I miss my old childhood room. With its dim lights and creaky bed. Turning off the lights and opening my old macbook. The fan inside it blowing hard and much too loud for two in the morning. I miss loading up a blocky game that lagged a little too much. Calling my friends on my phone and speaking in hushed shouts. Sneaking downstairs to grab a few cookies, making sure not to step on the fourth step (that's the one that creaked) and making sure not to crinkle the cookie package too much. Returning back to my room, placing both hands on the keys and forgetting about tomorrow. Playing that game with my friends until I finally noticed the sun peaking through my blinds and the warmth returning to the room. Hanging up the phone before my parents awoke and finally climbing under the covers. I miss my old childhood room and all the memories encased in its walls.

I long for a time I can never reach again.
A  time that is slowing slipping through my fingers.
A time that is fading from my memories.
Taking its warmth and serenity with it.
And it is only now that I realize I should have appreciated it more.

You're the kind of person I
want to lay on the grass with.
See shapes in the clouds and
feel the gentle breeze with.

You're the kind of person I want
to go on late night drives with.
Have the windows down and
listen to blaring music with.

Doing whatever, whenever.
Always and forever.

I want to make you smile always.

All of a sudden
my heart feels lighter
and I feel like myself again.

I think you're the one
I've been looking for all along.

I'll finally reach your retreating back,
and maybe we can walk together again.

I hope one day I get to see you happy again.

While you were only in my life for a short time,
you made me happy and that's hard to forget.

I see now that it wasn't either of our faults.
Sometimes two people are only meant to be
in each others lives to teach a lesson.

Even the smallest moments make us happy.

I hope we can find each other in this life.
And if not, then I'll wait for you in the next.

Would you believe me
if I said that you're my Eternity?

When people ask why I stayed so long,
the only thing I can think of is:
The only future I saw for myself
was one with him in it.

Some people
find comfort  in listening to music
indulging in the melodies
the words,
the feelings,
and how they warm your soul.

When I think of you, I see a future
You're my forever.

Your love is like sunsets and forever.

I know the path I take will be hard
but I will run until I find who I am

I know I will find the old me
happy, silly, and perfect
right where I left myself
and I hope that girl can forgive me
for not loving who I was.

To me, you feel like watching a sunset
and bathing in its warmth.

You make me want to get better.
And for once, I believe I can.

And just like that, I began looking for you everywhere I went.

You know you're falling when you look at them
and think "I'm finally home."

I've found that the most beautiful thing we can learn
is to love who we are, not who we want to be.

You were once my light,
but now I've found that I can be my own sun.

I've fallen for you like lyrics from a singer's mouth.
I can find a part of you in every love song.

I no longer have to search and search for good things
each day, I can finally find them in myself.

I hope my hands can one day hold
a empty heart and fill it with love.

To you who feels like the world is against you,
You Deserve To Be Loved.

For the first time in a while,
I was able to look at myself
and think, I love you.

I think I'm finally starting to love the person I am.
Not the person I want to be.

You told me you fell in love
hard and fast.
It's funny how you fell out of love
like that too.

If I'm the one who taught you how to love,
does that mean
I'm the one who taught you how to fall out of it, too?

He looks at you as if
you were an art piece.
Beautiful,
appreciated,
unique.
I wish you could see yourself
like that too.

I'm scared that if I let you
into my heart, you'll leave
behind footprints that my
tears can't wash away.

No one is truly gone
if you still carry them
with you in your
heart.

People just don't understand that
when you read our stories,
you're reading a part of us that was
brave enough to escape our hearts.

My love for you is growing
just like the flowers in bloom.

Each day I find
a new reason
to love myself.

It's like the entire world feels right
whenever I see you.

I knew I loved you
when the first thought
I had when I saw you
was that I was finally
home.

I used to feel dead.
like everything I did
was mechanic and
routinely.  

With no feeling in my body or my mind or my soul.

When I first met you
was the first time
I was made aware
that my heart was beating.

That it was possible for me to feel alive.

Before I met you, my world was
black and white
boring and uneventful
tiring and much too long.

Before I met you, my soul was
dark and gloomy
deteriorated and torn
hopeless and lost.

Before I met you, my heart was
broken and in pieces
misused and contorted
distressed and not trusting.

But now that you're here,
my world is thrilling and colorful
my soul is hopeful and bright
and
my heart is loving and whole.

I think I'm finally starting to
love myself a bit more,
laugh a bit more,
smile a bit more,
enjoy life a bit more,
and
am thankful to be alive
a bit more.

I cut my hair short.
I feel like with the hair,
I've left behind the old me.
I'm just one more step closer to
finally accepting myself.

I find myself holding on
to things that didn't
put in the effort
to hold on to me.

If there was one sight
I wish I never saw...
It would be your back
as you walked away
from what we had.

I find it hard to open up again.
I'm scared I'll have to watch you walk
while I sit alone reaching out to a distant memory.

You said you'd always love me
so why do I sit here alone at 3am
wondering where it went wrong.

You said you'd always love me
I didn't know always meant until
you got bored.

I've always had trouble sleeping.
It used to be because I'd stay up
every night
just to talk to you.

Now it's because it's cold
every night
without you warming my heart
and the tears don't seem to stop
without you there to wipe them away.