There is nothing for me here. Just the constant reminder. I'm alone in a house of strangers. You don't know me. I don't want to call this a home. I just want to be on my way to being alone. But I can't leave you. I'm never comfortable with the yelling or constant worry of what I will see. I just wish you knew for a second what it's like here for me. But you won't take me seriously. Making jokes about it doesn't make it better for me.
I can't hold a candle to most men. I'm trying to keep burn free but this hurts me. I can't keep composure when there's nothing keeping me sane. The same sad face you make just makes me crazy. Living here day by day seems So Arbitrary.
Having her love makes me feel like I've won the lottery It's as if no one on this planet even exists There's only her She's so magnificent I fall more in love with her every single day Our phone calls make me smile I see her face and I look into her eyes It brings me to tears knowing she's so far away But we'll get to be together eventually Just her and me Where every morning I'll get to roll over to her And greet her with a kiss
breathing hasn't been this hard before there are wild bells ringing within me still my shy lungs are quiet, then taunted with smoke and yesterday's warmth
Maybe I wasn't cut out for this Affection so effective Its a chapter in my dreams Maybe I wasn't built for this A voice so potent it fuels the poison That is love Maybe I don't deserve this A love so pure the hairs on my arm Stand The path of my veins leads to you My heartbeat..rises like a bird On a new day Maybe I wasn't made to love
pawns didn't do me much good but friends do what they can sure, the timing was a flattering element but what am I a useless chess piece quick, your queen is calling I'll be in the border between the black and the white if you need me
Paint me on a paper or paint me in your head. You can even paint me lying down on bed. I don't care where you paint me as long as you paint me beside you. Splash the paint on my skin and watch the sin begin. Paint me in red or in different shades of blue. I don't care if you even paint me kissing you. Just promise you'll hang my portraits up on your bedroom walls. Cause they will scare any shadow that comes out and crawls ~