Meilisa Ananda

Meilisa Ananda Aug 2019

We keep putting words into each other's mouths
We choke ourselves with smoke that came out of our heads as we get each other's dander up
We smother ourselves with so much self-blame
We drown ourselves in the tears that we cried away from each other's sight
We wish to hand each other roses but their thorns sinks deep into our fleshes instead
We cup each other's mouths as we try to speak our minds

We love too deep that we barely even notice the poison we're handing each other
We love too deep that we barely even notice how badly we're doing it

it's the wrong kind of love, but we're both too scared to let go

#toxic #relationship

Meilisa Ananda Jul 2018

Left Unsaid #2

I spent so much of me loving you
I spent so much of me wishing you were here with me, though I know you're wishing you were somewhere else with someone else
I spent so much of me writing poems about you
I spent so much of me singing songs about you, you were the one behind all of my doleful melodies
I spent so much of me hoping you'd check on me for at least just a little while
I spent so much of me waiting for you to come back, though I swear I know you won't ever
I spent so much of me for you

Yet it seemed crystal clear to me that I'm not worth even just a second of all the time you've got

#time #love

Meilisa Ananda Oct 2016

Left Unsaid #1

i have complete organs
yet i still wish to stand on somebody else's feet
i have the warmest blanket
yet i still wish to wake up on somebody else's bed
i have beautiful eyes
yet i still wish to see the world
in somebody else's pupil
i have a beautiful voice
yet i still wish to scream in somebody else's pitch

this is the world
this is the reality
social media
they taught us to love ourselves
but then make fun of our insecurities
it's like telling a flower it's beautiful
and then decided to pick it
and leave it turning brown on the ground
why does it always has to be this way?

#unsaid

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