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350 · Aug 2018
Augustus
eileen Aug 2018
Waking up to a storm
Turn away I have to fall back asleep

Happy birthday
It's August

Wake up early
Can't fall back to sleep

This week feels strange
is the moon playing tricks with my mind

I didn't think I would make it to August
Here I am

Confused
What are my goals again?

I could fall asleep around noon
Maybe I'll figure it out tomorrow
350 · Dec 2015
friendship
eileen Dec 2015
Maybe it wasn't
His laugh that I fell for

Maybe it was just His
Humor

Sometimes his looks
Didn't work

But his friendship
Was admirable

& I'll love everything
Of him
Inside out
349 · Dec 2018
I'm so cold
eileen Dec 2018
brush off the cold
I'm old

maybe it's time to wake up
pull off the blankets

so much I love blue
just like you

I deserve
more than this

I should throw out my brain
clean up my skin

no one ever
asked me if I'm okay

and
that's Okay
349 · May 2019
What's Good
eileen May 2019
I shouldn't think about you

I do

I want you to think about me too

I saw you in my dream
Is that okay
I'll ask for your permission

I shouldn't think of you


I do

I do

I hope you do too
346 · Jul 2019
eating green apples
eileen Jul 2019
pennies
and coins
don't make noise

sit a little closer
I can't see
your face

turned away

rain
clouds
you

all I think
is

you
   you  
        you

I know
you won't

I see you
and
I forget the concept of words
and
I lose my tongue

well
thank
you
for charming me
I  
know
it
wasn't
you intention

sit closer
can you see my eyes

well
apples
and
pears

you
        you
                  you


are right here
346 · Mar 2018
wishing well
eileen Mar 2018
I wish you loved me
the way I love you
10w
345 · Sep 2018
En mis sueños
eileen Sep 2018
In my dream world

I would express my feelings to those close to me

My friendships wouldn't end so quickly

I wouldn't be so shy and talk to people I admire

I could climb the ladder to my roof
without being afraid

My writing isn't messy

I have green colored eyes

I'm the one who everyone loves

In my dream world
I live in the dirt with the trees and grass

I asked him
What's in your dream world

/ / /\ / /

I hope he says
Me
344 · Jan 2019
886
eileen Jan 2019
886
Never say I love you
I might say a goodbye
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10w
343 · Mar 2019
Morning star
eileen Mar 2019
I'm the devil's daughter
She tells me don't water the flowers
she told me I burned away my father

I'm still calling out to the sky
I'm still wasting away inside

He says I'm a shadow
I follow everyone around
I'm stepped on

I ask him
What's this darkness
must demons watch over me

I dream of an angel
with beautiful wings
they're not for me
340 · Dec 2019
moon dreams
eileen Dec 2019
I'm waiting for someone to listen
I don't think no one is

feels empty not having anyone on your side

I live in my daydreams
where someone does

I will find the right words
not having someone who understands is torture

days
I wait for nights
to hug the moon close
I feel warmer inside moonlight
eileen Aug 2019
glitter washed down the drain
off like my friends
I forget their names
they know I live in vain
counting my veins
waiting to rip one open

money hungry
I foolishly believed
she'd always love me
never more
counting off what I owe her

he doesn't ask for me
robotic or stoic
he doesn't ask me why I'm crying
driving off
I was feeling manic
he doesn't understand it

you don't know me
wandering
maybe you have the key
if I let you in
will you find me
339 · Feb 2018
pineapples
eileen Feb 2018
we go to the pool when it's raining
seems like nothing is changing
the thunder screamed in fear
I saw lightning in the morning's
day sky
I love a sunny day with drifting clouds aside
I feel just fine
I feel alright
please don't change
go away

I saw a white dove
mixed with black crows

I see it's going to rain
in this sunny day

I saw lightning flash
by with sun

you can't catch me
I'm deep dreaming

I won't be found
339 · Jun 2019
break through
eileen Jun 2019
accidental cuts and burns
are healing

sitting on the edge
jump
quickly then hospitalized

I love it
when you ask me if I'm okay

you lie and tell me
I'll listen to every word you have to say

even if my knees bleed
it's sweet and refreshing

this summer
I'll melt away
forget about
everything

I don't mind

sitting on the edge
looking into the abyss
339 · Sep 2018
Weather
eileen Sep 2018
Never did I imagine myself
living so lonely

That my friends have slowly become
my plants
stray cats
the stars

and the sky

I never imagined
this life
for us

Wherever it takes us
let us hear the rain
survive the heat
and cold

I won't promise
I don't hope

I just want to grow closer
over time

Make memories
for distant days
337 · Oct 2018
Cloudless sulphur
eileen Oct 2018
yellow butterflies
black butterflies heading south
let me go with them
Haiku
337 · Jun 2015
Strange
eileen Jun 2015
the trees moved with the leafs
the air carried everything
darkness in the dark
but there is one shadow
in the light
i was scared
it was so weird
i ran
but it was still there
so so
strange
i couldn't say
nothing but
god please help me
336 · Feb 2018
nebula
eileen Feb 2018
I really love you
So I'm gonna cry
Until you come back
Come back when you're ready

__________

ᴵ ᵃᵐ ᵃᶠʳᵃᶦᵈ ʸᵒᵘ ⁿᵉᵛᵉʳ ᶠᵉˡᵗ ˡᵒᵛᵉ
ᵈᶦᵈ ʸᵒᵘ ᵍᵉᵗ ᵗᵒ ˢᵉᵉ ᵗʰᵉ ˢᵗᵃʳˢ
ᵗʰᵉ ˢᵗʳᵒⁿᵍᵉˢᵗ ʷᶦⁿᵈˢ?
ᵃʳᵉ ʸᵒᵘ ᵒᵏᵃʸ?
ᵈᶦᵈ ʸᵒᵘ ᵍᵉᵗ ᵗᵒ ˡᶦᵛᵉ?
ᵈᶦᵈ ᴵ ᵈᵒ ˢᵒᵐᵉᵗʰᶦⁿᵍ ʷʳᵒⁿᵍ?
ᴵ ʰᵒᵖᵉ ʸᵒᵘ ᶠᵉˡᵗ ᵗʰᵉ ˡᶦᵍʰᵗˢ & ˢᶜʳᵉᵃᵐˢ
ᵈᶦᵈ ʸᵒᵘ ᵍᵉᵗ ᵗᵒ ᶠˡᵒᵃᵗ ᵃⁿᵈ ˢᵗᵃʳᵉ ᵃᵗ ᵗʰᵉ ˢᵏʸ?
ᵈᶦᵈ ʸᵒᵘ ˢʷᶦᵐ ᶦⁿ ᵗʰᵉ ᵒᶜᵉᵃⁿ ᵒⁿˡʸ ᵗᵒ ᵇᵉ ᵖᵘˡˡᵉᵈ ᵇᵃᶜᵏ ᵇʸ ʷᵃᵛᵉˢ?
ᴵ'ᵐ ˢᵘʳᵉ ʸᵒᵘ'ʳᵉ ᵃˡʳᶦᵍʰᵗ
ᵇᵘᵗ ᴵ'ᵐ ʷᵒʳʳᶦᵉᵈ
ᵗʰᵃᵗ ʸᵒᵘ ⁿᵉᵛᵉʳ ᶠᵉˡᵗ ᵐʸ ˡᵒᵛᵉ
335 · Aug 2018
Half dust
eileen Aug 2018
I can see the stars in the rain
Filled with pain
I'm slowly becoming one

You're putting me away
leaving me alone

You can't cover me up with clouds
I'll still shine in the daylight

You're turning away

I'm here to stay
335 · Nov 2019
te dejo ir
eileen Nov 2019
nunca
siempre eres nada

habla
no te quiero ver

eres nada

tal vez

un día

siempre
callados

siempre
eres nada

te necesito
no te quiero ver

no me hables
335 · Sep 2015
Skys
eileen Sep 2015
today the sky was
purple and pink
and in the bottom it was burning
and on the top
it was a blue ocean
everyday it changes
one day there's clouds
or sometimes you can see the stars
and i wish i could live being
in the moon
so i could see the earth from above
but really im down on earth
but i see the sky
and it changes every night
334 · Dec 2019
ʍouʞ I llɐ
eileen Dec 2019
your love is a poison
||||||||
all I know is you
10w
333 · Jan 2018
Service & Sacrifice
eileen Jan 2018
who resides
who's inside
who's within this body of mine

service & sacrifice
wasn't worth my life

lost in my mind
I can't see the outside
it's a dim light

frozen hands

I've lost myself

there's no way back

the thin light
between cracks
falls short

ғʀᴏᴢᴇɴ ʜᴀɴᴅs
-----------------------------------------------------------­---------------------

forget it
forget me
forget it
what's reality

Am I alive
holding in a breath
I don't need to breathe in
toxic contamination

forget me
forget it

ғʀᴏᴢᴇɴ ʜᴀɴᴅs
-----------------------------------------------------------­---------------------

I saw myself
go to sleep

walking out the door
I stood by the window

I'm living in the thousands of memories, past time
I forgot present time

-----------------------------------------------------------­-----------------------------

time is just a concept
the clock ticking can easily be broken
___________________
­
Now that I lost myself completely
an empty body
nameless

misremembered

who I was

-------------------

my final stop
---

Truly no one
Thank You. Happy 2018.
332 · Nov 2019
mujer
eileen Nov 2019
todas las mujeres
somos flores

cuidado
despertamos

caídas
nos levantamos

abierta
es
abierta

todos me entierran

bonita
muy encantadora

pero

las flores

se secan

y todos me dejan
332 · Feb 2019
Light years away
eileen Feb 2019
Him & I
feels like a universe
separates us
apart
332 · Apr 2021
carrie
eileen Apr 2021
you want to be someone else
anyone but yourself

but
everyone is fake

don't go looking for love
in red roses

beauty is ugly
you don't want to understand
what it all means

I'm so afraid
of what your mind is thinking
332 · Jun 2015
child
eileen Jun 2015
Why did you die
I needed you alive
I need your love
And you left me here
Why can't I be with you
Like two diamonds In the sky
I miss your laugh
Everything is gone
I will be waiting for you
All night
331 · Jan 2022
angel boy
eileen Jan 2022
I know he'll never really like me
I'm bad news

he knows it's not worth the risk
there's nothing to lose

this friendship is dying its weak
he knows nothing about me
I can't learn nothing about him

I know I'm distant and cold
he's out of tune
too far to catch

I can't move mountains
or half the sea knowing
he doesn't want to see me

this is obessesion
infatuation
all leading to nowhere

if we're still friends in five years
I hope we've grown together

my wish is to see your face soon
I won't ask you
329 · Jul 2019
bad room
eileen Jul 2019
you taught me
nothing lasts forever

so
young
and
hopeful
10w
329 · Sep 2018
There is love
eileen Sep 2018
The sound of rain
falling on
the ceiling
/ \ \

My ears are hurting
from my recent piercing

I've been ignoring someone
that I know I'll talk to in a few days

The street outside
is flooded

everyone has gone to sleep
and have nothing to dream of

I can hear the rain fall
the puddles with rain drops

There is no storm

no lightning

Just me
and the heavy clouds

Let me sleep now

in a dream full of rain
329 · Jul 2018
Visions
eileen Jul 2018
If I **** myself

I'll miss myself

There is love
Somewhere deep in my heart

I want to wake up next year
I can't feel

Is it too late for love
Putting flowers in my own grave
328 · Oct 2018
Sideways rain
eileen Oct 2018
Snowflakes of rain
falling to my face

An open wall
an open window
open space

Where I see the world
and the world can see
all of me
the dark side
hiding

A breeze
Can they hear me sing

Can I let them in
the lights are out

Slow down
I'm coming down

I never notice
how the clouds form
to create the perfect storm
eileen Dec 2018
˜”°•.˜”°•
winter
                            reminds me of the
death
                      inside me
  •°”˜.•°”˜
328 · Mar 2018
twinkle
eileen Mar 2018
it's been too long
staying here
don't want to go insane
everyone wants my eyes
my mouth
leave me alone
sometimes
the sun is flying around
moons are tired
how many more steps
you're too serious
I want a cloud to keep
sleep away
I want all the flowers
on earth
in my house
everyone is making choke
I can't breathe
anymore
pulling at my head
falling so hard
looks like the sky
is closer
skin burning
I see starlight
328 · Jun 2018
I still love you
eileen Jun 2018
Wish I was your stars
wish I was the moon

No not today
I can't be
not for a second

Can't give myself fully to you
I'm a half moon

I want to give myself to you
Don't take it personal
I'm a mess

I wish I was complete

Love the sun
Love the clouds

You can't love me
I'm a half moon

To the ocean
To the skies

I'm a half moon
I could never give myself fully to you
327 · Apr 2023
exorcist
eileen Apr 2023
fascinated
with things I can't have
things that don't last

I hate it
I hate myself for all the pain I caused

I'm going crazy in my bedroom
still dreaming about you

deleted all the messages
but you're still haunting me

cursed with your absence
addicted to the faded memories

in the theater
on a map
when I look out a window
all I do
reminding me of you

better off dead
than to live forever
in your ghostly shadow
327 · Jun 2018
closed until further notice
eileen Jun 2018
My heart is an open window
Breeze coming in
Sunlight shines
moonlight glows

I have been thinking of you

Now that you're leaving
I'm not prepared to be sad

My heart
is open
for you to stay

I'll close it soon
Won't you come inside

I've loved you so much

--
It's all gone to waste

I don't want your empty love
Please go away
327 · Nov 2018
burning ice
eileen Nov 2018
I feel so numb in this cold
showering in ice
10W
326 · Oct 2019
love triangle
eileen Oct 2019
I love you
I love you
I love you

far far far far
far far away

I can't touch you
I can't touch you
I can't touch you

live inside my phone screen
live inside my computer screen
live inside
online
open a window
close it
offline

I love you
I can't touch you

long distance
ruined
mixed
confusing
feelings

I want you
I want you
I want you

do I have to accept it
accept it
accept it
accept it
do I
do I do I

I can't have you
I can't
I can't I can't I can't I can't I can't I can't I can't I can't
I can

live inside my head
live in the reflection of my eyes
live outside

far far far far far
close by
325 · Apr 2019
break the rules
eileen Apr 2019
you bore me
now I am dead
324 · Apr 2019
moon dog
eileen Apr 2019
I saw you die
I saw your skin melt away
into snow
on the side of the road
are you a moon dog now
I saw your breath
your life
float away into
a distant plane
323 · Apr 2015
Bungalow
eileen Apr 2015
I want to go home
To my real home
The home that I have good memories
The home where I lost everything
I want to sleep in my room
Where I would wake up happy
The home where I had all my family
I know they're gone
But I want to wake up
And remember I had
Everything
323 · Aug 2015
magnolia
eileen Aug 2015
singing all the time
just opening my mind
daydreaming at night
when will I see a stage
do I always have to fight
maybe I see too much light
alone all day
just singing the day
away
finally, the night comes
again
323 · Oct 2019
fabricator
eileen Oct 2019
yes I am a liar
I'm a lot of things

coming clean
isn't me

I keep my secrets stuffed inside my pockets
can't catch me red-handed

you said you love me
that's nothing

would you lie for me
would you ever hate me

I trust everyone
so they can trust me

don't look behind my mask
I always come back
tomie's inside

my poems are rotten
I'm the poisoned fruit

this is my getaway
323 · Jun 2019
falling in hatred
eileen Jun 2019
someone hates me
i love the feeling

hate me a little more
feels euphoric
it's so relieving
come on tell me I'm the one you hate

love it more
love it when you say it

say it to my face

I'll catch that knife you're trying to stab in my back

this isn't the first or last time
323 · Apr 2016
Appearence
eileen Apr 2016
Should i go along
With a fake smile

Or just frown all day
322 · Dec 2015
Lame
eileen Dec 2015
The countdown
The numbers
The screams

No fireworks for me..

Just alone with no one
But myself
Oh how I wish it would change

Of how I could be with family
This day

Yet I'm alone again
322 · Nov 2019
yesterday, today, tomorrow
eileen Nov 2019
another day
I am reminded
you don't care about me

another day
I wonder why me
when will you disappear

another day
another day
I hope these days go away

another day
waiting for this to end
eileen Sep 2019
She's a liar
a fine liar
I believe her

shaking my head
she's just like the rest

followed her footsteps
into it

angels don't help me

there she goes
lying her way through it
she's so gone
I can't save her
so I drown

down
into
this
sea of bitterness

we're so lost
feels all wrong

I learned from the worst

nothing matters

nothing ever matters
with her
321 · Oct 2021
cynic
eileen Oct 2021
just a drop of
cynicism

I hope you love me everyday
I can be the worst somedays

cold
mean
ugly

please wait

I can be

soft
gentle
loving

there's a dark place
I'll always go to

if you come with me
I won't be alone anymore
321 · Nov 2019
eres lo azul
eileen Nov 2019
tú con la camisa azul

aunque te extraño no te quiero ver

estoy triste
tengo que dejarte
crecer

cierro mis ojos
no te quiero ver

duele pensar en ti
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