You're so demure
giving me strange fruits
am I being poisoned

we play chess at
five in the morning
you're always winning
are you cheating

nothing to symmetrical
always parallel
counting our blessings
feeling so worthy

the murmurous people
the ones who appear out the window

you writing is pleasant
I'm so opposite
that's why you don't like me

Cause I'm so in love
Forbidden
Know you'll never get it
I'll just disappear into the night
I'm so in love
Betrayal
Don't care
Having to wait
Hurts a heart
Find me
Where stars blossom
In a nebula
In pink skies
In a blank page
bigger than these bones
I'm not in my head
Feeling so far away
It's like my soul went for a walk
Trying to call it back in
Knowing it's too far
So far

I'm empty
no love

I think I love you

I don't where I'm going

all I hear is your voice singing me to sleep
I hope you never leave my head

I saved a spot for you in my heart

waiting for it be complete

nowadays
I see no life

I'm learning about the world
I'm not learning anything about myself

each day
I **** myself a little more

waiting for an epiphany

you say you want to take me to places

I know we'll go nowhere

the strangers who live in my house
want to stay there forever

the ghost that lived there
even said goodbye

the grass is growing
and the pond gets dry

when will i go there
to live back inside

there's even glass
from the explosion

i can't drive away
so i stay

I'm choking

°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°

We stare eachother
Eating out our appearances
It stays this way for a while

Till finally
You give me to drink
I felt something down my throat
Trying to fly away
Now in my stomach

We touch eachother
Doesn't get better

Side effects
Came through

I'm choking
With all the butterflies
Stuck in body

You stare at me
Nothing helping

Wow
I felt good
A moment ago

Why didn't you help me
Why didn't you choke

Is okay
i'll remember
what's this new posion

You don't really care
Lying to yourself

Can't treat me better
I'm growing older

Trying to not be a bother

Moving out the way

So you can see someone else

I'm still mad over the things you said
Even if years passed

Still kills me inside
Makes me so sad

Sad sounds so small

It's corrupted my whole body

I don't really care
Lying to myself

So consumed
Waiting for the end

Dying with a straight face

hurts when I cry

I know these aren't my last tears

it's only wednesday

I believe I have two hearts

overflowing with anxiety

I fall outside catching my breath

hurts to cry

I won't tell you why

nothing I wish for comes true

maybe I deserve this misery

maybe I don't

don't want your whole life
just want a moment

share this
with me

a memory I can keep
one I will remember forever

every place is temporary
birth and death are permanent

I can't get rid of thoughts
you wish to know everything
regretful wishes you make

you want a fairytale
I can't be your fantasy

wake up
I want you here

if we cherish this
tomorrow will be worthless

comparison kills you
you place yourself so low

pick the petals off me
I look so pretty
till I'm torn apart

hoping for the best
when I feel the worst

I want to open your body
find your emotions
don't let me speak
I want to close your mouth shut
you move so slow
I want to replace your bones

all of my memories with you
don't hug me to sleep anymore

I'm so unhappy
I wonder
did you ever make me happy

was I in love
or lonely

He didn't see her
But it didn't matter

She was in plain sight
No one noticed

Her wish of being invisable
Is real

I won't stop you from saying
what I want you to say

I won't stop you
because it's what I want to hear

a few white lies
won't hurt you

still haven't learned my lesson
still have them all unfinished

all the white lies I tell
become tainted and stained inside out

I wonder
is there somewhere I can love you freely

If you love me let me go
It's told
I don't need you anymore
the rain passed away
sunshine coming in
If you loved me
go away
It's said
you don't need me anymore
if we can't let go of each other
we'll hurt
it hurts
I want to become dust

If you tell me
I'll let you

these walls don't belong to me anymore
It doesn't matter

I've been asleep since yesterday
He says he loves his eyes

Oh my
I'm always reminded

You pick a fight
And I want to wake up

This day never ends
Letting the wind
hug me to sleep

I'm daydreaming
of our beginning

Maybe he should call me next time
I'm still asleep

I can barely see the green

I feel like every word I speak
is random

stay

you're my opposite
you're a lime
I'm a lemon

keep me in the cold

does it ever cross your mind

when it's quiet

when there's no one home
does it ever cross your mind

how I feel
what time I sleep

the old days
where I always followed

does it ever cross your mind

us driving into the horizon
the sunset
rising laughter up our necks

whenever you drive around town

does it ever cross your mind

how life changed so fast

do I ever cross your mind

whenever you shut your eyes

i have a block
in my brain

it's hard to push away
when i try to
write away

12:25
I wonder if you know how loved you are

Driving in the night
You always turn away from the moon
I've spoken with stars
They love you too

I hate leaving you behind
Hoping you'll catch up in time

Echo in my mind
Memories of you & I

I'll miss you
thank you

Remember you are loved

Drive me home with the windows down

Turn around

The moon keeps an eye on you
When you're looking away

Thank you
Remember so many love you

I'll always want to stay

I'll keep on talking with stars

Ask them how you are

You are loved

eres del cielo
vivo en las nubes
la luna nos habla en la noche
no te entiendo piensas en el sol
no conozco tus sentimientos
quiero ver todos tus pensamientos

in the cups I drink from
the clothes I sleep in
the pens I write with
the ties that hold my hair
the jewelry on my ears

the shoes that cover my feet
the bags that hold my things

the socks that keep my feet warm
the nail polish on my fingers

the seasoning in my food
the dolls on my wall

you are my life

you gave me life
you taught me of life
you take it too

you are love
in my heart
the first I ever knew

you are home
no matter where we are
or where we go

in the quiet nights
we slept with the windows open
the nights we kept them closed to cover from the cold

I can still hear your footsteps
up the stairs

coffee in the mornings

love is small and simple

you are my everything

forever and ever

you are everywhere

you're beautifully tainted and flawed

I love you
for reasons I can't say

I wonder how you got inside my heart
I never let you inside

maybe this is love
wish it was stronger
it's weak and falling apart

you're telling me to give up
I wish I could leave you

are we only together and happy
in a fantasy

you're all I want
but that is not enough

I wish I knew what words to say
so you can stay

will anything change your mind

it hurts to know I can't love you

hurts to know
you will leave

you cut me
before I could ever bloom

It's a glitch
I fall asleep
And dream awake
Losing fake friends
They're out looking
For attention
My body malfunctions
Could i fix it
I'm not looking for love
Why do you keep
Knocking on my heart
I hate to see people cry
What do i do
Say hi
Things get sad
Isolate yourself
In the virtual world
Where things seem
Much calm
Not so much anymore
I was hoping for
The world to destroy
It's self
Can't tell what is realiti
I just hear everything out
I don't listen quite well
I don't know what to do
If i see someone cry
I've always cried alone
Should i give them a hug ?

I want to cry
I want to breathe in your air

I want to live in your lungs

your eyes sparkle
I wonder when is the right time

killing myself to understand you

no signs
no life
little time

I want to go home
I wish to be left alone

not many can touch my heart

even when it's open

I'm a loser

I lose everything

I lost you

lost myself too

am I crazy

why did everyone leave

all my dreams were stars

they died

surrounded by black holes

I lost all the stars to the night sky

I lost the sun too

I'm a loser

my lucky coin
said it was going to rain

did you decide not to listen

my arm is hurt
after hugging you all night

I'm draining
all my energy

I really do love you
believe me

my heart
is weakened

how much of me
will you take away
before you leave me
empty and drained

why fear death
when life kills you

- - -

what have I done

this isn't living

I'm holding my breath
I can't reach the surface
I'm still the underwater poet
in my head
overflowing
stop swimming

\ \

what do I do
I'm tired
I won't ask again
how foolish of you
I'm leaving soon
without you

die a little
think about old memories
faster and faster

I'm an *******

I'm only nice
to make you weak

my mother didn't teach me how to love
I was taught well how to be manipulative

I'm the *****
my opinions are never wrong

facts

I don't care if they don't like me
I'm not going anywhere

I'm smiling behind their backs
I never hold the knife

sometimes you need to take advantage of the pity

so small
I can crawl out of sight

so blind
I listen to the whispers

stay on my good side
promise it's better this way

got to take a deep breath
so many things going on
I can't focus

inhale
to realize
you failed

exhale
why didn't you stay here

white dots
in the dark
I felt like improving myself

just a man
I do what I can

There is a reason I never return your calls

I don't have nothing to say
I wish I could forget about you
and all the memories we've made

There's a reason we only text

I can't hear your voice
I have no words to express my feelings
you don't make it easier

There's a reason I can't see you

I'm hurt
I don't want to cry or get mad
It can go both ways

I just don't want your face in my head
I don't want to see you in my dreams

I've been half lucid
half livid

You've become someone else
I have no words
Just a bowl of thoughts

You've never been real
Since day one
I remember the days
where I would try to impress you
nothing would work

I never seem to think about you anymore
only when mentioned

I hope to not see you soon
I don't want your face
Printed in my head

You weren't significant

Lucky me
I don't see you in my dreams

don't message me at all
I feel so much better
ignore me more
forget me too
love me not
promise
it's better this way
look at me in the eyes
I'll show you the worst of me
you're going to realize it's for the best

you're like the moon I'll never wake up to

you hesitate
come inside my dreams
I can't wait forever boy

I'll be leaving soon
tell me you like me too

if you're playing around
quit with all the games

I'm trying to give you my brain
come into my dreams

you'll be relieved
I always find you

I can't wait forever boy

I'm the sun you'll never sleep to

feels like a flower
I just want to touch her hair
glitter in my eyes

love her too little
too much I might break, not safe
it's 1-800 call me

if you ever want
I can hold your hands in mine
I can help you love

I'm looking for someone

somewhere

I can't wake up

I can feel the fan running

Sun is shining

I can hear the rain falling

I'm looking for something

I've never met before

To complete me
To fill me up with life

My past is filled with so much light and shadows

I miss her

He's gone

In a better place


I hope to get there one day

Why are you so afraid ??

I'm just writing out my feelings
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As the year is ending
I remember
What happened
In the beginning
And last year

I want to believe
It gets better

But it's like
I'm lying to myself
Oh I know tomorrow's weather
It's going to rain

It'll be a sunny day

Why can't I repeat today

As december collapses
On my shoulders

I feel myself drain
Somewhere down

I tell myself
Next year will be a change
Everything will be okay

Yet it's like
I'm lying
Promising
Something
Unreachable

I can't get it
I won't make it

Depressed
Laughs
False hope
I carry

Tomorrow
I'll have a ****** nose
The tears I cry
Come from my soul
Background voices
Never go

As I lay awake
In my cold bed

Maybe next year
It'll be different

I just can't feel it

I do love the grass
the pretty flowers that grow on the side
I love the ocean
Seeing the sun so big at sun down

I miss the mountains more
I miss the tree by my room
I miss the sun going down the mountains at sunset
I miss seeing Orion

I do love this

It's just not home anymore

Cause I feel like ****
When you point it out
And I tried my best

It's like you want perfection
And I'm very sorry
I'm the opposite

Then you get mad
We ignore each other
After our fight

But really who's fault is it
I'm shaking
While you want everything