avy: Poems

avy Apr 2018

I cant wait for true love to come
Love that completes me
Love that makes me happy
Love that makes me feel like I'm worth it

I cant wait for this pain to disappear
For depression to stop
For my anxiety to give me a break
For problems to stop coming back

I cant wait for paradise to come
A peaceful place..
No war, no racism, no gender inequality
A place where everyone is happy

I cant wait for death
Because I know Heaven is the only place
The only place where all of these can happen
Death is the only solution

No Longer

avy Apr 2022

No Longer

My rest is no longer you and I together
You were my moon that turned into a meteor
You, my personal happy pill, became the reason to my breakdowns

Please, tell me my love,
What shall I do?

Neither of us willing to let go
You refuse to set me free
I am unwilling to hurt you

Tell me darling,
Will all this pain be worth it in the end?

October 15, 2021

avy Oct 2021

October 15, 2021

waking up
dried tears, puffy eyes

i've done it again
cried myself to sleep with guilt in my heart

the guilt coming back every time i think of you

You're a king
yet i treated you like a servant

i broke your heart
yet you're still here

why must you stay?
why do you still like me?

please i'm begging you
Hate me

ready

avy Oct 5

ready

you've told me that you aren't ready
that it wasn't because of me

but readiness is not a feeling you can't control
its a decision you make

maybe I'm just not worth being ready for

Same thing, All over again

avy Sep 30

Same thing, All over again

the patterns
the behaviors
the words said

they’re all so familiar
it’s as if I’ve seen them before

my past relationships
all so similar to ours

the inconsistency
the lies
the uncertainty

all of which are unhealthy
and yet I find it hard to leave

despite the pain,
the tears,
the traumas

I stay

mayhap I do love you

skunk

avy Feb 2021

skunk

i would love to be a beautiful butterfly
i would love to go around the world and fly
If this happens i would cry
i may even give the world a second try

i am just a skunk with high dreams
My only friends are the trees
The forest sets me free
But when humans see me..

The self hatred begins

People stay away from me
Because of the fragrance that i excrete
A piece of dung is something my fragrance can beat
Even a bath can’t set me free

Nothing can set me free

Toxic

avy Aug 2018

Toxic

Darling,
Experiencing all these things with you was a great experience, however
Problems couldn’t be avoided,
Regrets were made,
Equality was never obtained
Sorry for saying this my love but
Staying with you caused me more problems
Infused with toxic,
Our relationship will not last
Now that I have told you this,

please let me go

Used

avy Sep 27

Used

And then I realized

I'm not someone you remember in the good times
I become no one when you have everyone

suddenly, when things go south

I'm the one you seek
Your everything for a brief moment

It all disappears as soon as it arrived

The attention and care
Although meaningless to you
Is appreciated by me

I'm being used, I'm aware
Don't worry, I'm leaving

You cant love me

avy Oct 2016

You cant love me

My heart aches
I can't stand it
You can't love me
Like I love you

Everyday I think of you
Your smile, your face
Everything about you
Makes me happy

Yet we can't be together
My love for you
Is shattered
Like glass

Everyday when I see you
I remember the past
Your happy smiles
Makes everyday worth while

But past is past
I'm someone who came and went
Like a rain shower to you
You can't love me

Your Birthday

avy Oct 2016

Your Birthday

Why celebrate your birthday with tears in your eyes?
Tears saying your sad
Those tears must not come out because of heartaches
Those tears must come out because your happy

Celebrate your birthday with someone special
Someone that means the world to you
Someone that will never give you heartaches
Heartaches that can devastate and **** you

Celebrate it with friends
Friends that will add a smile to your face
Friends that never hurt you
Friends that are true

Celebrate it with food
Food that will make those tears disappear
Food that may not taste good
But is made out of love

Celebrate it with gifts
Gifts from the heart
Gifts that does not hide secrets
Secrets hidden by tape

Happy Birthday to whoever is reading this specially my brother

#love #friends #food #birthday #gifts

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