Love is the rain
Love is a sunset
Love is in all nature

Love is pain
Tears washed away
dried up clean
on my face

You must find
and feel true love within yourself

To feel
true love with someone else

now it's all switched around

it was meant for you all along

I said I wasn't going to write
but now I'm sad
and lost

the silk thread we have tied
on our hands
is on tight
pulling us around

we haven't let go
I've had enough

I've never heard silence this loud
it makes me want to crawl
into a hole and hide

I want to forget

I also want to forgive

don't know which you deserve best

I wonder if they have expectations of me
Did they think so highly of me
What do they think of me
Who am i
I tried keeping my distance
I didn’t want any closing
Or friendships
Could’ve kept my mouth shut the whole time

He was friendly
He was nice
He was funny
He was helping
He is not what I thought he was

I’m torn
I hate myself
For trusting a man

I feel stupid and pathetic
innocent and naive

I know i can’t fix anything
If i don’t ask for help

I’m still a coward who wants to run away
My ego is big and I want to prove them wrong
I can’t do both and I can’t do only one

Cooperating
How if i have no reason

I don’t owe them anything
What does anything matter anymore

These past months feel wasteful

I want to throw every memory away

I can still feel his face in my neck

Whispering “do you like it?”