here I am
left alone,
broken,
and torn

no one seems to care
no one asks why,
I am forcing myself not to cry

they just let me live through life
with all of the pain in my eyes
they don't care,
about all the burdens I bear

so I sit alone,
because I have no one
and with life,
i'm just done

there's nothing left to give up on,
my demons have already won

you said
you loved me
and i know that
it isn't true
if you ever say
that again
i'll know now
not believe your lies
ben, i loved you
and still do
i just don't want
to loose you
all over again
goodbye, ben
remember that
i love you
from the bottom
of my heart

even though i would never let you
i love how you would spend $138 on a ******* stuffed panda
to make me smile.

What I wouldn't give
For just one day
To laze about
In the heat
With close friends
And just talk about whatever random
Crap we happen to think of.