i wish there wasn’t bad blood
i’m tired
i can’t help but to miss you
and what we used to be
i know that it’s selfish of me
i’ve tried so hard to force the thoughts out
but once i’m alone
my heart breaks all over again
i’m content where i’m standing
but i’m still hung up on
what if’s

i trusted you
thought you were different
told you about everyone who’s
hurt me
but you’re right up there
standing ******* proudly with them

i bled out for you
spilled my ******* guts

i realized i am loved
and im being selfish
being selfish comes in so many different forms
im tired of dwelling
there’s light behind these black out curtains
today i realized that all i have to do is push the curtains aside and let in the warmth and light
no more sobbing in a cold black out box
there’s so much more to life

be sure you kiss your knuckles
before you punch me in the face

are we whole
or just two halves
reaching out to the unknown?

this is killing me
but i want to die anyway right
i’m fueled and i feed off of your energy
you might not have died that night
but baby i swear you’re dead to me
but please come back
but stay the hell away
but look into my eyes
just for a moment
then quickly look
away

maybe we’re meant to be
alone.

they’ll never take us alive

i don’t care if you’re contagious
let me hold your hand
i don’t care if your sick
you’re beautiful to me
let’s both lie bedridden
together
they’ll never take us alive
i’d rather die