subconsciously you’re always there, bleeding into my words like you’re entitled to those as well… it’s as if the grip on my heart was not enough for you, so you grasped onto my brain and made my thoughts your own.
my throat swells like the ocean tides of tears and salty sea spray with the pressure of waves my eyes well until filled to the brink they leak streams of sadness cascading down my face
i like to eat my thoughts filling my stomach so it’s full with words until it talks and says the stuff i will not sugar coating my feelings to make them easy to digest but the sweetness goes away leaving a bad taste and regret
in circles we go like clockwork i fall for you but you’re so far above me so i move on you wait for me to fall again and i always do, expecting you to catch me but you leave and wait for me to catch up again like clockwork we go in circles
drink it down another laced crown woven around your head eyelids heavy as lead body feather light floating above the night things are blurring words are slurring little dress alluring no regrets at least not yet fading in and out lip gloss pout inhibitions like heels; long gone partying until dawn
on the corner of bell i questioned who i was in comparison to this big city i’m an ant on the bus trying not to get squished i stood next to the space needle and it felt infinite while i was momentary i was lost like a penny that rolled into the streets worthless and forgotten seattle’s a drain and i’m going down drowning
your insecurities have made you careless, wreckless even. you’re searching for something that’ll make you feel better about yourself but what you have found has actually made you lose yourself I don’t see what i saw in you anymore because it’s lost so i think i must go as well because i can’t stay and watch while you continue to disappear
you showed up in my life uninvited i wanted you then and you knew it too but i couldn’t have you so i let go only for you to show up again uninvited this time you wanted me and i fell for you harder than ever because i still couldn’t have you i can never have you but you just keep showing up uninvited and now, i need you.
i wish the rain would wash me away to a place unknown and drown my sorrows like the sidewalks into the drains i would go watering down the lines of reality until the sun came out again there’d be nothing of me remaining only the memory of water
my freckles fall in constellations like stars sprinkled across my face they dot every inch of my skin like marks on a map trace them tenderly from my arms to my tummy making patterns i can feel your final destination will be my heart
i always shy away from human contact wondering why my skin is sensitive to the touch but then i remember what is easily stolen is not so easily replaced and for my mind and body that thought is too much
i search for myself in the words that i write but i get lost in thoughts too many words, phrases, ideas, and concepts. the plot thickens - i cannot see over the letters i search for meaning and find more questions in this maze called poetry
when i see you i see trees because of all the paper you’ve caused to be wasted when i hear your voice i hear the scratching of a pen and i think of all the ink that’s been spilled in your honor when i think of you i think of a ******* bin full of notebooks with all the poems you’ll never read about the first time i saw you and i tried to capture your face on paper about the first time i heard your voice and i wasted ink trying to describe it about how i think of you and i still fill up notebooks with poems you’ll never read.
wishing i could compile all the thoughts that have ever crossed my mind into something tangible but my disorganized mind has no time to stop and correct or make sense because the next stream of consciousness comes along like a full speed train with no conductor and i’m tied to the tracks all signs pointing to the fact i put myself there but don’t forget who gave me the rope bound my wrists and left me for dead