
Sentient; aware; alive,
Became
The devil I cursed
When you were not around,
Drugged me when you were
So I couldn't savor every minute,
And when you were away
All the cuckoo birds
Sang their piercing
Tune; echoes of which
Lingered in my head,
Magnifying every plop
Of every grain of sand
From the hourglass,
Ticking little enemies
Marching in unison
Against the beating
Of my lonely heart...
APAD13 009 - © okpoet

I'll come for you
Whether light or dark,
Through snow & fire
Swift as light I'll come
To gather you,
Like daffodils in the field
Sweep you away
To a brighter world;
Where the grass is greener,
We can roam free
Unshackled by society
Feel no pain or sorrow
Build from our dreams
Create all that we desire,
Sleep and rise with the tide
Hand & hand whilst we sing,
Because these merry things
Smiles to our eyes will bring
And even if we have to cry,
We will do so together;
I'll come for you,
So we can be us forever...
© okpoet

You were the beginning
Of a story
I daydreamed,
You stepped out of my mind
And into reality,
One sided conversations
Were a thing of the past,
I grew fond of you
This reflection born
But no one saw you,
And the doubts set in;
Were you real at all?
Or had I just crossed the line
In my head; where facts
Were just as real as fiction,
This set you ablaze
And as the fires burned; they consumed
What little of you I knew,
And as you disappeared
A cloud of ashes
I knew you were;
The shortest chapter in my book...
© okpoet

I'll always remember this
Those times I'll always miss,
Moments frozen
Spent with awesome friends I've chosen,
These are the memories
That stand like trees
In my mind,
And when I want to unwind
I'll flip through my photo album
While I sip some coke and ***
Of those happy days
Framed by the sun's rays,
I'll recreate the laughs and smiles
While I glaze looking at the tiles
At my feet,
To think of you is so neat
I'll always be glad
For the great times we've had,
But knowing we've shared
Many a flashback; I'm scared
Of when I'll start to forget,
But at least I won't regret
Not a single thing I've done-
With you; I've had so much fun...
© okpoet

I'm lost without her smile
Wandering aimlessly,
She's derailed me
I was on a one track road,
My priorities straight ahead
Then she came along,
Blindsided, side swiped, T-*****
Me into the stratosphere,
She made me her orbit
Asteroids couldn't do worse,
Than her comet's impact
Into my world,
She took my air
The very breath from my lungs,
I am left gaping fish out the water
Swimming in the ocean deep,
All around me all is cold
No relief in sight,
Not even alcohol can do away
With her singed image in my brain,
I float as I sink
Every stray thought is her
She's cut me off at the knees,
Rendering me useless;
Do away with me like Old Yeller,
I no longer am alive; without her...
© okpoet

How can I keep it up?
Like how does it stay the sky?
Not Folgers in my cup
That's gravity doing the job like pie
Filling my tooth
See that DJ in his booth
Mixing on the fly
Like the coolest tie dye
Like him I chop chop
And blend never stop
This is the recipe
That will never be
Written down
As I flip upside your frown
There's a message
Hidden on the edge
Of every line
On which I dine
Take the bone
And make stew
This skill I hone
Is only enjoyed by a select few...
© okpoet

I lay here
Looking up at the sky,
I watch the planes touch down
And I await you earnestly,
Thinking of all the things
I want to say to you,
But I've said too much
Already the words flow,
As they touch the white
Of this paper,
They crash and stop;
Forever they will stay,
Permeated from my heart
Onto your memory,
As I imbibe this toxic slush
Awaiting relief,
I have no exit strategy
I run from you,
But I wish you were here
And I cannot suppress the emotions,
Running through this ink
As the poison seeps through my veins,
It runs it's course
But I haven't any synonyms,
To say other than;
I miss you,
The clichés running one after another
Into my pillow tears,
Pouring a waterfall of angst
Sorrow my bed
I've lost myself in this night,
Afraid to acknowledge
I don't want to forget you;
This is my pain; this is love...
© okpoet

It wants of drink
But it cannot quench it's thirst,
It wants of food
But no buffet can appease,
This heart's appetite
It's want for love cannot;
Be satiated by any external thing,
But love itself and it lies
Nonreciprocating
Bouncing back and forth
Against cold glass
In a mirrored room
Without a window to look out,
At the world so bright
Filled with this feeling
It's missing,
Holding out for that one
She of daydreams
Of fake memories,
Whom this heart pleaded
For on bent knee;
To many a shooting star...
© okpoet

And it comes
A moment in time,
You realize there is something
Deep hidden within you,
A dark strength
It can consume your soul
Drive you to the brink
Of euphoria
Toxic aphrodisiac,
This moment
It looks you in the eyes
Through those of an enemy,
Life in your hands
It's end; a simple slice; a shot away,
And you do
Without a pause,
Relieve this life of it's cross
See it's spirit escape into nothing,
You savor this feeling
Raw real and empowering,
As you feel the warmth of the blood;
Turn cold around you,
You know what you are;
A force to be reckoned with...
© okpoet

If falling hurts
Why do people fall in love?
Don't they know they're falling?
Falling; rushing into this pain,
Makes you dumb
Blind want to **** on your thumb
Pocket full of certs;
Want to fly like a dove,
You swear you hear them calling
Your name every minute; you feel lame
Pathetic even,
How you let yourself forget
It happened once before
And before that and more,
You think the memo you'll get
But you step over the edge anyways,
You've done it before
You'll do it again,
Bust your knee on that soft feeling
Warmth seeping through every pore,
You see them in a light so heavenly
Falling rocks in love is a good hurt...
© okpoet

She broke me;
I was whole,
Now I lay in pieces
My mind here
My heart there
My soul everywhere,
What can bring me together?
But she who scattered
My thoughts like roaches
In the light,
She; can make time tick again
My pulse beat once more,
Ground me
Lightning redirect
Make me re-awake
From this coma
Induced nightmare,
That is my yearning
For what isn't there,
Only she can glue me
Back together, Humpty Dumpty;
My heart an egg shell...
© okpoet

We're two Halley's comets collided;
Awesome burst created our own universe,
Together across this great expanse we traverse;
Finally real after all that we've pretended,
Not just dreamers; we take action
Seize the moment; never caught in inaction,
God made the stars; but we make them shine,
We've hooked the bait line after line
And now after weathering the storm
We're always catching the worm,
We've been shunned;
We've been gunned-
Down by the jealous and the lost;
Who know not their purpose only can accost-
Us wanting to know where we're headed,
And to think once we fretted dreaded
Their accusing eyes,
But they live only lies
Wanting our secrets; envy our success
Always wonder how we excel under duress,
But they'll never know how we trump-
All their expectations; how no speed bump-
Can slow us down; nothing can hold us,
In a magnificent clusterfuck they all lay
Debris caught trailing our orbit; all ruckus,
We're headed warp speed dead ahead; come what may...
© okpoet

Lovely writer;
Not I,
Lovely penman;
Is you,
Lovely are the words
Once written,
Lovely is the inspiration
Once flowing,
Lovely are the caged birds
Once freed.
Lovely is the imagination,
Once unleashed,
But all that is lovely,
Is not
Lovely at all,
Without
The observation
Of the observer,
The comment
Of the commenter,
The appreciation
To the author...
APAD13 008 - © okpoet

It takes
9 months
To be born,
But one
Blink
Of the eye
To die,
It takes two
To bring you
Into existence,
And just yourself
To take you out,
You are born
With at least one
Witness,
But you can die
Like a random bug,
Unnoticed
Or you can leave
A legacy behind,
A star upon
The boulevard,
A footprint
In history,
Take a step
Forward...
APAD13 007 - © okpoet

I found her again;
Not that she wanted to be,
Felt a stutter in my mind;
But my heart was anxious,
I held it in my hands;
Afraid what she would do with it,
But she didn't take it; Nor reject;
I saw walls and mirrors,
Every which way I approached;
I shattered mine to be vulnerable,
Yet hers grew taller;
Whatever life she leads,
I can't cross into;
So I'll continue on my way,
Leave a bookmark where it may;
I'll come back to her in fleeting instances,
Just a lighthouse at the beaches shore;
Of a time I met one kindred soul amongst the world,
And even though she was never mine; I let her go;
Just another wave in this life's ocean...
© okpoet

You're a cat and I'm a squirrel,
Looking for a nut in all the wrong;
Places - cause what's a fella doing in a barrel;
Shooting fish with a nickel and a song,
Those are dime a dozen and I've got a dollar;
For the jukebox to make you dance,
Because with you I want romance;
Not sport a tag and a brand new collar,
But am I really reaching far?
Aren't you down to earth?
I never wished upon a star,
Because I've always had in me mirth;
Always knew I would meet you,
But I'm not me anymore;
Thought I needed but I really want so much more,
Than long walks by the sea shore and beaches too;
I'm dying inside from jealousy and doubts,
Want to throw a fit and shout;
Never had these feelings before,
They unsettle me to the core;
You've struck a chord,
And I no longer wish to strum my solo;
This guitar has sliced my fingers like a sword,
Yet I still am humming my wretched tune; pro bono;
But I must let go of you and your truthful lies,
I hope to forget the memory of your amber eyes...
© okpoet

What is emotion?
It’s but a notion
Of an expression on the inside
Shown to the world outside,
My emotions run deep
But bottled up I can’t keep
Those you stir within me,
And for everyone to see
Because words are not enough,
To express them without feeling is tough
And when the syllables run out,
I just want to hold you and tell you all about
The thoughts I have of us and the future
And that to you may seem cute; sure,
But there is only so much I wouldn't do
Just for a minute without the world; just you,
And I’d cherish those few precious moments
In my heart even if in my mind they’re torments;
But if you ask me if I’m getting emotional; simply—
All I can say is; I’m all emotion baby…
© okpoet

I've captured this day
It's in my head ready to play,
At any given moment
Relieving my life's torment,
It's started and about to end
And one thing I've come to comprehend,
I've made today a memory
My greatest reverie,
And I shall come back
Time and time permitting,
To this dawn; to this dusk
And I'll savor what it is,
But a safe place to lie
From the haste of everyday,
The challenges of living
Because life is unforgiving,
If we don't stop to play
Once in a while; lose the tie,
And remember what it is we miss
That which is within the husk,
Of our monotonous routine whittling
Away at our knack to kick back,
And recharge to keep surviving
As each new day keeps arriving...
© okpoet

This is me
This is you,
What am I
Who are you?
You say hi
I say goodbye,
Would I lie to you;
Could you tell me the truth?
What is blue?
I am,
You are there
I am here
We are nowhere near,
I would ****,
Do you hear my cry shrill?
I am
You Are
We are nobody,
I hear no one
I see you;
Do you know me?
I miss you and me and we
But do you remember us?
I do but don't, I can't, I won't...
© okpoet

I'm deleting
All the memories
Photos videos recordings
Of better times,
Every prompt
'Are you sure
You want to move
This folder to the
Recycle Bin?'
Makes me hesitate
Yes and No
I'm aware
I can restore later,
But here goes instead
I don't want
Remnants;
Shift + Delete
Away away
Permanently
It all goes
Never to return,
Too bad
I can't do the same
With my brain,
Even less
With my heart...
APAD13 006 - © okpoet

There must be
A spaceship out there for me,
To take me from here
Away from this earth,
Remove me from this gravity
Let me fly away
Into space
To explore the galaxies
Far far away
Adventurer,
I just want to get away
Into the great expanse
Out there somewhere
There is a place for me,
Where I can belong
Rule or follow,
But it's my choice
My own domain,
A universe to myself
A great unknown
Cluster in the stars;
I want to get away to there...
© okpoet

She holds the gun to my head
I have led her to this my deathbed,
We say not a word
I know I cannot avoid this sword,
It is her mission
I've led myself into perdition,
Made choices in my life
Mostly lived by the knife,
Cutthroat backstabber
I am safer as a cadaver,
Many would thank this *****
They would think her a godsend,
And in this moment I am aware
Of her bullet's stare
How had it come to this?
There was no way she could miss
But I felt a pull
I wanted to empty of the hate I was full,
For having led myself asunder
From the right path; blunder after blunder,
Yet there she was this angel come to free me
I would not regret anymore, I would let go freely,
After all she is beautiful; this death bringer,
She pulls the trigger...
© okpoet

It's her most precious possession
Bordering on obsession,
It fills her with pride
As she walks she seems to glide
As if on a bed of sunrise
It goes with her every guise,
A bare essential
It causes her joy exponential,
And with a snap of her fingers
You'd think a flash mob of singers
Would appear to convey
How this is her way,
The little things that make her
Like a tiger is known for its fur
But it may as well be her lure;
Example of what she could procure
From the very nothing of blue
A flower; a necklace; a shoe,
Extraordinary trimmings
Assortment of playthings
To make wonder and inquisition of her,
But you should know for sure
You'll never be for her this,
A thing of cool; a thing of bliss...
© okpoet

She smiles
As she laughs in piles
Of joy; excruciating pain
In your side as you lose your breath,
You can't catch it
It's gone; but that silly smirk
Lingers on your face,
She can't help herself
Eyes wandering
Searching around
She locks on to you
A guided missile;
And you burst
Like a water balloon
****** into space,
Clearing your head of worries
Like she took you for a walk
But you're still here;
Never went far
She was always near
A breathtaking muse;
A jubilee of laughter...
© okpoet

I have a window
It's in my heart,
You can see clearly
My intentions,
I can see you too
As I look out,
I can see if you are;
Darkness or light,
I have a door
It's in my mind,
You can come knocking
And I will answer,
If you ask me
For a need or a want
I will give what I can,
If you demand of me
I will reject you,
If I let you in
You are welcome,
If I lock you out
Never turn to me again;
I have no room for just anyone...
© okpoet

She looks down at the world
All around at her feet,
With a look that beckons
With a calm presence
Undemanding
But she is not meek,
She can thrill you
Start a fire,
She is a ruckus
Low on the radar
Stealth trouble
With a face that permeates
Through all emotions;
Renders you inoperable
Subdued
Leaving you clueless,
What just went down?
You want to know
Why you cannot frown
This is her mirage,
When you look again
She is no more
Like a mist;
But you know she was real...
© okpoet

It's all a flurry
All I see is blurry,
The lights are streaming
Sparkles in her eyes are gleaming,
The music is pulsating
Through my skin,
Deep within my soul
I feel it overpowering,
I have no control
Who does?
Not I
I'm teetering on the brink,
I'm going to fall
From the rhythm,
This beat is sick
It makes my heart tick
She laughs; I smile
This is going to be a hit,
I jump
My heart is lit
What is my next move?
I am feeling this groove
She dances close to me
I will seize this moment, I will not flee...
© okpoet

Don't go;
Not yet
Not now
It's not even Christmas,
I jest;
Too many words
Not yet said
Not enough memories,
I've bled red
And bruised blue
Before there was ever you,
In my mind in my days
There was a blank slate
But you made me create
Another reality,
And that is the insanity
It consumes,
You exhume
My hidden thoughts
How they lingered
Long ago;
And now they go
Before I've had a chance
To put pen to paper
And you run away now like in a caper,
Shall I stop you perchance?
© okpoet

I feel like howling at the moon
Is this my summer? My June?
Will I see the sun tomorrow
Rise like a fiery snowball
Aimed at the sky above
Lights my eyes
Sets my thoughts on fire?
To think what this may bring
This summer;
Will I simmer?
Or will I boil overflowing
Without bounds
As I hear the sounds of the ocean
Abound with promise
This summer,
Where will I go; what shall I see?
Shall I shout out with glee?
As the alcohol flows
From my veins
Shall I hold the reins
To my summer?
This summer my June...
© okpoet

Oh that I could
Lift that veil of mystery,
Behind those twinkling eyes
An obscure conundrum,
For when she smiles
All that just floats on
Past my intrigue;
And I'm endeavored
To hold that image in a frame,
Forever caught still
In a permanent light
Immortalize her soul,
Which shines bright
A guiding brilliance,
I want to know what drives her being
Holds her heart together
Makes her rise and set
Like the stars and their sun,
How she makes a moment
Of pure inertia seem fun
All without lifting a finger
As she makes the moments drift,
Seamlessly into one another
I release the shutter,
She can't be contained
Not within these confines
She is a super nova,
I can only hope to grasp
But the glimmer of her rainbow...
© okpoet

It beckons from the depths;
A rage simmering,
Brought on by defiance;
Who shall run this life?
No one but ourselves;
We don't have the heart,
For petty games;
No mercy for the wicked,
The purest of mind;
The simplest of soul,
Harbor the darkest;
Side of evil,
For we know who we are;
Not your stepping stone,
Nor your passing fancy;
We give of ourselves,
For the greater good;
Not to be taken lightly,
Because once you've had your fill;
We come for your reckoning,
Have you paid your dues?
We will spare you no torture...
© okpoet

Can you tell me what are colors

When all is dark as far as I can see?

Can you describe to me what are feelings

When every day and minute

Pass as cullers of my emotions

Leaving only their mark

All the shades of confusion

Amidst the searing pain?

Just because you can’t see scars

Doesn’t mean

I’m not all cut up inside,

Tearing at my insides

To get out of myself

Because the world

Is not just black and white

But all kinds of hues

Of malign and sinister,

Jumbling my thoughts

About what is or isn’t,

Blurring fact and fiction

In everything I learn,

And if I can’t find clarity

In the HD of reality,

And you can’t ever

For me construe or define

All that lacks definition and meaning,

This flowering happyguuurl

Will never fully unfurl…

APAD13 005 - © okpoet

I hope and wish
For her to turn back,
Not that I wouldn't run
After her
In a rush
Into this;
Beckoning,
Like a fool
Lose my cool,
But I'm afraid
To break through
And find myself,
Smiling back
Reflection,
Closer than
It appeared
Through the rain
Under sun,
No storm
Or thunder
Will stop
Me; I will pursue...
© okpoet

I trailed a walk
And sat upon a bench,
A stranger sits next to me
And whispers
'You've got to let her know'
Watching me closely
Her eyes prodding
Inquisitive and alert,
I'm taken aback
Confused
I wonder what she knows;
'You've really got to let her know!'
She says louder,
Enthusiastic
And I stand
Commence to gap
A distance between us
I'm not sure what's going on,
'You really have got to let
This girl know you love her so much!'
She just shrieks,
And now I know
She's found my letters,
Like they've come to haunt me
Through this spectator,
How did she make out
The blurry ink
On crumpled paper?
Oh how I died each time
I wrote one,
Through the scotch and the tears
They came to be
Physical regrets of the words
I never said to her...
APAD13 004 - © okpoet

The anticipation is heavy within me,
Clouding my every thought
I feel light headed as you
Shut off the flow of life
Around me as nothing else matters,
I can savor the hesitation
Between the airlock
Of our lips,
And then it's a vertical wrestle
Across the floor
Shucking off clothes
And then we stop,
That millimeter
Space between
The contact
Of our bodies,
I can almost feel
Your delicate suggestion
Of hairs rise like static,
Electrifying
The first beads of sweat
As our skins graze
Like the first seconds of an ice cube
When barely you acknowledge its temperature,
The first sip of summer's cool lemonade;
Or is it the very finest of wines,
That's no longer here nor there
As I cling onto your body
Pleasurable friction,
Solid yet malleable
Against the bed trestle
And every other strong surface,
I feel the smoothness of you
Against the rough callousness of my hands,
And I feel I could never let go,
No questions words or thinking,
Just heart, need, and want
And crave, and hunger
Salt lick,
I want to deplete you of air
And replace it all with passion;
Sweet, our bodies shivering
Like crack fiends,
No athlete could keep up
In this heat feel
The slightest caress of a breeze...
APAD13 003 - © okpoet

Sometime somehow;
I hope these words
Reach you,
In retrospect I write,
You came into my life
Shook my resolve
Made me believe
In something unknown,
You gave me hope
And then you walked away,
Left me wondering;
What you meant,
The purpose for your existence
In mine,
I thought I figured you out
Or so I seemed to see,
A reflection of me;
So I wanted to reach out
Not for the conventional
That which love stories are made of,
No not for this,
I wanted to connect as a human
Misunderstood,
To have the joy of someone's presence
No commitment,
Neither to intrude in your life's plans,
Just to walk side by side
Sharing tribulations joys and goals,
Innocently I approached
Sincere in my intent,
I don't play so don't play me
I wish to listen clearly,
Your honest purpose;
If I can know your heart,
But to be simply your pal
Here for you now and whenever,
Without keeping tabs
Not a tissue for your issues;
But a shoulder
Give you strength,
You're not alone;
But I've always been...
© okpoet

I've awoken again;
Feeling it like the last time,
This sinking feeling;
Like I've gone somewhere,
Been with someone;
And now they're gone,
I'm back from there;
I do not know,
Feels like I was reaching;
Out to something,
And it was for a moment;
Within my grasp,
Maybe I held her close;
Within my arms,
Felt her soul;
I can't shake this,
The feelings won't go;
Away lingering,
Like a foggy mist;
I want to go back,
Resume this sleep;
Embrace the feeling...
© okpoet

No stars or moon;
The night sky is cloudy,
Like the thoughts in my mind;
Jumbled and incoherent,
Will it ever clear?
The doubts and confusion,
Dark and heavy;
Weighing down my heart,
But I'll fly high and above;
This veil of resistance,
I will rise above it all;
On top of the world once more,
Because no pothole is too deep;
Nor any barrier too thick,
That I cannot overcome;
No one can hold me down,
I am meant to soar;
No shackles can contain my spirit,
Not life; not love; not fear;
If it can't **** me,
I will persevere;
Not to be made an example of,
But to lead by example...
© okpoet