write with love
for love

write out your anger
before it becomes a danger

write out your pain
in case it gets heavy inside your chest

write out your ideas and thoughts that flow in your head
don't lose them
they can become a masterpiece

Always write out
who are you
if you're losing yourself

writing in my dreams
writing in my sleep

I never want to stop myself
from expressing myself

you pulled the words from my head
and threw them far away

I'll get them back

Your only ten miles away
Feels like your farther away

I went up north
Where we could touch the sky

Back
In town
The clouds
Are higher now

Everyone's up in going
Am i doing nothing
Caught up in the music

Everyone's up and going
What am i doing

Feel the rush come in
Gonna change
Myself again

you hear the same sounds
you sound like that one band I heard when locked out

we won't sleep tonight
we'll stay awake talk about everything
we won't wake up in the morning

I fell in love without a warning
when you left me I wondered
where do broken hearts go

I don't want to talk about it
feeling so alone

I won't sleep tonight
I'll see the sun come up again

I have thirty five thousand words stuck in my throat

everything
I can't say

no one ever listens

read me

We try and look for the words
to describe how hurt
the love
our hate
the rare happiness

we feel

but let's be honest
we'll never find it
you'll keep writing

Escaping reality
this is not my real life

My blue life
dark blue

Feel the energy draining from my body

I'm not in my mind

This isn't real life

I forgot the key
to my head

Somewhere in this blue life

I see green

So close to waking up

I'll fall asleep

See I tear off pieces of skin from my fingers
I never let it grow
Nor heal itself
I shower for too long
My hair is messy
People never admit they don't like me
I always wonder
Am I too happy
Am I too sad
Why aren't I enough
I keep going back for more
Pulled into the vicious darkness

I keep biting off my skin
bleeding till I become numb
I stay in the shower for hours

I just want to know
Do they like me

i dislike
how good of an actress
i am

no one can
tell the
fake happiness

and fake crying
laugh

it's all prepared

V

__

Look at me

-------------
I hate it when you look
Don't stare at me
I hate it
_

Choke the air out your lungs
Your hair keeps changing
I'm confused
____

Open your eyes
Have you seen mine
I'm telling you a story

Midnight
She saw an alien
It looked just like herself

----------------
V

You keep thinking like someone else

Moving things at night

Sleepwalker

You've become Someone else

Lost in the dream world

____

Open your eyes

//////////////////////////////////////////////////

Nevermind
Don't come back

I embrace ａｌｌ your
s i n s
will you do the s̲a̲m̲e̲

I was at the window
She was at the door

I smiled
She waved

What a beautiful day

there's no theme to my pain
there's no way to explain
there's no metaphor or hyperbolic
message to translate

i'm just throwing it up
for you to see
my blood and guts
all over the floor
careful don't slip and fall

i don't tie up my sadness
with pretty bows
and my anxiety isn't cute

it's not a fictional story
it's not a test for popularity
i don't hide the meaning

a memory i can't erase
if you're reading this
please take it from me

when i wrote those words
i wasn't lying
i really felt like dying

give me your sadness
give me your flaws
I'll swallow them down
I'll hate myself
drinking down my tears
I can't take this

your flaws
my sadness
goodbye
I'm not fine
it's okay
I'm so fine
I lie
our love is a lie

so easy to hate you
never a time to love you

everyone is laughing at me

out loud
inside their heads

everywhere I go
I see the look in their eyes

I'm pathetic
I know

Alone
behind doors

I stay away

I never hurt others
I only hurt myself

everyone is watching me
everyone is talking about me

I'm a disappointment
I'm not what they expected

I'm not who they want me to be

Only in my world
Do you hear the birds sing at night

the moon comes out
in the daytime
You can see a galaxy around five

Only in my eyes can you
See a red sky
Flames are the clouds
it's raining
Ashes

Beneath the walls
Under the harden paint
There's an alien

picked a hole in the sky
swallowed up
turnover
I run with the clouds
falling with rain

I told myself it'll get
better
better
better

I heard you say

cloudy day
the clouds are running
we run far
to the other side

it's better
better
better

will it rain today
will it rain today
will it rain again

I heard you say

it's different

farther
farther away

we run
fall
reach the screaming sun
stealing the golden light

Walking in the forest of life
For that I'll always see darkness
And light

Today isn't my day

It's those days
Where the pool doesn't
Get shade

The sundries
The water out

And I'm having trouble
Staying
Below the water

I get so dizzy
And weird feeling
As if I need
To Choke

It's a day
Where I just float

My back facing the sky
And I'm staring
Into the
Deep pool floor

my eyes are burning
when the lights reach them

i went shopping
got lots of stuff

he has his
city family

never picks up
the phone
for his own blood
children

yeah i know he
doesn't care
and i wish i could
spit out fire words
to the phone

i crawl into
a shell once
i hear his voice

i'm probably traumatized
it doesn't matter to
anyone though

because i should
learn to get up
on depressing days
and practice fake happy

no one takes anything
personal

if i was on the verge of death
we would forget about it
in a few weeks

go on with life
not even bothering
with what's going on
in our heads

pick up the phone
and hear the haunting voices
that talk problems

while having a nightmare
around 7 o clock

cracked telephone

doesn't even call me
anymore

There was a time
when I asked questions

I received answers

Now such thing is a disaster

Keep my thoughts to myself
locked in a box

I'm a heavy cloud
waiting to rain down

darkness reigns
inside me

living in a butterfly dream

There's a constant storm in my ear

We all love in good nature

I live in silence

The day has come
We finally know
The day you'll be out
To come home


December 30th
Come fast
Run into my arms

Because finally my brother will be home

And I know
There's little things
To ruin my day

But I think
I'll have a smile on my face

Almost out
Almost home with us

quiet down
hideaway
no one likes to talk about death

fresh music
new songs

inspiration in each lyric

poetry
pounds around in my head

I get tired of writing
disposable feelings

I'm the only ghost in this house
trying to find heaven
from the windows

if i look away
i'll lose you again

you said together
we'll be forever

but that only lasted at night
the mornings were lonely

you career never fit in mine
we had our ways far apart

miles away
calls on hold

your life went on
and mine did too

but if i ever see you again
maybe we can talk

and maybe in another world
we be together forever
like you said

feed me false fantasies
I know nothing is ever going to happen
fairy tales aren't real
I'm still looking after you

our love is temporary
everything with you is an ending
all I want
is for you to give me a reason
to begin

leave that room
leave that house
leave that virulent love

I love you
I love you

you can't love me good

I've gotta hold myself back
I don't want to look at
you

I'm tempted
I'm wasted
thinking about
you

how quickly you disappeared
will you remember me if I stand near
you

giving up was hard
moving on is harder
I only wanted to keep you longer

I can't let you go
I can't leave

you're the one holding me
I want to pull you closer

these confusing dreams
insanity follows me awake

you
I can't see
I can't give up

you
in my thoughts
in my skin

you
disappear into my mouth
love me in hidden ways

I'm so tired
so are you

let's talk soon

I kept the scissors behind my back

you hurt me till the very end

I stopped growing in 2017

what does it matter now

want to know all my secrets
I run the streets
in the pouring rain
june isn't what I expected

faced my seasonal depression
it's welcomed inside my room

now I dream every day
of a strange day
I can't remember

I put my pain inside a bottle
Drink it up
another swallow

I'm night
You're day

Stuck sharing the same day

Wishful sleep

Sleep away the sleepiness
sleep away the heartache

I felt that this love could be permanent

Waste of space
Worthless bones

A little to curious of the afterlife

I wouldn't want to come back

the water pressure changed
i guess im not the same

thinking of ways to stay sane
catching up with it
it runs away again

no one can feel it
i got a bad feeling
of what's to come

all i know is i must hold on
till i see the other end

stay intact
stay intact
stay intact

i should attack
attack all my demons
all these distorted voices

i hear the pressure change
and my blood is heating up

i can't turn back time
try and remember a good life

it's not here

i try
to stay intact
stay intact
but all i do is attack
attack

i can't find reasons to stay alive

when all this pressure
crushes me
i can't breathe

can't stay still
can't eat well

losing all my smiles

and my heart is weak

there's a new day ahead
try and change my mind
before i lose it

lately
I need to squint

closer the closer I get
I should go

I'm starting to see all my flaws
so I take my glasses off

I've been up and down
you pull me back
I'm trying to leave

lately
I'm start to realize
everything that's wrong
will I change or stay the same

I know we were friends
this distance is killing me
I have no patience to wait for you

I liked him
he was so transparent
could never hide away
I would always find him

all these pretty faces
I can't fake it
if I give you my name
will you take it

lately
in my timeless bedroom
the silence feels peaceful
I'm alone I'm okay

it's fine if I cry underwater
if I let my tears fall
they won't notice
mixed with salt

I invite the cold inside my room
this november rain
missing you hurts

come into my world
let's stay in wonderland

my hands are falling off
I can't hear the sound
thinking about you is the worst

leaving first
you won't stay
loving you hurts

yellow roses
in my coffee

thinking of you
if I call you back
I'll keep dreaming

I don't want to be in love with you
for so long

I know that the feelings never last forever

water so cold
by the morning so warm

I don't want to know if you love me or not

there are clouds in my
glass of milk

dreamy little star

it's back on
time to overflow
into this white screen
couldn't hear me scream

it's online
we're back
can it stay this way
much longer stay a little longer

I don't hear the bells ring
we crawl into empty spaces all of my words
wait wait we wait a while longer going offline again

hello poetry is dead
a ghost we come back to now and then
days change out of place let it overflow we won't go

our poetry will always come back to life

so materialistic
I wish you'd find other ways to love me

New years
New times
New memories in time
All you see is the same
But all you have to do is change
Different people
Different things
It's not the same day
Not  always yesterday
We will see it's 2016
And those who live
Are lucky
And those who die
May rest in peace
We shall move in a good direction
And go up only

Happy holidays
Happy dreams
Live your days  happy

I sleep with coins under my pillow
so I'll have rich dreams

when I wake up I wish you weren't beside me
this is to be taken seriously
something so deadly
and delicate

I don't love you anymore
once you know
you'll turn dangerous

my heart no longer
lives underwater
it's floating
up the surface

you were trying to drown it

Wish you the best in life
Even though mine isn't so fine
I'm going through a bumpy ride

I'm sure you got it much better
It doesn't matter

This cruel life
makes me stronger

There's a little window
In my bathroom
That lets me see a piece of
The sky
Cloudy or the starry night
It permits air to flow in
Giving me the fresh scent
Of the trees

While taking a bath
I stare at the sky
The blue is fading
Clouds taking it away

Reminds me there's bigger things than my head

I find it so satisfying

I can form a poem

In my head

Then i come on here

And the ideas erase

The feeling goes away

I can whoever I want to be

I don't need your opinion
you'll always be ignored

I can be whoever I want

I'll love whoever I want
I'll do whatever I want
I'll go wherever I want
I'll leave whenever I want

I'll be whoever I want

you don't need to say something

I know there's someone out there like me

I'm not special
I'm not unique
I'm not weird
I'm not different
I'm not anything they want me to be

I'm not alone
we're not alone

Yoh stand alone

no se qué decir
ya me voy para siempre

rotos
me siento mejor

ahora aprende vivir sin mí
rotos estamos mejor

quiero hablarte
decirte mucho mas
pero las palabras no sale de mí

no tengo nada
no regresó hoy

porque rotos
estamos mejor

si me quieres
aprende
y deja me ir


I can't lie
I miss you so much

I miss the bittersweetness

I miss it all

Dreaming alone
with no one to hold
I feel refreshed moving clouds floating west
There's nothing to worry about right now
Tomorrow my millions of worries
slowly creep inside my body
for when I wake up
I'll brush my teeth
I've not noticed
the sun is missing

this is my trauma I'm
so tired of the constant lies
feeling deprived of life