you should try being happy sometimes
you were always sad
never heard you laugh
or see you smile

miserable and lonely
I didn't want to be an ear

something good can work
unfortunately we didn't

you told me a story
I didn't listen to the last part

I've been thinking
was I too mean
to leave
was it too impulsive

I gave you a song
you will keep it forever

you gave me a song
I kept it to myself

it's a bittersweet ending
but I'm happy

collections
eyes

words
ears

drafts
mouths

all of the things
I can't tell

I always write in my head
never out loud

scared someone will hear a sound
what if they find out

closing my journal
keeping myself in the dark

hidden
noses

time goes by
everything changes
I stay still

pens running out of ink
it's 2 am I can't sleep

I'll stay forever stay dumb and naïve
won't teach myself a thing

this is home
if I go anywhere else

what will I find out in the unknown

please stop saying goodnight
then I know you're gone

you never come back

please come back

make it last

I'm tired of losing
tired of missing

I want more of you
am I greedy

I have no world
let me inside yours

sólo recuerda
te quiero
tanto

sufro suficiente
pero lo haga todo los días

caminamos
different caminos

te extraño
recuerda
te quiero

te pido
que no te olvides

las mañanas
y noches
llenas de tristeza

mi primer amor
me cerraste el corazón

estas aquí

tu fantasma
esta allí

no vuelvo
ser como antes

regresando contigo
igual como siempre

in the cups I drink from
the clothes I sleep in
the pens I write with
the ties that hold my hair
the jewelry on my ears

the shoes that cover my feet
the bags that hold my things

the socks that keep my feet warm
the nail polish on my fingers

the seasoning in my food
the dolls on my wall

you are my life

you gave me life
you taught me of life
you take it too

you are love
in my heart
the first I ever knew

you are home
no matter where we are
or where we go

in the quiet nights
we slept with the windows open
the nights we kept them closed to cover from the cold

I can still hear your footsteps
up the stairs

coffee in the mornings

love is small and simple

you are my everything

forever and ever

you are everywhere

every time I look at myself I see you

am I your puppet
or are you mine?

I can't find the exit
acting like you're wasted
you know exactly what you're saying

did you find your reason to exist
made a list

don't hate me
turning cold

I feel sick
painfully hurt

I hope you rest soon
left you inside

want you to cry
can you love
did you see it all

everything I give
so I can receive

I'm going to make you suffer

you deserve it

I like it

don't try and run away

the lies you fed me

easy to pick apart

when you broke my heart

I knew better

pulled myself together

I'm going to pretend

just like you did

shadows follow you

haunting your dreams

revenge is all I need