you're too good for me
I know I'm wrong for saying this

I should get out of your way
you didn't give me time
I am dizzy in love

deep down I know
there's no beginning to this love story

you won't look back for me
tossed to the side
there's more important things to do

I'm going to say it
there's no stopping me

....

it's okay if you don't feel the same
we will forever be best friends

I will try my best to smile
if you ever to try to find me
I'll be here

You don't really care
Lying to yourself

Can't treat me better
I'm growing older

Trying to not be a bother

Moving out the way

So you can see someone else

I'm still mad over the things you said
Even if years passed

Still kills me inside
Makes me so sad

Sad sounds so small

It's corrupted my whole body

I don't really care
Lying to myself

So consumed
Waiting for the end

Dying with a straight face

maybe when I was younger

that's all I say

are you ready to know the real me

so tired of lying and changing myself

maybe when I was younger

that's all I can say now

it's fine
I'm okay with this silent night
open window curtains
I have no neighbors
I got no one to check in
you left a sharp object at the table
I loved it
so I kept it for myself
things I shouldn't do
things you wouldn't do
things I'll regret
the pain is hidden
I wonder if I'll wake up tomorrow
early
will I hear you coming
it's fine
this quiet still night
I can feel the ghosts roaming around
passing over my dead body
I wonder if you'll see me tomorrow
you'll never see it coming

When you got a credit card
you don't know what to buy

With all the money inside
you're confused
and scared to waste it all

But I'm trying
I'm trying

Take it all
or leave it

I'm spending time
looking at things
I'll never buy

It's a complicated life

you don't buy me flowers anymore
I hide away from the stars
we don't hold each other tightly
different conclusions and you won't understand me
I wait for you to leave the bed
finally I can rest
I wait for you to leave the house
now I feel comfortable
I wait for you to sleep
so I can walk away
you don't love me the same
it's not me
it's you

ᵍⁱᵛᵉ ᵐᵉ ᵃ ᵐᵒᵐᵉⁿᵗ

ᴵ ᵈᵒⁿ'ᵗ ᵏⁿᵒʷ ʷʰᵃᵗ ᴵ ʷᵃⁿᵗ

ᵃʳᵉ ʸᵒᵘ ᵐᵃᵏⁱⁿᵍ ʲᵒᵏᵉˢ
ᵃᵇᵒᵘᵗ ᵐᵉ ᵃᵍᵃⁱⁿ

ᵍⁱᵛᵉ ᵐᵉ ᵃ ᵐᵒᵐᵉⁿᵗ

ᴵ ⁿᵉᵉᵈ ˢᵒᵐᵉ ᶠʳᵉˢʰ ᵃⁱʳ

ᴵ ʰᵃᵛᵉ ᵗʰᵉ ʷʰᵒˡᵉ ʷᵒʳˡᵈ
ᵇᵒᵗᵗˡᵉᵈ ᵘᵖ
ⁱⁿ ᵐʸ ᶜʰᵉˢᵗ

ⁱᶠ ᴵ ʰᵃᵈ
ᵗʰᵉ ᶜᵒᵘʳᵃᵍᵉ

ᴵ ʷᵒᵘˡᵈ ˡᵉᵗ ⁱᵗ ʳᵃⁱⁿ ᵈᵒʷⁿ
ᶜʳᵉᵃᵗᵉ ᵃⁿ ᵒᶜᵉᵃⁿ

ᵍⁱᵛᵉ ᵐᵉ ᵃ ᵐᵒᵐᵉⁿᵗ

ᴵ'ᵐ ᶠᵉᵉˡⁱⁿᵍ ᵖʳᵉˢˢᵘʳᵉᵈ

ᵗᵒᵈᵃʸ ᴵ ᶠᵉᵉˡ
ˡⁱᵏᵉ ᴵ'ˡˡ ᵐᵃᵏᵉ ⁱᵗ

ᴵᵗ ʷᵒⁿ'ᵗ ˡᵃˢᵗ

ˡᵉᵗ ᵐᵉ ʰᵃᵛᵉ ᵃ ᵐᵒᵐᵉⁿᵗ

ᴵ'ᵛᵉ ˡᵒˢᵗ ᵃˡˡ ᶠᵒʳᵐ ᵒᶠ ᶜᵒᵐᵐᵘⁿⁱᶜᵃᵗⁱᵒⁿ

ᵐʸ ᵉʸᵉˢ ᵐᵘˢᵗ ᵇᵉ ᵖⁱᵗᶜʰ ᵇˡᵃᶜᵏ

ᵗʰᵃᵗ ʸᵒᵘ ᵈᵒⁿ'ᵗ
ˢᵉᵉ ᵐʸ ᵖᵃⁱⁿ

you forget the experience I have
with death

you forget
I've dealt
with inner demons

yₒᵤ cₐₙ'ₜ ₛₑₑ
ₘy ₚₐᵢₙ

ₙₒbₒdy ₐₛₖₑd ₘₑ ᵢf ᵢ'ₘ ₒₖₐy

【Ｉ＇ｍ　ｓｏ　ｉｎｆｕｒｉａｔｅｄ
Ｉ＇ｍ　ｆｕｒｉｏｕｓ】

ɪ'ᴍ ᴀ ʟɪᴛᴛʟᴇ ᴛɪʀᴇᴅ
ɪ'ᴍ ᴀ ʟɪᴛᴛʟᴇ ᴍᴀᴅ

I love you
never going to tell you

distant
soundless
I love yous

she doesn't have to know
I dream of you
walking in
it's small little things

Slipping away
longing for you to stay
I can't look at you
bite my tongue
I don't show
I never tell

If I spill my darkest secret to you
will you keep it
take it
into the melting moon
chase the night
before dawn blooms

I look calm
I'm laughing along
smiling like nothing is wrong

I fear this is our life
for the rest of our lives

I worry you'll always be off the tracks

the sun comes in to greet our day
you don't even feel alive

I'm spiritually connected to the earth
you won't ever understand
what beauty it holds

money burns
money appears
just as it disappears

I wonder if you hear music with passion
you pray with empty words and promises

life with you doesn't feel real
I don't like the feeling

I want to sleep peacefully
wake up in the morning

will I ever be enough for you

learn to be quiet
sleep early

will you ever talk good about me

walk away
be stronger than the other person

I can't be warm enough
with your cold heart breathing
killing us gently
loving you delicately

no matter how many months go by
no matter how many nights come to life

every time you look into my eyes
you see my mistakes

I'll never be able to erase

All this
Talk
Talk
Talk

No one is any better

No one ever changes

I'm hoping for a better life
I hope to not follow their footsteps

Talk
Talk
More talk

I'm so tired
My ears might explode

I'm not sure how much I can take
before I let it all out

your reckless behavior
put yourself in danger

once in while you should sit down
don't look down on me

you're just fooling around
I can't stop you
so I watch you drown

the rush gets you hot and bothered
I don't know you anymore

keep changing in front of my eyes
I feel so left behind

write with love
for love

write out your anger
before it becomes a danger

write out your pain
in case it gets heavy inside your chest

write out your ideas and thoughts that flow in your head
don't lose them
they can become a masterpiece

Always write out
who are you
if you're losing yourself

writing in my dreams
writing in my sleep

I never want to stop myself
from expressing myself

you pulled the words from my head
and threw them far away

I'll get them back

Do you think
That in another world
We're together ?

That you love
another me

Do you think we would
get along

Maybe we could
get married

Maybe in another life
You really love me

Like I do
Here
Now

Today and like yesterday

I'm never gonna find a boy
that wears a dress

I'll keep looking
in all the grocery stores
libraries
furniture or clothing store
at a car shop

maybe he'll be walking
on the sidewalk
on my way to work
on my way home

I'll do anything for that boy

three beds
three screens
three hearts
three pillows
three mouths
six eyes
six hands
six feet
   six ears
  in this room

this room
my room

i feel no one just myself
it's just me
one brain
one nose
one heart
one roomm

If were to see a glimpse of the sky
Maybe I could breathe fine

now that poetry is carved into my skin
I got nothing to lose in this rain
writing on a white screen
soon I'll be able to pick up a pen
and write on a white piece of paper

I threw away years worth
poems and writing

now I see it's stuck inside me
there is no way out
it's a part of me now

maybe not in a journal
at least it's somewhere

let me spill my guts
swallow it

can I tell you
everything

can I tell you
nothing

cut me open

eat my words

feed me your daydreams

I just want to tell you

let me have all the control

don't think
let me think for you

spilling my guts

running away

She has flowers on her cheeks
the stars shine within her teeth
The waves to the ocean stop moving
When she speaks
I couldn't explain why the universe
gave up in growing
When she was awake

She's not an angel
Hard to figure out

She belongs in
The Depths
Of matter

That we don't know about

She's talked to all the stars
is friends with the faintest
Constellations

She whispers to the wind
laughs
I can't help but smile
With temptation

Could she be an alien

It's hard to figure out

She's a light
Yet a shadow

She'll find you
In the blackest
Day
Hiding in the corner

Her hair is gold
eyes like diamonds

The galaxy flows
With her high words

Awake night and day
The sun and moon
Owe their lives
And souls

To her pretty laugh
That casts
Joy
To anyone around her

She's no human

She's always wandering

Pick a hole in the sky
Want to see a glimpse of the blue
Hiding under this grey blanket of clouds
I'm being blown away
Nothing makes sense
Fiction or fantasy
Is all I can take
I can't think
My head is silent
That left turn
Changes you whole

I love the way you poison my mind

How you stare at me all day long
without blinking an eye

I see you trying to slip inside
from the corner of my eye

Everyone says they love me

But I don't feel the love

Why do you keep turning away
when I need your help

You love me so much
Why can't I tell everyone else

I love the way you change my thoughts and words

You're in my mouth
Holding back everything I want to say

You infiltrate my mind
I wonder why I've changed

Now I feel so poisonous

I love the way you love me

ᵉᵛᵉʳʸᵒⁿᵉ ˢᵃʸˢ ᵗʰᵉʸ ˡᵒᵛᵉ ᵐᵉ

ᴵ'ᵐ ᵃˡʷᵃʸˢ ᵗʰᵉʳᵉ ʷʰᵉⁿ ᵗʰᵉʸ ⁿᵉᵉᵈ ᵐᵉ

ʷʰʸ ᵈᵒ ᵗʰᵉʸ ᵗᵘʳⁿ ᵃʷᵃʸ ʷʰᵉⁿ ᴵ'ᵐ ʰᵘʳᵗᶦⁿᵍ

I'm a bit narcissistic
my friends are never enough

too many people are ignoring me
I'm trying to keep everyone in my sight

don't close the windows at night
you know you can still call me or come over

I'm a bit selfish
sorry I forgot to ask about your day

how have you been
you know you can tell me anything you like

I'm a narcissist
losing all my friends

selfish
I just want all the attention

You say you love me
but do I love you

a little older
that sweet taste

a little wiser
warm touch
with that gaze I'll melt away

tiptoe
can we go to your room

playing around

a little more experienced

falling in lust

it's all we want

I wanted to be the sky
with you beside me

jumping to conclusions
sensitive
so so delicate
miss me
love me
my hearts exploding

I'm sorry I lost contact
I wish I didn't do that
my brain tells me to stay away
you moved on
I'll go away
I wasn't in the right time
I forgot you maybe wanted to say hi
after all I've done
I thought you wouldn't want me

things change
time passed
all grown up
I still mess up

my hearts exploring
you said you miss me
love me
really want to see me

running to make plans
I don't care of the weekend
I'll move the clouds
drive around
meet you there

I hope we meet again

I made a rainbow inside my room

it was too late to tell you
hurts to know we lost each other

I don't keep photographs
regret not taking one of you

wish I could find someone
no one has what we had

over my head to think
we could get away with secrets and lies

they were the best of you
and made me a villain in disguise

to the people
I hate the most
they don't know
the roles are reversed

I made it rain inside my room
I haven't cried for you
but I missed you
on a late afternoon

you made me tell you more than I should
where did you keep all my darkest and shallow feelings

maybe I meant nothing to you
desperately need to know if you're missing me too

I can forgive you
for all the talk overs
and the miscommunication

will you forgive me
for leaving you behind

I made a memory of you

it's vivid and
full of color

I can feel it so much
it hurts

She's a liar
a fine liar
I believe her

shaking my head
she's just like the rest

followed her footsteps
into it

angels don't help me

there she goes
lying her way through it
she's so gone
I can't save her
so I drown

down
into
this
sea of bitterness

we're so lost
feels all wrong

I learned from the worst

nothing matters

nothing ever matters
with her

If I could go back to
last year
maybe I would

If I could hear the same song
for the first time
I wish I could

gave my heart away
put my soul
somewhere in the closet

afraid I won't
be able to find it

their voices don't feel the same
it's like you don't
know what to do anymore

you want to own my bed
stay there forever
holding us down
falling off this tight line
I thought I would be forever right

will I get the last laugh
you got my black book
in your hands
reading it at night

I use to be ahead
now everyone is slipping away
further into the tunnel
I can't come out of

perhaps
sleeping alone isn't the same anymore

I don't want to retrace my steps
and regret my decisions

but I question myself
thinking
was this the best I could do

it's always too late to go back
now I toss and turn every night

sleeping early feels impossible now

this is torture
closing my eyes
never able to rest

our winter
is looking blue
just like the last

this is the last time
we'll spend an october together

every day
feels like a countdown

for a sick separation
I know
this is going to hurt

I'm searching for a new home
and you've got your own

he doesn't have a ring
for you yet
hoping he finds one soon

I'll be so far away
by the time
you realize
this is all a big mistake

our last autumn
ending soon
we died faster
than the falling burnt leaves

this is going to hurt
what else can I do
try and move on

no distance
or time
can cure this heart split in two

Will I ever get there
I want to meet her
the future me
I want to ask her
how to keep going
what's the secret

I don't want to believe she doesn't exist

Maybe this is all I get
no second chance

I've thought a thousand ways to die
without ever finding a successful life

Catching blue stars
flying in the night
leaving a trail of celestial dust

My reflection has become a shadow

I feel shallow

The water isn't too deep
It's blue far away
but faded green close enough

lights follow me everywhere
the moon staring at me in the afternoon

In the middle of it all

Trying to love it

I say I'm not afraid of dying

My heart aches
every time I lie to myself

11:46
And I'm remembering all the dancing we did
Just hearing
The song of us

Remember all the fun
Back when we were young

11:46
And you are here with me
Things don't seem the same
Like the old days

I guess reality got to both
But I wish
We would still have fun

I wish I didn't throw away the bad parts of me
I wish I gave you my secrets to see
now I have a hole in me

will you take them
under the water
I'm feeling so bothered

wish I didn't throw away the good parts of me
now I'm not sure what's left in me

come and find them
deep waters
hurry
I can't concentrate

I got missing parts of me
deep underwater

I'm running
from regrets

friends disappeared
and they're still asking for me

the words to my heart
fading

bring them back

find my broken parts submerged
I'll be whole

Staying for a while
seems like I'm stuck with you

Dust covers our room
and I can't go outside
Can't breathe good

Close the windows
I don't want to feel the heat

I can't love you
the sun

The drought gets worse

I'm dying
around you

I can't breathe

I want to leave

I want to see you out the door
erase every trace of you

Feel clean

September filled with
water lilies
and warm, soft lies

I talk to you so careless
forgetting our past problems

Trees are changing
the clouds aren't the same

the sky and stars are rearranging

September's cool breeze
warm sunshine
giving the flowers one last bloom

Soon comes fall

Summer's last days
Summer's last breath

All over me

I feel it dying
inside me