they made you of
the things they fed you
you choose
NO
they made you choose
from the options
they provide
and they think
they build you up
NO
you build you
from the limited options
you build you
and you keep on building
until they expand your option
until you get your own opinion
you. build. you

have you killed yourself
in your mind
for once
is it normal?
or maybe isn't
i killed myself
everyday
at the exact time
i hang myself
at the same place of this house
in my mind
to make me sleep
to fall asleep
it's not normal
isn't?

2:14 in the morning
Haven't slept for three days
My eyes are heavy
My thoughts are crazy
Regrets
Mistakes
Judgments
Happy moments
Sad ones
Things I wish I did
Things I don't know why I did
My eyes are heavy
I need my thoughts to be empty
Then
I touched myself down there
It's wet
I keep on caressing
Like someone was touching
And I know I'm almost there
Until I see myself
Hanging on the ceiling
On the rest room
On the kitchen
But I'm almost there
Until I see blood
In my head
In my wrist
A slit on my neck
And my eyes are heavy
And I'm almost there
The next thing I know
It's 2:14 in the morning
The next day after.

Patawad
bàoqiàn
Lo siento
gomen nasai
Pardon
Es tut uns leid
joesonghamnida
Syngnōmēn ékhe
Prosti!
Sorry

For the suicidal thoughts again
Self, hang in there.