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mumu Aug 2020
2:14 in the morning
Haven't slept for three days
My eyes are heavy
My thoughts are crazy
Regrets
Mistakes
Judgments
Happy moments
Sad ones
Things I wish I did
Things I don't know why I did
My eyes are heavy
I need my thoughts to be empty
Then
I touched myself down there
It's wet
I keep on caressing
Like someone was touching
And I know I'm almost there
Until I see myself
Hanging on the ceiling
On the rest room
On the kitchen
But I'm almost there
Until I see blood
In my head
In my wrist
A slit on my neck
And my eyes are heavy
And I'm almost there
The next thing I know
It's 2:14 in the morning
The next day after.
mumu May 2020
Today is a normal day
Just like yesterday
It's sunny
All colors are flashing
But, nothing strikes at me
Just like yesterday
The feeling is the same
Boring
Lifeless

I've been sick for so long
It's inside, you know
There is a hollow
I am trying to patch
They say cry for help
And there is
But no one will understand
Will you understand?
If I choose Z
From my A-Z plan
Will you understand?

Today is a normal day
Just like yesterday
But, today will be different
Still boring
And then
Lifeless
I've been thinking, if someone wanted to commit suicide, let them. It is something that they have think of, that they have chosen from the choices they have. Let them die if they want. And you are not accountable for the loss, neither them.

I'm not promoting suicide, I'm not also telling you to do it, but out of all the choice you have, why will you choose it?
mumu Apr 2020
Patawad
bàoqiàn
Lo siento
gomen nasai
Pardon
Es tut uns leid
joesonghamnida
Syngnōmēn ékhe
Prosti!
Sorry

For the suicidal thoughts again
Self, hang in there.
Lately, I'm having my suicidal thoughts again, without any triggers. This lockdown is giving me so much anxiety. I hope this already ends as well the pandemic may have the cure.
Take care everyone
mumu Apr 2020
This is world

In the eye of no one
In the eye of 22

Kindness is selective
If I benefit more from you
I'll lend a hand

Children are matured
Adults have tantrums
Both get hurt
With stupid words

I bow not to respect
I bow to check
My phone vibrates
Then rang twice
***? Cool!

She loves him
She loves her
He loves him
This is love

The world is not dark
More than I thought
It's a colorful rainbow

It is not good
It is not bad

This is world
mumu Apr 2020
Restless
In this war where enemy can'tsee
Something out there is scary
Should I breathe?
Should I touch?
If I cry
Will I die?

Restless it is
In the comfort of your home
You're still restless

When you close your eyes
You drown
When it is open
You frown

You sleep all day
And wake up tired
You're awake all night
And still tired

Restless
This is how the world
Rest
Hi all, I know this is such a hard time for all of us due to COVID-19. Anxiety is high, I know, but, please check your mental health and be healthy I guess.
Don't forget to wash your hands as well!
mumu Feb 2019
I like how we became
As stranger, as a friend, as a lover

I like how you speak
    You make me smile, you make me laugh
Are you catching my attention?

I like those late night walks
    And those non sense talks
Slow down your pacing, or this trip will end

I like how the back of our hands touches
    Without knowing, it intertwined
It looks so cute together

I like those warm hugs and head kisses
    It feels like home
A lovely home

I like you
    The way I like the moon and stars
May we make this last.
You are my best decision. No regrets. I love us. ❤
mumu Jan 2019
Never hesitate
When the back of our hands touches
Do you feel the urges?
Hold my hand
Hold me tight
Don't let go
Never let go
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