I don't need any friends
I got them all in my head

I don't need a lover
She's six feet under

Tomorrow night
I'll visit a meteor shower

We have celestial dust
In our bones and flesh

Made from Earth and outer space

I don't need any friends
If the stars
Are willing to listen

I sleep with his dead body
he's so warm

I imagine his breath hitting my face

in my mind
it's a loud room

his whispers linger
in the dark

our bodies dance
around the fireplace

I'm not afraid

he's almost there
I'm almost there
we're almost there

I'm almost there
he's almost here
we're almost there

almost there

she muttered
out loud
I don't want to live in oblivion
she doesn't know
where the origin
begins or ends
attracted to the moon and clouds
the stars wish she wasn't down here
there's a void in space
she wants to go away
doesn't want to live in oblivion

she mumbled out loud
wonder where the sky ends
if the universe keeps expanding
I'm also growing
this life is one
others are to come

my soul hasn't lived enough
I should have stayed at mars

the rain
an illusion
it comes and goes away
how do I believe
in something I can't see
I feel love
no one had ever shown me how

it's time to let her out

somedays
I need all the lights on
everytime I do wrong
+ + +
rest well
turn off the lights
I did my best

when are we going to admit
we're so wrong

together
we're a disaster

beautiful
cutting off everyone

now we're all alone
is this what happiness looks like to you

you think you hold the key
where are you running off to

admit it
admit it
admit it

me and you
we're no good

I'm sad
yesterday I was too
because I didn't have you

I'm sad when you're not around
You're sad for reasons unknown

I'll slowly die
waiting for you to come back

come back to me
come back to me
come back to me

just let me know
let let know
before you go

it's scary I know

There was a time
you and I were something in disguise
shadows that aren't mine
follow me into my home
living alone
without your laugh
seems cold
no matter how many blankets
I sleep with or hold

you kept me hidden
between white bed sheets
If we ever saw each other in public
I didn't know you
nor did you know me

Invited me into your home
became then my own
surviving and playing games
during thunderstorms
turned into
silent nights
suffocating within the walls

I didn't know you
did you ever find out who I was

strangers in disguise
the look in your eyes
held a sorry gaze
trying to tell me just wait

it began to snow in your home
our love became frozen
somewhere inside one of the rooms

we really did become unknown

Do you know
What I know
Do you know

I feel like I'm going down in a spiral
dark black hole
taking me to the day where we first met

leaving it behind me
traveling far

do you know how I feel
what I feel
do you know

Travel all night
the morning must come by
I want to kiss the moon goodnight



--------

Let go

I can't help but feel
life without me
would be so much better

Its ten
should I sleep
I can hear you
I can't see you

I know you're around
never close enough

I want to be everyone's favorite
I want all the attention
    My heart begs to be loved

I'll always be little
I'll never be enough
to fill your expectations up

Good evening
I wish I had some meaning

I try to change the night before
waking up to restart

the moon keeps changing
she never waits for me

we walked along the green
now we're breathing calm with the windows down

silent my thoughts aren't running away

one day we could live like this
let me keep this dream

do you think
we could live 10 floors up in the city

blinded by the lights

i know what i want

they got the devil
in their eyes

a little to dark
there's no surprise

the less everyone knows
I love being unknown

someone no one ever gets to know

a faceless
body

you can't reach me
no one can find me

I made a pact
it's coming true

he loves me
I know he does
I love him very much too

sky's so cold
reminds me of her
she always blew me a cold kiss

eating ice cream when it's zero degrees

ice queen
she covers the sky
with an independent gloom

I'm waiting on the snow
she gives the best shows
wearing glittery shoes

eerie feeling
you aren't here with me
I almost felt you beside me

I need to let her go
move on

let the sky fall

Wish you the best in life
Even though mine isn't so fine
I'm going through a bumpy ride

I'm sure you got it much better
It doesn't matter

This cruel life
makes me stronger

is it so
crazy
to ask
someone
please
love me
even if
it's
a lie
my
lowest
place
I'm just
seeking
company
it feels
like I
live
with a
ghost
I see her
do everything
while I
sit back and
watch
waiting for
someone
this can't
be right
there
must
be
someone

love me
I beg
is it
too
much
to ask
don't
leave me
here
don't
let
me go
I'll turn
off my
morning
alarms
stay with me
is it a
possibility
I'll be loved
in this
lifetime
or am I
destined
to be
lonely
and miserable
every monday
starting the week
wishing for
silly romance

pathetic
it seems
I let pride
get the best of me
if I keeping
saying one day
maybe I'll
just forget
about today
trying
to forget
another
wasted
valentines day
I hope
you're not
reading this
go on
be happy
I bet you
have someone
to be so
lonely
like me
I wouldn't
wish it
on my
enemies
no more
crying
for me
I take
my tiny
heart
with
no hope
it will
survive
it's last
breath
on
the
lost love
I'll never have

my birthday passed
It doesn't last
I feel so bitter
I'm sorry I don't care
let me leave you
before you leave me
starry night
nostalgia
I can't get over this loneliness
love me more
I wanted them to love me more
my birthday passed
cupid's arrow
he couldn't reach me
broken
by my fortress
cupid's broken bow
how am I supposed to know
love me more
love me
even
if I don't

ɪꜰ ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ᴍʏꜱᴇʟꜰ
ᴅᴏᴇꜱ ᴛʜᴇ ꜱᴋʏ ᴛᴜʀɴ ᴘɪɴᴋ
ɪꜰ ɪ ʙᴇᴄᴏᴍᴇ
ꜱᴇʀᴇɴᴅɪᴘɪᴛʏ
ᴡɪʟʟ ɪ ʜᴇᴀʀ ᴛʜᴇ ʙɪʀᴅꜱ ꜱᴘᴇᴀᴋ
ɪ'ᴍ ɴᴏᴛ ʀᴇᴀᴄʜɪɴɢ ꜰᴏʀ ʏᴏᴜʀ ʟᴏᴠᴇ
ʙᴇᴄᴀᴜꜱᴇ
ɪ ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴛᴏ ᴛᴏᴜᴄʜ ᴍʏꜱᴇʟꜰ
ɪꜰ ɪ ʙʀᴇᴀᴛʜᴇ
ᴛʜʀᴏᴜɢʜ ᴍʏ ɴᴏꜱᴇ
ᴡɪʟʟ ɪ ꜰʟʏ
ʏᴏᴜ ꜱʜᴏᴜʟᴅɴ'ᴛ ᴄᴀʀʀʏ ᴍᴇ
ɪ ɴᴇᴠᴇʀ ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴛᴏ ʟᴇᴀᴠᴇ
ɪꜰ ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ᴍʏꜱᴇʟꜰ
ᴡɪʟʟ ɪ ʟɪᴠᴇ

are you still hearing your favorite band of joy
sorry you're parents are homophobic

I don't know when we'll ever talk again
wish I could see you this weekend

hate that you're going through this
I hope you listen to this song

I still love you
I hope you know that

I know you'll be okay
it'll be all be okay one day not so far

sorry your family has a million misunderstandings

about me
about you
about her

I wish you the best
no more hurt
no more sadness

I hope you're growing

spring will come

you will
come back to life

fly me to a cloud

I know it's not a game

it's not okay

I'm your nightmare

A rose so pretty
it kills you
I'm the one who
picks you apart

when the time comes
you'll be begging for my help

life is so funny

you'll wish
you didn't do it

it's alright
I know to play mind games

I don't want to tell her not to go
But I don't wanna have to see her go

Your fingers gracely on my skin

sunflowers by my bed
Your scent on my pillows and head

Could I record your voice
To replay it

I'll hold you
Consume your love
And return it

Dance with you

Only if you were to love me too

Will you hold me up
When I've fallen

Under the weather
above the clouds
hugging pillows

I don't feel so good right now

My heart has done too much
I'm breathing
Can I take a break

I can't find
Enlightenment

I'm falling behind
Will you be there to grab my hand

Pull me out of this dream

I've got flowers to press
before they die

Vases empty
emotions down the drain

eyes
windows
to the soul
take a peek inside
I don't have one no more

a shade darker
a shadow lighter

where's my breakfast cigarette
you don't understand my emotions
eat up
don't ask questions
I lie
that's my final answer

take a look inside
you'll understand
there's nothing

just a drop of
cynicism

I hope you love me everyday
I can be the worst somedays

cold
mean
ugly

please wait

I can be

soft
gentle
loving

there's a dark place
I'll always go to

if you come with me
I won't be alone anymore

If it's about you
I don't care
sorry

all I want is
it to be about me

I want to talk about me
but I hate your response to everything I say

I want the attention on me
so if I die
will you love me

set myself on fire
**** a bird
I haven't matured

consideration
call out my real name

if no one is looking at me
I feel so gone

Miss you

want to kiss you
maybe a hug or two

hear music with you
eat frozen yogurt together

take pictures
so I can cry
months later

I've lost it all
I'm nothing
nothing at all


And you?

how are you

I see nothing

I have everything I've ever wanted

I still feeling nothing

I want to live in my dream
Where I touch the sky

He showed me how to find a face
in a cloud
How to find a smile in a frown

I wish
I could jump inside a flashback

Back when I was
hopeful;
I didn't worry about myself

I must admit
This pain is beautiful

so beautiful
I'll die

Do you ever want to **** someone
Do you ever want to drown
Fear is always hanging around
And you are scared to go out
You want to have a friend
And have fun on the weekends
You feel alone in this big world
You say you're living dead
But you're waiting to be saved

sleepy eyes
wide awake
the night feels
hidden behind shadows

pretty face

so sad

I can see your soul

it's such a pity

I thought of you differently

now I know the kind of person you are

your soul is the sound of death

I spoke to a flower today
sobbing she was falling

Today I looked at the sky
I noticed it was blue

A blue I've never seen before

With a tree so high
I bet it touches the clouds

They keep building walls
around me
I no longer see the street lights

everything crumbles around me
falling apart

Love is just a memory

I don't remember if the sky was always this beautiful

everything I touch
breaks

a loop hole

walk home

I ate a flower
it's growing inside me

everything I love
hates me

I'm not good for anyone

I'm not good to myself

repeatedly

I ruin everything

I still want you
even if we don't talk anymore

I'm everything I didn't want to be
I'm everything you hate of me
can I take off this mask
can I let my tears fall
I wonder what's it like to leave you
I wonder what it's like to leave and never come back

I took your hand
thinking we could swim away
paradise ahead
you pulled me down
I'm running out of breath
please let me go
I'm trying to find my surface
I'm drowning
inside me
inside you

we're so cold
we're so cold
we don't love each other enough
to save ourselves
I can't achieve anything
while she brings me down
this place brings me down
I bring myself down

If you love me
I hate you

even if I leave
I'll always come back

I was overreacting
thinking you were crying

I hope you're always happy
Never see you cry

Stay happy

I never want to see you crying

It's been a long day

I just want to take a nap

suddenly it's raining in my room

Feels like a black dream

Please always stay full
I never want to see you sad

I think you died
you forgot to tell me

no invitation to the burial or the funeral
why didn't you tell me

was it an accident
tell me

why did you leave me so easily
for a boy who will only give you heartbreak

my friend died
she said I can't talk to you anymore
haven't heard from her in months

happy new year
you threw away our good friendship like a piece of paper

I'll visit your grave one day
press all your flowers and crush the ashes into the wind

you're dead to me
I know you're in trouble
only you can save yourself now

yes I need help
why do the cuts on this plastic plate remind me of the ones on my arm

I don't want to fall again
I'm not promising

there's no ending
if something scratches off the scab

distancing myself away from sharp objects
in the back of my mind

I know where the scissors are kept

you ignore the signs every year
how much longer
before I **** myself

Well he comes and goes
without a heart
everyone knows

The smile you broke
I can't find the pieces to it
now I'm broke

He's old
gotta say it

But his mind
is never playing

He writes without a saying
yet he says what everyone is thinking

It's not 2015 anymore
I'm not so small
and torn

Sharp like thorn

He comes and goes

When the tree's leaves fall
I'll remember
our lost days

When you painted them white

Christmas never felt so warm
I'll always remember

do I trust the words I say
are they fake
flowing out of my imagination

do my eyes see the truth
is this reality
or a dark confused dream

do my ears hear honestly
I can't hear the right way
I try and silence the waves

questioning my existence

is my body real

is my mind mine

do I waste my time

am I alive

I've been a bad person

I don't follow the instructions

you told me we were special

quickly I threw the idea out of my head

I'm a bad friend

you don't have to paint me good

I feel heavy with the lies

strong ties

never stopped for an update

walking without you

climbing high I realized

I was so low

I'm a bad person too

you don't have to paint me good

I feel blue

so warm and cool

don't cover up the truth

don't try and make it better

I'm trying to say goodbye without saying it

it's so hard to cut you off

when you sit me on a throne

don't paint me

let me erase myself

better

hate me

don't love me for what I'm not

It's a Christmas spirit
But I've lost my soul

Can you find it
Can you find it
can you


Figures at the window

She's a compulsive liar
Passive pessimist

There's no hope
When she's keeps
Shutting out the light
In her room

_

Merry Christmas
I hope you're feeling happy
Enjoy being with somebody

can I tell you
llıʍ I

all the good
ɓuoɹʍ os ǝɹ,noʎ

you try
ǝıl sʎɐʍlɐ noʎ

I can go on
ɓuol ɹoɟ ʇou

we're so close
uıɐɓɐ sǝʌlǝsɹno ɓuıɔuɐʇsıp

Sometimes death isn't
A bullet that goes through you

Sometimes it's just 2
Words that hurt you

Sometimes you can leave
And people will suddenly  be happy

But they will miss you
After a few days

So maybe it wasn't the knife
That cut me
That hurt very much

Maybe it was just you
Standing there
Not helping

I'll die if I change

You give me the keys to my cage
Telling me fly free
Cut off my own wings

Loved you through
A stained window
Where I could barely see you
The parts I saw
Made me fall in love

Put your favorite band on

Do I have to change
To prove myself sane

I hit the window
Few times a day
Left it tainted