I miss my old childhood room. With its dim lights and creaky bed. Turning off the lights and opening my old macbook. The fan inside it blowing hard and much too loud for two in the morning. I miss loading up a blocky game that lagged a little too much. Calling my friends on my phone and speaking in hushed shouts. Sneaking downstairs to grab a few cookies, making sure not to step on the fourth step (that's the one that creaked) and making sure not to crinkle the cookie package too much. Returning back to my room, placing both hands on the keys and forgetting about tomorrow. Playing that game with my friends until I finally noticed the sun peaking through my blinds and the warmth returning to the room. Hanging up the phone before my parents awoke and finally climbing under the covers. I miss my old childhood room and all the memories encased in its walls.
I long for a time I can never reach again.
A time that is slowing slipping through my fingers.
A time that is fading from my memories.
Taking its warmth and serenity with it.
And it is only now that I realize I should have appreciated it more.
You're the kind of person I
want to lay on the grass with.
See shapes in the clouds and
feel the gentle breeze with.
You're the kind of person I want
to go on late night drives with.
Have the windows down and
listen to blaring music with.
Doing whatever, whenever.
Always and forever.
I want to make you smile always.
Silly jokes reduce me
to a mess of giddy smiles
and simple words have
my heart running in circles.
All of a sudden
my heart feels lighter
and I feel like myself again.
I think you're the one
I've been looking for all along.
I'll finally reach your retreating back,
and maybe we can walk together again.
I hope one day I get to see you happy again.
While you were only in my life for a short time,
you made me happy and that's hard to forget.
I see now that it wasn't either of our faults.
Sometimes two people are only meant to be
in each others lives to teach a lesson.
I have one final message to you before you become a memory:
Go. Live on. Be happy and do all of the things you wanted to do.
Even if it's not with me, even if I'm no longer by your side.
For once, live your life for you and don't worry about anyone else.
Find love, make mistakes, and feel every emotion out there.
And maybe one day we can meet again and smile.
Even the smallest moments make us happy.
All you did was compliment my necklace
and yet for a second I believed I was someone
who was worth compliments. Thank you.
Today I cried just as I did this time last year.
Except I cried then for a broken heart and a lost love.
This time I cried because I'm finally happy.
As I finally pushed the block button
I felt the weight of us falling off my shoulders.
I hope we can find each other in this life.
And if not, then I'll wait for you in the next.
Would you believe me
if I said that you're my Eternity?
When I think of my future,
I no longer think of you.
When I think of my future,
I think of me smiling, free, and happy.
When getting out of bed isn't so hard
When eating isn't just a chore
When going outside isn't scary
When seeing you doesn't hurt
When being happy is natural
When life feels worth living again.
I wish I had a screen protector
around my heart
to save me from the fall
that was you.
When people ask why I stayed so long,
the only thing I can think of is:
The only future I saw for myself
was one with him in it.
find comfort in listening to music
indulging in the melodies
and how they warm your soul.
When I think of you, I see a future
You're my forever.
Your love is like sunsets and forever.
I know the path I take will be hard
but I will run until I find who I
I know I will find the old me
happy, silly, and perfect
right where I left myself
and I hope that girl can forgive me
for not loving who I was.
To me, you feel like watching a sunset
and bathing in its warmth.
In the battle between me
and my self-hatred
you're my swallow.
My favorite sight
is you being happy.
You make me want to get better.
And for once, I believe I can.
And just like that, I began looking for you everywhere I went.
You know you're falling when you look at them
and think "I'm finally home."
I've found that the most beautiful thing we can learn
is to love who we are, not who we want to be.
You were once my light,
but now I've found that I can be my own sun.
I've fallen for you like lyrics from a singer's mouth.
I can find a part of you in every love song.
I no longer have to search and search for good things
each day, I can finally find them in myself.
It’s to the point where I feel like a terrible person for trying to be happier.
Just because I’m the one who broke things off
Doesn’t mean my heart didn’t break with it too.
I’m scared to delete our pictures and box up our memories. I feel like if I erase you, I’ll erase a part of me too.
I hope my hands can one day hold
a empty heart and fill it with love.
To you who feels like the world is against you,
You Deserve To Be Loved.
For the first time in a while,
I was able to look at myself
and think, I love you.
I think I'm finally starting to love the person I am.
Not the person I want to be.
You told me you fell in love
hard and fast.
It's funny how you fell out of love
like that too.
If I'm the one who taught you how to love,
does that mean
I'm the one who taught you how to fall out of it, too?
He looks at you as if
you were an art piece.
I wish you could see yourself
like that too.
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I'm scared that if I let you
into my heart, you'll leave
behind footprints that my
tears can't wash away.
No one is truly gone
if you still carry them
with you in your
Every time I look into
your chocolate eyes,
I'm reminded of my
my new favorite color.