Marrisa

Marrisa Nov 2022

Flow

You’d let yourself bleed a river
before you’d even let a drop
fall from someone else.
You did it for them and now
you’re trying to do it for me too.
Don’t you know?
You matter
just as much of the rest of us.
It’s okay that I’m hurting.
You don’t have to bandage me up.
Maybe I want to bleed too.

Marrisa Sep 2021

BooHoo

feelings of drowning
with thoughts and images
pounding in my head
the steady stream
of words
“it’s okay”
“I’m fine”
“don’t worry”
no one knows
the urge to be dead
the better off
without me speech
can’t wrap it around their minds
you’re out of yours
and they’re wasting time
soon you’ll be gone
and once you go
there’s no coming back
no more
boohoos

Apr 2021

Hannah

some nights

some nights anxiety wins
and i'm left a
withering, melting mess

of holding back tears and
an aching in my heart
and sheer helplessness

do i want the night to end
or perhaps a reset, a redo
so i can claim it back for myself

but tonight i've lost

fighting a war on multiple fronts, and im ****** struggling, i need a 24 hour inconsequential day so ******* badly

#tired #anxiety #heart

Marrisa Apr 2021

oh to be

I want to believe that I’m happy.

I want to blend in,
not stick out,
not judged,
but loved.

I convinced everyone
of my thoughtful disguise,
of my pretending lies,
of the person I wish I was.

but here I am,
unable to hide from myself.
the truth unknown to all
but it haunts me.

Oh, to be good enough
without having to lie.
what a dream life
that would be..

Apr 2021

Benzene

SHE

love is the thing she need
but the world  has it's own greed

her eyes say it all
every time a drop of tear falls
every pain she recalls

everyone say she writes poetries  very deep
but no one know  her tear is the ink ,
her pain is her inspiration to write
that's why she cry to make herself sleep

one day she'll bounce back
and give the answer of your all attack
till then wait for her comeback.

may be I used this title many times .
Hope you all doing well
stay safe
because corona in your area

Marrisa Jan 2021

It's Fine

I will never forgive you entirely
because I will never be able
to understand why you
acted the way you did
and that’s something
I’ve learned to be okay with

Marrisa Jan 2021

Limited

you made me feel
as if I was too much,
that nobody could ever
love all of me,
but the truth is
you simply did not
want to take the
time to