Blue house
blue face
didn't call me
didn't answer me
ask me questions
tell me what you think
blue sky
blue eyes
drive by
leaving at night
city lights
pick a house
you either love
us or them
blue smoke
blue stars
left alone
I was told
to follow
every rule
empty casket
where did you go
leaving me in this
empty house
underground
I can see nothing
waiting for you
to find me
waiting for your love
underwater
everything is blue

Love is a true art

You can't understand
Only feel it

Love has no explanation
Or limitations

Being in love either breaks your heart or
You'll feel the sun inside your heart

I'm melting down
I feel so loved

It doesn't have to be no one

It's all about loving myself

what's your favorite color
I'm worried
are you okay
is the yellow too happy
are you look for a different shade
tell me what music do you play
when you're looking for an escape
or the song that brings you back to reality
walk me through all your fantasies
she's doesn't talk to me
I'm worried
though
we're closer
I wonder if it'll last forever
just like
old days
I want to give you a big hug
disappear instantly
I fear rejection
and mock sincerity

dealing with the pain
such a shame
you can't find yourself
beneath the materialistic waste
she has poor taste
in a reality where nothing exists
searching in the sky
for a depressing cloud
it's getting old
but for the love of my sanity
can you look outside please

In love with feeling
Not you
I'm no fool
I don't ever fall

Won't wake up broken

Dollar bills
All we do is chase paper

She wants my money
I want to give her everything

In love with the feeling
Have no feelings

Don't want to fall asleep broken

I'm obsessed
Can't let go it go
Don't want to leave you alone

i'm so brainwashed
with the toxic smell
of chlorine

i am floating
in my swimming pool
all day

you don't like me so much

skin and hair wet
you say my eyes look red

well dear that's because
i've been writing

underwater poetry

all day

I'm avoiding everyone
like everyone ignores me

I'm so tired
of running away like kids

I hate making myself so small

I want to tell you the truth
I didn't mean anything to you

why'd you disappear
like I wouldn't notice

didn't take long for me to realize
I have feelings

my heart broke
a tiny piece I can't replace

I'm so tired of being kind
so tired of being the good guy

vulnerable
so easy to hurt me

why are you calling
did you finally remember me

I'm starting to accept
no one really cares
no one really loves
no one really wants
no one really needs
me

My memories are pounding
On the walls of my brain
Telling me they want to live once again
I'm sad to inform them
They're stuck in the past
will die
With my last breath of life

I could never pick a moment
To live in forever

It depends on the weather

this is the end
the beginning
and ending
bring out the aliens
it's pure humor
we hide behind it

because
this is the end
the fire is burning
life is dying
it's a forest
pure oxygen
why are we quiet

the beginning
to our end
we stay silent
post a tweet about it
broke and depressed
we hide behind a mask
send funny pictures
let's laugh and cry at the same time

it's terrifying
the old made a mess
the young must fix it

sixteen year old activist
millennials don't trust the government
mother nature is more than disappointed
pray
hope everything is okay
let's stay in bed until the world ends

7 billion people
I'll see you all at earth's funeral

you don't want to be me

wishing to be dead one day
feeling all of life the next

you don't want to wear my body
it's so heavy filled with lies and secrets

you don't want my words
I can't express the way I feel

you don't want my emotions
too strong to contain I let them all go to waste

I'm so sleepy
I sleep at 3 am

be someone else
don't be like me

I'm begging
open my head

tell me what's wrong
I don't know

everything is so loud
and quiet all at the same time

turn off the lights
is it almost night time

I don't get to run around and have fun
I didn't get to keep my youth

everything is so unfair
so I play the victim

I point fingers
filled with blood

crack open my head
I don't know how to speak anymore

it was so easy to lie in the daylight
nothing is my fault

I'm begging
just tell me how to fix everything

My heart is an open window
Breeze coming in
Sunlight shines
moonlight glows

I have been thinking of you

Now that you're leaving
I'm not prepared to be sad

My heart
is open
for you to stay

I'll close it soon
Won't you come inside

I've loved you so much

--
It's all gone to waste

I don't want your empty love
Please go away

I thought I saw the sky
I was fine

Maybe I will be alright
giving it time

Oh a simple hello
a sweet goodnight
can make a difference in a day

You won't mind if I come over
steal your time

cause I'm calling
will you hear my blues

I'm calling to the waves
pulling me back in
pushing me away


Take your time

we'll find the moon

driving around
sun down

I'm out
feels like I was hiding nothing

I wonder
how things will go

for now
I will sleep

my guardian angel close by
somedays it's okay to just be fine

all the songs I dedicated to you
don't mean anything

to me

I pictured the best of you
then I burned it to ashes

you'll never be who I want you to be

don't tell me we have a chance
you're lying to yourself

I can see the truth
it's right in front of me

I want to look away

I hate it

you have nothing to lose
so you'll have me

I mean nothing to you

Tonight it rains again
the weeks run like a river
take me away

The city feels melancholy
or is it just me in bed

I'm sick
I can't move
I can't speak

My brain is filled with insecurities
no one can cure me

Tonight it rains
the full moon hidden away

Taken away
I want to swim up the clouds
to see the worm moon

The city cries
I rest away

Wake me up
when the pink moon rises

you don't love me on the weekends
when he wants all your attention
I'm behind you
staring
loveless

you don't love me on Mondays
tired from Sunday
talking on the phone all day
I'm looking for you
heartless

you don't love me
when I love you

I reciprocate

we should love everyday

in times of sun
and clouds

we drift further away

Send me hope
And dead roses

Wake me up when the sun is rising
and never let me sleep alone

We use to be static sounds
I'm so happy we came around

All I heard was white noise
draining down the plastic feeling

Told me you knew how I was feeling

I want to be your friend first
I want to hear your truth
Melt away the lies

I'll give you love letters
and a smile

I'll give you my head for a while

Inside my head
You'll never know
Kills you
You don't have the answer

can we die
can we die
I promise
it's only tonight

tomorrow
I see you
again
you're not inside my head
kills me
I miss you

I don't know how to answer

empty promises
I plant in your head
they're all dead
why would you ever believe me
I'm scared of everything
so scared of myself
i smile hoping someone can decipher the hidden pain
everyone thinks I'm mysterious
I'm actually an open book
you come home
I can feel your worries
empty promises
I planted in your head
I manifested everything we have
now how do I pay you back

it's 10 am
how did I start
I wonder
scratching my legs
rushing towards the nail clippers
it gets better
heartbeat too fast
might pass out
I took a call and collapsed
afraid of the other side
good thing they can't look into my eyes
falling to the floor
hitting down the walls
my heart is out of control
I haven't touched my brain
it's only Tuesday
why can't I live peacefully
chaotic mornings
where's my oxygen
I'm only scared
this is the beginning
let it be the last

cold rain
cold face

cold heart
cold taste

I loved you
and I left

you colored me blue
the life you gave
you took away

you're my blue side

100 percent chance of rain
100 % chance of heartbreak

cold lover
cold water
cold kiss

come alive

this is our last life

you meet me halfway

standing at the end

I count all my steps

I forget where I'm walking to

who did I talk to

was I with you yesterday

did you come to me

where did I go

I lose my head

left in the past

I'm staring behind me

time melts around me

I don't where I'll go

leaving dead

this must be my first life

it feels so good
when you say my name
in the darkness

when we pray
with your head between my thighs

it feels so nice
when your hands are holding my face

I hate the way you say my name
when the night has ended
you changed my identity

I am too attached
I love you too much

please don't leave
stay in bed

it's too cold
don't let me fall asleep alone

I'm too ashamed
and filled with regret
to say
I miss you

It's too late to say
sorry
too late to say goodbye

everything I wish I had said
eats me up at night

I can't say it
I'm so disappointed in myself

but I must admit
I miss you a little
just a tiny bit

he loves his smile
and his hands
holds them under the table

they sit in quiet grounds
empty rooms

he loves his hair
and lips

they kiss
when no one is around

off to the city
filled with dreams

everything seems fine

if only the world would go away

Oh how it burns to remember
how cold
you are
how you don't care about no one
the bittersweet
feeling
that maybe you really do love me
is not everlasting
I'm no fool
why pretend
I know you'll never be interested
how it hurts
to know
that you really don't want to know
pains me to see you lie
with a fake smile
perhaps I will learn from this
some other day

you told your friend
we're just friends

I lost my black shirt
at your house

you left your grey hoodie
in my room

- -            - -            - -

There's no going back

the feelings are lost

if you ever want your stuff back

I can give you back your heart

the street we use to walk every day
is empty

the star we named
disappeared

-
sad songs play every day

I loved you in the smallest ways
you pushed me
I wanted to live
wake up to your face


I know you'll say
stay

remind me how your love felt
in the mornings

waking up in an embrace

I don't remember anything

Bit my skin off
You'll be leaving home soon
Told myself to write out someone's feelings
But i haven't felt nothing

My hands are getting dry
Don't know why

I've been missing you
Thinking about you
wanted you touch me too

Fall back into you
Just like i akways do

I would've loved it here
love the sky
and the dirt filled sidewalks

the glimmer of the city lights

I'd love these rough walls
if I had a different skin

I'd love the wind
if I had a different tongue

I'd love the clouds
and the strange cars passing by
after midnight

how the mountains close me in
I hold my breath

I'd love to live here
staring out to the the blinking red lights

I don't belong to myself
I belong to the lights shining on my face

I'd live here
if love existed within

my heart
spent years trying to find it

eating it away
falling into the same old street light
I would've loved it

if I was a different person

There are meteoroids falling into my head
Meteors coming into the sky of my mind

I have no where to go

There's a voice
that whispers sad things
when I'm happy

I'm soft when you're around
then you leave me alone
with a stranger's voice

I'm losing myself
I love the idea of dying soon

There is a shooting star I see in a dream

A fire in the sky

I'm not afraid
of dying with a smile

Finally the voice
will explode
into bits of a meteorite

Te amo
Pero no te puedo decir
Te quiero mucho

All you wanted was a hug
And someone to come

But you needed to get up
Yourself

To realize
You don't need no one

didn't want to let you know

how do I tell you
something that hurts me to admit

don't have the heart to say
you didn't mean nothing to me back then

I forgot you easily
I let you go because I didn't care about you

I can't remember all the things we did
all the words I said

you told me
you remember everything

I remember the night
you told me you were depressed
on video call
while I sat down in my bed

I remember sitting down on the library floor
waiting for you

it's so hard to put the pieces together
dark times I chose to erase

now we reconnect
I promise I won't be the same like I used to be

listen pretty girl
with the pretty voice and eyes
time is getting cold

all the leaves will fall
can I hold you when it's cold
your warm hands in mine

I'm cold by myself
listen here pretty girl I
want your hands in mine

come there's a small fire
the stars are in my pocket
we can fly away

have a little fun
slipped into an unconsciousness
midnight chills I'm cold

A friend a friend
I repeat in my head

It's just a question
My number isn't much

So I wrote it
For you

Because that's what friends do..
Except my mind
Says other things
..

Saw it coming
months away
in my sleep
in my dreams
an afternoon
midnight silence
I saw it coming
miles away
heard it in the wind
water screamed
to me
I saw it coming
in a tree
in a cloud
in my frown
my eyes screamed at me
I failed
I failed
I failed
do you want to know more about me now
I'm not perfect
do you want to talk to me now
I saw it coming
I just didn't want you to see it
I saw it coming
I failed
I knew every morning
this was coming
I didn't care
I still kept going

Now that I've failed
everyone screams at me
everyone looks at me
everyone asks for me
now that I've failed
everyone wants to scare me
I'm weak
I'm not perfect
I'm sorry I took off my mask
when you least expect it

you must hate me now
I should blame myself